Sora ni hirogaru tenshi no koi: Part 10
Disclaimer: I...don't...own...it!
Blah blah. Read and find out. And about me saying that the word fuck doesn't excist in my fic.....I lied. XD
-Tabi-chan
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Sora ni hirogaru tenshi no koi: Part 10
The past few days have difficult for me. First of all, my fever. All week I have had a hard time keeping that charade up. And second, was Riku. I must be going crazy, but every where I go he is there. For example, if I look out my window I see him looking at me, but I double-take and then he's gone.
He's everywhere. The other day I could have sworn I felt and saw his hand on me shoulder. His cold ivory flash touching mine. Sending ten-thousand shivers down my spine. I turned and there was nothing. My imagination has just gone to far.
After my third day of staying home I knew mother was starting to get annoyed from seeing me. I just couldn't stand the sight of Riku's eyes, glaring at me. His lips forming a sinister smirk. I would have literally have gone insane. Not a figure of speech, seriously. Mother entered my room and scoffed at the sight of me sitting on the edge of my bed. I was happy I had just put on a shirt.
"Sora," she began, shifting her weight onto her other side, "tomorrow you are going back to school."
I curled my upper lip and shook my head, knowing if I protested I would loose, so I didn't bother to try. I was worried about what I was gonna do about Riku. I mean, tomorrow being Friday it wouldn't be all that bad. One day of school and then I'd have he whole weekend! Right?
Not willing, I nodded and did I small smile until she left the room. The pressure was beginning to get to me. The bruises remained and he got off free. I needed somebody to talk too. Somebody I could trust. Somebody that has always been there for me.
Then, it hit me like a baseball, fast and hard. I knew who I needed to talk to. They may not have been there recently, but when I was child, always there. Through thick and thin you might say.
I walked to the closet and pulled off my shirt and quickly began searching for my hoodie. It was black with a large skull on the front. My favorite hoodie. I changed out of my pajama pants and into a long pair of baggy blue jeans.
After I dressed I looked into the mirror that was connected to my dresser. I looked terrible. Since I had hadn't really eaten in the past week I had lost weight. My face looked thinner and a little paler. My eyes have grown darker and had deep black bags under them from the lack of sleep.
Never in my life have I looked this bad. The fabric pinched a bruise on the back of my neck and made me wince. I shifted around and walked out of the room. Traveling through the hall I had some second thoughts.
What if I choose the wrong person to talk to? What if it gets around the school? What if they confront Riku in front of me? All of these thoughts troubled me. I slipped my hands into my pockets and walked into the kitchen. Mother was sitting at the table, reading like always.
I cleared my throat. Without looking up she continued to read and answered at the same time. I could never do that, it must be a talent, I guess. "Yes?" she asked.
"Um, Mom, I'm gonna go to Kairi's for a while. I need to ask her about a few things. I should be back in about," I paused and looked at the clock and saw it was 8:30, "an hour or so." She shook her head, "Ok, be back before 10 though."
Keeping my eyes on the ground, I walked to the door and slipped on my shoes. When I opened the door I noticed it was still raining. It had been since Tuesday. The calm pattering of the shower was soothing. I pulled my hood over my unruly spikes and then placed my hands back into my pockets.
I sighed and walked into the humid cold air. The water began absorbing the water, making it come though my hood while
I crossed the driveway and into Kairi's yard. My shoes sunk into the ground while I stepped down, making it a little more difficult to walk.
Once I made it to the porch I placed my hand on the banister and slowly walked on the small flight of stairs. I approached the door and placed my fist on the base of the cold metal door, about to knock. Then the second thoughts started kicking in again.
Am I sure Kairi is the one I should tell? Who else is there to tell? I can't trust anyone. Then why should I trust her? Why don't I get a job and save up see a psychiatrist? No time for that.
No time for that. I will probably go insane by then. I wonder how long I could last without a psychiatrist. A year? Two weeks? A week? Not even that. Maybe not even a day. The pressure is finally getting to me. Riku was everywhere in sight.
Before I could knock, Kairi's mother opened the door. Her mother hasn't changed and I began seeing her and Kairi's similarities. Accept for their hair and eyes color. Her mother's hair was a mid-length dirty blonde and she had brown eyes.
"Sora? What brings you here?" she asked.
"Um, sorry to bother you, but is Kairi home? I need to ask her on some homework if that's ok," I said bowing politely.
