Unrequited?

Chapter 5.

I apologise Profusely for the shortness of the last chapter. I couldn't get my head around the conversation. And I will edit it at a later point if I get the chance.

Anyway, I have sat and thought about this in many a lesson, and I hope you like.

Lily POV

I am sitting in my room with Sirius Black.

Yes I have allowed the worst Marauder, the biggest womaniser in Hogwarts to sit on my bed. I had hoped that he would never grace the presence of my room, but desperate times call for desperate measures.

His gaze wanders around the chaos and disorder at my room. He probably expected it to be neat and ordered, with everything in its allocated space.

Oh how wrong he is.

He hasn't failed to notice the piles of clothes on every available space, or the towers of muggle and witchcraft books I have stacked on the floor.

He's view kept wandering back to a pile of clothes on my chair. He smiles saucily at me and winks.

He whipped out a wand, faster then I thought humanly possible. He says innocently "Accio bra!"

Having realised this just a split-second before I reach out and grab the garment before his fingers even get a feeling. I placed it under me. He gaze me a look as if to say 'It's not like I won't go there.' He grins once more, before turning serious.

"Lily, despite the fact that I have always wanted to be in your personal living space, and that I'm loving the fact I'm actually sitting on your bed, I'm just wondering why."

I sigh, knowing that this is not only going to be awkward for me, but for him too.

"Well I need to talk to someone about the whole situation with James and Remus. And usually I'd go to Remus, but I can't. And it's not like I have any close friends I could confide in, and you know the whole situation in the first place, so you're perfect really."

He grinned happily, I return the smile and move in closer.

"Sirius you are James and Remus's best friend, and they tell you everything. I don't want you to betray a confidence, but I need to know a few things." I paused, taking in a long breath. "How long has Remus liked me? Why does James have a facination on me, yet he has dated half of Hogwarts? And what is the thing about an engagement ring?"

Sirius moved closer to me, we bumped knees.

"I'm only going to answer these Lily because you trusted me enough to ask me them. And god forbid I'd hate it if you weren't happy."

He took my hand and squeezed it, he stared at our joined hands for a moment, before he started speaking.

"Remus has like you for about a year now. He realised it when you took that hex that was meant for Snape, he said that you were "truly compassionate and caring". James noticed you in the third year. He saw you take on 3 fifth year Slytherins, and the fact that you can out of it with barely a scratch on you. He was astounded, you were always so quiet in class, James likes his women strong. He decided there and then that he was going to marry you. Yet every time you refused to go on a date with him it just made him more determined." Sirius paused. I breathed deeply trying to take in all of the information. His gaze met mine, a little surprised.

"Anyway Evans why are you so surprised? Your beautiful, got a great body yet your intelligent and can hold you own against practically everyone in the year. Plus you're caring; you have a maternal instinct that drives most men mad. James and Remus, well, there just being normal 17 years olds Lily. There aren't that many boys in Hogwarts that can resist you, even the Slytherins. The only reason they all stayed away is because of James, they didn't want to get in his way…." Sirius trailed off.

I sat in silence before I realised he had avoided the whole ring question.

"Sirius, what about the ring?" I asked a little nervously.

He stared at me, "Lily, I think James should tell you about that, it's not my place."

Sirius got up and left.

James POV

I just called off Quidditch practise because I couldn't think straight.

I heard footsteps behind me, only to find Frank Longbottom. "James please sort out your head before the match against Ravenclaw next weekend." And with that he ran off. I trudged slowly behind him, trying to postpone the fact that I would have to go back to the common room.

The wind whipped up around me and I pulled my mudded Quidditch robes around me. When I entered the warmth of the castle I felt the warmth return to my face, and my glasses fog up. I approached the common room, only to find Sirius exiting. He saw the state of me, smiled knowingly and walked off without a word.

I stepped into the common room to find it deserted; Lily was likely off somewhere doing homework.

I settled down in my favourite armchair by the fire, deciding to postpone the shower. I reached under the cushion and pulled out my journal. It had been a week since I'd wrote in it. And so much had happened.

I opened it at the next clean page and started to write.

Lily has found out the truth, that I love her. But she and I have discovered that Remus is also after her heart.

I've loved her for so long, and he just steps in and thinks he can sweep her of her feet. I don't blame him for being interested, most of Hogwarts is, but made it clear that she was mine. Yes she was allowed to like people, but if they ever made a move on her there would be hell.

Only Sirius understands my longing for her, yet he can't identify with it. He knows how strongly I feel, he knows about my mother's last wish, and her ring.

And now Lily knows of the ring.

What she must think of me! A sad little boy that went out and bought a ring for a girl who doesn't even acknowledge is existence as a human being.

I've deflated my head, tried to act more humble, only to have Mooney step in and whisk her away. I have to win her back.

I just hope she lets me talk to her

I hid my journal back under the cushion and sat and stared at the fire until I felt myself falling asleep.

I no longer cared that I was in muddy robes, and in desperate need of a shower. I only cared for Lily and to sleep.

Thanks for reading!

It's a little longer than usual, and I have changed my original plan. I won't get much chance to write tomorrow, but I will definitely ponder on how I'm going to dot he next part.

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