I know I shouldn't be doing this. I know, but I just cant help it, so sue me. I really wanted to write this it will go on for..i don't know how long but I've got it planned out until the end so all I have to do is type it out. This is where the problem comes in; I have my GCSEs coming up in about a week and will go on until late June so I beg for your forgiveness if I shall update less frequently than desired. Now moving on I would like to also say that my other stories are also going to suffer due to my bloody exams but I will try to update as often as possible. I realize that I'm becoming repetitive, if not rephrasing everything I've already said(I even do it in class and it pisses the teachers off but its sooo fun!) so I'll just shut up so you can read my story and you can tell me what you think of this new addition to my collection

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Mutatio

James Potter stepped through the barrier at King's Cross' platform 9 3/4, and anyone could see there was a different air about him. Even Lily Evans noticed it, although she didn't was to admit to anything that had to do with Potter.

His eyes, that were hidden behind his glasses, were visible and hollow, as if haunted by the darkest things in the world and he had grown his hair; it was now roughly shoulder length give or take a few inches, although it still looked windswept and gave him a new form of mature attractiveness. He didn't talk to anyone, that is if he actually chose to acknowledge them; he just walked to the train and moved to the back were he would meet his friends.

The fact of the matter was that not many people actually saw James pass through them. The very few that did didn't think much of it as they associated his new attitude to what happened to him over the summer holidays. It was all over the 'Daily Prophet'; his parents and younger sister were brutally killed in their home estate and his brother was sent o St. Mungo's in critical condition. James was not at the house at the time and so he escaped but he had arrived some time later and witnessed the crumbled bodies of his parents and sister.

He hadn't talked since. The only people that he talked to were the Marauders

In the compartment at the back of the train, nothing was happening. There was absolute quiet. Which could have been very scary if it had been any other train ride.

That is until Severus Snape appeared soon after the train had began moving

"If it isn't the half-breed and his little mudblood-loving friends. How are you Lupin? I that the full moon the other day didn't drain you to much" he said, his voice dripping with malice

Remus Lupin, a werewolf, blinked up at him in surprise, whilst Sirius Black, one of his best friends, sprang up to face him

"Get out Snape" he growled. He then felt someone pulling him back ant turning around he saw James, staring at him with nothing but an indifferent expression

"Sit down Sirius" he whispered loudly before turning to look out the window.

The compartment was once again quiet. They were all looking at him, with a mixture of respect (Remus), surprise (Sirius) and rage (Snape)

"My, my, my, someone's grown over the summer" Snape drawled, trying to find a way to anger him, "Something to do with getting rid of your parents, Potter?"

James's pulse began to race and he visible clenched his fists

"Hit a nerve did I Potter?" he smiled evilly

"That is way bellow the belt Snape" Sirius said, anger noticeable in his voice

"How would you know Black? Your parents don't even want you" Snape snapped back. Sirius flinched

Within a blink of an eye James was standing in front of Snape with his wand right between his eyes the look of indifference was now replaced with a look of utter loathing, and Snape began to feel afraid

"I except your foul language when it comes to me Snape, but when it comes to my friends I suggest you shut the hell up" James' voice came even and strong. Snape gulped.

"James -" Remus began, to try to stop him from doing something, but James cut him off, who had turned to him

"No Remus. He's over done it this time. He-" but this time he was cut off by something that Snape was muttering. He turned around to face him only to hear a dark spell

"Asper altivolus" Snape whispered harshly

It seemed that he was the only one that heard it though as it hit him on his right shoulder and he staggered back

"Stupify!" someone else that was out of the compartment. Snape fell to the floor and Lily Evans walked over him to enter the compartment

Remus and Sirius looked at her in surprise, while James merrily looked at his injured shoulder. He knew that the wound wasn't the actual effect of the course. No, but he would experience the after shock soon. Especially if he couldn't control his emotions. And the best thing was; he couldn't go to Madam Pomfrey because then she would see the other scars he had on his back, and frankly he couldn't stand the questions

"James are you ok?" he heard Sirius ask him. He looked up at him and nodded

"Yea, I'm fine. Err.. Thanks Lily" he added

Lily was surprised to hear James utter anything let alone her name. She shook her head slowly and tried to regain composure.

"Its ok, Potter. I was just doing my duty." She replied. Then she turned to Remus, "Remus are you Head Boy? Because we're wanted in front" she asked him

"Actually no I'm not. I don't really know who he is either" he said smoothly

"I am" James voiced finally, his eyes now on Lily.

The compartment was silent once again

"You are Head Boy?" Lily whispered unbelievingly

"Yes. It's a mystery to me too Lily but what can you do huh?" he answered. He stepped closer to her and she held her breath without realizing, "Come on Lily, they're waiting for us" he added as he walked passed her, leaving them all staring after him.

"He's Head Boy?" Sirius asked with a high pitched voice, so unlike his own.

"Seems like it doesn't it?" Remus replied.

"Err.. I gotta go" was all Lily could master and left confused.

"Why the hell didn't he tell us?" Sirius complained

"Leave him alone Padfoot, he's got a lot on his mind now" was all that was said after that, as they both sat back down

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Before Lily arrived, James leaned against the wall and took a few breaths to calm his breathing. He could feel Snape's spell taking full effect and he needed to ground his emotions but after he saw her again, he knew it was going to be hard.

He could feel pain soar through him with every beating of his heart, his legs weighed a ton and he felt very dizzy.

There's only one thing he could do now and that was to stay clear of Lily Evans

"Come on, Potter" he heard her call out and then he felt her move past him, leaving her sent in her wake. Immediately his smelling sense heightened to an excruciating level, making him gasp in pain

Dear God was this going to be a hard trying to keep his new resolution

A/N so what do you think? Shall I continue? Shall I stop? It's up to you peeps!

Dictionary: mutatio~ a change, alternation, transformation

Asper altivolus~ fierce soaring

The chapters shall be titled in Latin and there will be a dictionary at the bottom of every chapter