"Sure. You can go on up, she's in her room," she stepped back, allowing me to enter.
I eyed the room and noticed how the place never changed. Same wallpaper, same carpet, and same people.
I walked up stairs and down the hall, making my way to her room. It wasn't hard to spot with a big plaque with gold letters saying "KAIRI'S ROOM". I cleared my throat and knocked on the door.
"Yes?" I heard, faintly.
I knocked again, "Yes?!" this time it was a little louder. Then some pattering of approaching footsteps.
Before I could reply the door swung open. The red head stood in front of me in a tight hot pink halter top and a some loose pajama pants. She looked shocked at first then her attitude struck her again. Her "Ha, I'm still better than you" face. "Sora?" she whispered, "What do you want?"
I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out. I low hoarse noise escaped as tears rolled down my cheeks. "What's wrong?" she asked as the bitchy attitude left her voice. Kairi placed her hand on my shoulder and pulled me into her room before her mom could hear. She led me to her bed and sat me at the foot.
She sat on her knee on floor in front of me and leaned on my knees. "Sora," she whispered, "Are you ok?" I shook my head in reply. She gave a small grin to make me feel better, but it didn't. It gave me the impression that she was happy to see my this way.
"I want to show you something," I said as I slowly pushed her off, so I could stand. She sat back on her knees and folded her arms. I placed my fingertips under my hoodie and easily lifted it up. Kairi's eyes widen in surprise as her hand lifted over her partially opened mouth with a gasp. Her hand reached up and brushed over a hickey above my navel. I winced and backed up a little, pulling the hoodie off the rest of the way.
"Holy shit, Sora," she whispered, pulling back her hand, "Who did this to you?" I shook my head. I didn't really want to say, but that decision was already decided, I had no other options. I sat my hoodie beside me and sat back down. The words wouldn't come out. Only tears. The hot salty wetness dripped down from my eyes and down my cheeks. I closed my eyes for a moment and lets more tears flow.
"Was it your mother?" she asked.
I denied it and took in another deep breath as I felt my throat staring to close. I stared at the floor and listened to our breathing. Awaiting the right words to say. She kept asking if it was my mother. Mom would never do anything like this no matter how mad she got at me.
"It was...," paused and looked at her, "I wasn't actually beaten."
Her eyes grew concern and she opened her mouth to speak but I cut her off before the slightest breath was released, "Riku..."
"Riku?" she asked tilting her head
"He..he did this to me!" I blurted, with more tears flowing over the dried ones, re wetting my face. Kairi sat up and hugged me, I cried out when she squeezed me. She apologized and lightened up. "What happened?" she asked. It was hard to say; the fact I was forced, but also willing. I wanted him to love me, but not force me into loving him back.
"He, uh, well, raped me," I confessed.
"Raped!? Is that why you haven't been in school?" the red head asked. I simply nodded. After I got the big word out, it seemed to be slightly easier to tell the rest. Well, maybe the intercourse part, that was a little difficult. She was quiet and listen to everything I said without as much as a murmur.
When I was finished the tears stopped flowing and I felt a lot better. I stood and helped Kairi to her feet. She smiled and shook her head. "What?" I questioned. Her wandered over to her desk and sat backwards in the computer chair, leaning on the back.
"All this time," she began and paused with a chuckle, "all this time while this was happening, I never knew. It was all happening right under my nose. I would have never thought for one second that you were, well, ya know. I thought, for the longest time that you liked me. Maybe at one point, even love me." I chuckled. She cleared her throat and continued, "And Riku, he kissed me, then out of no where I find out he raped you. I never knew he was gay," she finished, resting her head on her crossed arms.
I snorted, "Babe, I don't think he gay or straight." I pulled my hoodie back over my head, concealing my wounds. "I'm sorry about what I said to you about the 'you're a stuck up bitch' thing, but Kairi, remember how you and me used to be good friends? We used to play from dawn to dusk. Well, ever since we got into high school, you changed. You stopped coming over, you stopped talking to me, all you did was cheat off my tests!"
She chuckled, "I see."
With that I looked at the clock and saw it was 10:15. I squealed, "Uh, Kairi, I gotta go. I'll see you at school tomorrow." I rushed out the door and down the stairs. I slipped on my shoes. I looked over and saw Kairi's mother on the phone glued to her ear like always. I shook my head and went out the door, back into the rain.
