It's eight o' clock, almost time for Yun's party. I called off of work the whole day today; that dream is still unsettling me. I can't get the picture of Carth and my family... no don't think of it. Carth couldn't have killed my family... or could he? I know nothing about him... but it was just a dream. I probably just dreamt about my family's death because of everything that happened last night. I mean, I never am in true contact with Republic soldiers. That must be it.
Yet as I am getting ready for the party, my mind seems to wander to all the meanings of the dream. Maybe, it was just a coincidence... I mean, when I dream about that night, it's never in that gruesome of detail and I never know the cold-blooded murders of my family. Or maybe.... maybe it is a sign, telling me that Carth really was person who... no, NO that can't be.
Why do I care though? What if it is Carth? What do I care? Why should I care? He means nothing to me... I barely know him... I don't know him. I should just push him from my mind... yet all today I have tried that and every time I do, his face just comes back to me. Hopefully this quarantine will end soon and I will never have to see him again. Yet, if the quarantine ends, that must mean that either the Sith give up looking for the Republic survivors or that Carth and his friend are found. Shit... I really don't want either to happen. I mean, I hate the Sith, yet I will always have an undying loathing for the Republic. They took everything I ever had away from me. But I don't want to see Carth hurt.
What am I thinking??? He is a REPUBLIC SOLDIER!!!! I really can't be ... thinking straight. Am I going to let a handsome... well more than handsome... STOP!! I can't keep thinking this way. I know what I need?! I need a drink... I better hurry up and get to Yun's party or I am going to crack!