An Author's Explanation: This is a one shot, quick monologue I typed out on the discovery ofthe recent sad news of Jerry Orbach, voice of Lumiere's death. This will probably be the most unintelligable writing I ever do, but it was more or less to get sometough sadness and painoff my chest. Writing is my drug; I use it to describe anything I'm feeling, be it sadness or joy. This, on that note, iswritten in a Babs' feelings point of view, way down the line to a place in time my fanfics will never reach. I know it repeats, I know some parts may not make sense, but when one loses a loved one in their life, I don't think anyone does make sense, so it works. Hope it doesn't annoy anyone too much, but thanks for the read. Please be kind if you choose to review.
A Lover's Farewell
A Small Fanfiction Monologue By Faith Kelter
Do you realize what you have done to me tonight? After all we have been through, all we have done together, you have abandoned me in the worst way you ever could imagined. Even as I sit here with the friends that remain, our child now grown, you leave me lost and alone. I almost hate you…almost.
All we have been through indeed…
In the beginning days of our love, you stopped at nothing to make me your own; you turned me into an obsession. I despised you then…no, not despise. I was afraid, that some day this would happen. Nevertheless, you eased my fears and became the end all, be all, and everything I had in life. You made me what I am today.
The spell, our test of pain and terror as through the injustices of our master, we all slowly de-evolved into nothing but bric-a-brac and baubles. We became what we were, nothing but objects to serve him. But through it all, you lived up to your brilliant name, the light of my life. You were everyone's optimistic ray of hope; if you were ever disheartened, you never allowed your horrors shine forth.
I was never in any truthful doubt that you loved me…I swear I can hear you laugh at those words even now. I always knew you did, even in our passing teases and flirtations. Would you have stayed by my side in times of need if you did not?
If you were anyone else, you would have left me be from the start.
If you were anyone else, you would have not cared if I had been plucked to shreds.
If you were anyone else, you would have left me to care for our child myself. You would have married me in obligation; our child would have simply been a nuisance, a nothing…if only you were anyone else.
We have survived every obstacle thrown in our path, and after it all, you chose to leave me. You no longer stared at death defiantly, nor did you fight it. If only I did not realize that you do not hurt anymore, that your suffering was over…that I would see you again…I would hate you. I wish I could!
But we will be together again soon enough. We will dance across the skies on the wings of the clouds by the light of the stars as you promised. I hold you to your every word.
Do I hate you? Never.
Do I love you? Always.
Shall I miss you? Forever.
Sleep well, mon amour, till we are together again…je t'aime…maintenant et toujours…