The rain hadn't changed, still pouring down. My shoes were sticking and sinking into the soft, muddy ground while I walked on it. Cars passed and their bright beams of light flashed into my eyes. I climbed onto the porch and into the house, kicking off my muddy shoes and placing them on the rack. I waited, expecting a screaming mother, but got nothing.
Mother had already gone to bed, which was good on my part. I peered into her room and saw her curled in a ball under the fluffy, blue covers. I cracked the door and headed back to my room. I pulled off the hoodie again and tossed it on the computer chair.
I pulled off my jeans and kicked them behind me as the hit the floor and pulled on a pair of teal pajama pants and a baggy white shirt.
- The Next Day -
The alarm sounded at exactly 6:00 a.m. Another day of fear. I know Riku will be here today I can feel it. I took a shower and got dressed. I didn't worry about spiking my head, it would just get ruined anyway from the rain. I just left it unruly. Mother was still asleep by the time I was ready to go, which was 6:45. I paid no mind and left.
The rain lightened up. It was calmer. The raindrops patted on my clothes and soaked my hair. When I got to the school I sighed before entering the gates. What to do? I know Riku will be most likely in front. Maybe the back way will less conspicuous. I slipped through the gate and placed my hands into the pockets and headed to the back of the school.
Raindrops trickled down my hot cheeks. I was nervous. I placed me hand on the handle and was about to open it when I heard a loud scream. A familiar scream. Glancing over my shoulder with wide eyes I saw a boy at the soccer field. He was on his on his knees.
I tilted my head and headed towards the field. I was curious on what was wrong. Why was a guy on the soccer field, screaming, in the rain? When I got to the base of the field I leaned onto fence post to try and see a face through the rain, but it was kinda hard to.
The boy got up and walked to the goal and grabbed the soccer ball from the net and kicked it as hard as he could, slipping from the thrust of his foot. I shook my head and went down a little farther. I squinted my eyes and gasped. It was Riku. What's wrong with him? He looked like he was pissed.
"Riku," I called moving closer to his area. No reply.
"Riku, what's wrong?" I asked placing my hands on his shoulders. He froze and turned, piercing me with his gaze. Riku jerk away and kicked the ball again. Before retrieving it he eyed me. His eyes red. I couldn't tell if it was from tears or the rain.
"Get away from me," he demanded.
"But, I..." I tried to say, but he cut me off.
"I thought I told you to get the hell out of here!" he hollered. His voice was troubled, I didn't know what to do. Riku turned and grasped the ball.
There was nothing for me to do. I shook my head and headed up the hill and back into the school. I entered the crowded halls. Every eye in sight was on me and slowly began to get quiet. I looked at my peers and made my way to my lock. I could hear the crowd whispering every time I passed.
By my locker I saw Kairi and Bara. The red head was whispering into the taller girl's ear. Then their eyes met me. I cleared my throat looked at Kairi. "Uh, Kairi-chan, can I talk to you?"
She giggled, "No."
"Kairi, I really need to talk to you." I whispered, looking over my shoulder at the students staring at me.
Bara interrupted, "Look, fag, she don't want to talk to you now leave her alone. No one wants to talk to a guy that fucked another guy." Then it hit me. The worst thing that could ever happen. Kairi told. She told everything. Riku knows I told Kairi. My fist clinched. My nails entering my skin. I winced.
"What's the matter Sora," asked Kairi, "afraid that your fuck bunny will leave you?"
"You bitch!" I yelled as I lost control of my actions. My hand went numb. I looked back at Kairi and saw her leaning against the lockers holding her face. Tears streaming down the ends of her eyes. I hit her. I just hit a girl. I looked at my fist and back at her again. Bara was screaming, but I heard nothing.
Her hands were around Kairi, I saw a red spot forming on her face. I ran. Bursting through the school doors, back into the rain. I ran and ran. I didn't know where I was going.
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Chapter 10 COMPLETE!!!!!!!
How was it? Like it? I know I did. XD
Please review and be nice.
-Tabi-chan
Next chapter is a-comin'!!!!!!!
Disclaimer: I...don't...own...it!
