When Kurama left Yusuke's, he ran aimlessly, but somehow, he ended up at home, nonetheless.
He stood outside the house, his shadow short beneath the street-lights.
The streets were empty.
He was alone in that night.
What had happened?
The night wind blew soft. It was cold, but Kurama didn't feel it and when the first snow began to fall, Kurama didn't notice.
He hadn't meant to...
He touched his mouth. The blood was gone. He had wiped at his face until it was clean again, but he could still taste Hiei in his mouth.
What had happened?
He only meant to see that the fire demon was alright...He had only meant to be near him when he couldn't see the look in Kurama's eyes...
But instead, Kurama had kissed him...what a lie...it was more than that...
And Hiei had let him...
The lights were on in his home. He noted they were also on even in his room. In the dark of the night and his confused thoughts, it was like gazing at a lighthouse near an ocean.
He paused and saw his mother through a window. She was sitting at the kitchen table and set in front of her were two cups for tea just starting to cool.
"I'll see you tonight, Shuiichi." she had said.
"Mother..." Kurama whispered.
His eyes turned downward unconsciously, and he was looking at his shadow. A human shadow with fox ears and a tail.
After all that Kurama had done to be human, wasn't this the truth?
"What if it isn't temporary?" That's what Yusuke had said.
"Different..." Tohru had repeated as his eyes fluttered asleep, "I don't know how...but..."
"Perhaps because you, too, know your past well enough and understand that you can never be more than you are."
"What am I, Hiei?"
The answer was simple. "A thief. A demon." he paused. "A killer."
Kurama said nothing, his eyes were wide now, his mouth slightly opened.
"Hn. Where is your logic now?"
Kurama hung his head. Where was his logic? That was a good question. Everything felt so far from his control now.
When he was in the room with Hiei, it felt like he suddenly wasn't himself...like something else had compelled him to press his body, his mouth to that of the Jaganshii...and hadn't he felt then, a surge of power when Hiei had struggled beneath him. The thought made him feel ashamed now...It wasn't like Shuiichi to feel such things...but it was like the Youko...
But what did that mean?
Lately, everything was so far out of his hands...
It was Yusuke, in the end that had saved his mother any grief from her son dying the same day she was granted new life through the Mirror.
It was Hiei who almost died because Kurama almost couldn't do what was necessary to save him.
It was Tohru in the hospital..
It was his mother waiting for a son that wasn't really even her own. It was a cup of tea she had made for him that was cooling now. It was the look on his mother's face, worried and sad...
Kurama had done all of this...
Despite his apperance, Kurama was human then as the events of the last months finally took their toll. It was then that Yusuke found him and whatever he had to say, whatever doubts and suspicions on his mind, he didn't say anything then.
He waited, not saying a word, as Kurama, his face hidden behind his hands, cried in a dark and empty night.
...to be continued...
Author's Note: Hi again! Hey that was actually kinda sad...I didn't mean to write it that way at first, but...Well! There is still more to come and not all of it is happy. But don't worry! Some of it is! Maybe :) SO! Don't worry! Will update more this weekend! Maybe a little tomorrow and a little Sunday. Yeah! Almost Holloween! We're having a small party back home...but it's at 11 in the morning...strange, I know :) Anyhoo...sorry for rambling :) Hope you'll keep reading! Thank you for your reviews, as always, I truly appreciate them all (I really, really do :)! :) :D 3