Disclaimer: I, Andromeda-elf, don't own DBZ or characters from DBZ.
Summary: Chi-Chi's thoughts after Cell's Games.
When Hero Falls.
I was laying in the bed, fresh tears rolling down my cheeks. Everything seemed to be so untrue… so horrible…
It seemed like only 8 hours ago he was here, hugging and kissing me good bye, telling that he'll come back to me… that he wouldn't leave me… that it wasn't his time yet… that he wouldn't die in the hands of Cell…
And he didn't. Cell didn't kill him…
Instead Goku sacrificed himself for all of us… for the Earth… for Gohan… for me…
I closed my eyes and turned around, facing the side of the bed where Goku used to sleep. I remembered how he would hold me here, kiss me, whisper good night or just simply talk to me…
And then reality hit me with it's full might. That was it… Full stop. Goku was gone and I would never see him again… Ever…
God, I would give anything just to bring him back, to be with him, to say how much I love him, how much I need him…
Or just to say good bye and go on with my life without him…
But I knew I couldn't do the last part.
There was still left so much undone…
Goku will never see his son, when he'll grow up… He'll never see his grandchildren…
My life was broken… My heart was thorn in million small peaces… It seemed like my soul left me and I was alone in the dark…
But I have to stand up again for Gohan… I couldn't drown myself in the grief… Goku wouldn't have wanted that…
But again…
How could I know, what Goku wanted if he was gone… Gone from my life forever.
I turned in bed again and buried my face in the white pillow… It seemed like I could still feel that manly scent of Goku… And I breathed in, trying to sleep…
Eventually I succeed and just before falling into unhappy dream I whispered.
- I love you, Goku… I always will…
THE END