Blah blah. Read and find out. And about me saying that the word fuck doesn't excist in my fic.....I lied. XD
-Tabi-chan
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Sora ni hirogaru tenshi no koi: Part 10
The past few days have difficult for me. First of all, my fever. All week I have had a hard time keeping that charade up. And second, was Riku. I must be going crazy, but every where I go he is there. For example, if I look out my window I see him looking at me, but I double-take and then he's gone.
He's everywhere. The other day I could have sworn I felt and saw his hand on me shoulder. His cold ivory flash touching mine. Sending ten-thousand shivers down my spine. I turned and there was nothing. My imagination has just gone to far.
After my third day of staying home I knew mother was starting to get annoyed from seeing me. I just couldn't stand the sight of Riku's eyes, glaring at me. His lips forming a sinister smirk. I would have literally have gone insane. Not a figure of speech, seriously. Mother entered my room and scoffed at the sight of me sitting on the edge of my bed. I was happy I had just put on a shirt.
"Sora," she began, shifting her weight onto her other side, "tomorrow you are going back to school."
I curled my upper lip and shook my head, knowing if I protested I would loose, so I didn't bother to try. I was worried about what I was gonna do about Riku. I mean, tomorrow being Friday it wouldn't be all that bad. One day of school and then I'd have he whole weekend! Right?
Not willing, I nodded and did I small smile until she left the room. The pressure was beginning to get to me. The bruises remained and he got off free. I needed somebody to talk too. Somebody I could trust. Somebody that has always been there for me.
Then, it hit me like a baseball, fast and hard. I knew who I needed to talk to. They may not have been there recently, but when I was child, always there. Through thick and thin you might say.
I walked to the closet and pulled off my shirt and quickly began searching for my hoodie. It was black with a large skull on the front. My favorite hoodie. I changed out of my pajama pants and into a long pair of baggy blue jeans.
After I dressed I looked into the mirror that was connected to my dresser. I looked terrible. Since I had hadn't really eaten in the past week I had lost weight. My face looked thinner and a little paler. My eyes have grown darker and had deep black bags under them from the lack of sleep.
Never in my life have I looked this bad. The fabric pinched a bruise on the back of my neck and made me wince. I shifted around and walked out of the room. Traveling through the hall I had some second thoughts.
What if I choose the wrong person to talk to? What if it gets around the school? What if they confront Riku in front of me? All of these thoughts troubled me. I slipped my hands into my pockets and walked into the kitchen. Mother was sitting at the table, reading like always.
I cleared my throat. Without looking up she continued to read and answered at the same time. I could never do that, it must be a talent, I guess. "Yes?" she asked.
"Um, Mom, I'm gonna go to Kairi's for a while. I need to ask her about a few things. I should be back in about," I paused and looked at the clock and saw it was 8:30, "an hour or so." She shook her head, "Ok, be back before 10 though."
Keeping my eyes on the ground, I walked to the door and slipped on my shoes. When I opened the door I noticed it was still raining. It had been since Tuesday. The calm pattering of the shower was soothing. I pulled my hood over my unruly spikes and then placed my hands back into my pockets.
I sighed and walked into the humid cold air. The water began absorbing the water, making it come though my hood while
I crossed the driveway and into Kairi's yard. My shoes sunk into the ground while I stepped down, making it a little more difficult to walk.
Once I made it to the porch I placed my hand on the banister and slowly walked on the small flight of stairs. I approached the door and placed my fist on the base of the cold metal door, about to knock. Then the second thoughts started kicking in again.
Am I sure Kairi is the one I should tell? Who else is there to tell? I can't trust anyone. Then why should I trust her? Why don't I get a job and save up see a psychiatrist? No time for that.
No time for that. I will probably go insane by then. I wonder how long I could last without a psychiatrist. A year? Two weeks? A week? Not even that. Maybe not even a day. The pressure is finally getting to me. Riku was everywhere in sight.
Before I could knock, Kairi's mother opened the door. Her mother hasn't changed and I began seeing her and Kairi's similarities. Accept for their hair and eyes color. Her mother's hair was a mid-length dirty blonde and she had brown eyes.
"Sora? What brings you here?" she asked.
"Um, sorry to bother you, but is Kairi home? I need to ask her on some homework if that's ok," I said bowing politely.
"Sure. You can go on up, she's in her room," she stepped back, allowing me to enter.
I eyed the room and noticed how the place never changed. Same wallpaper, same carpet, and same people.
I walked up stairs and down the hall, making my way to her room. It wasn't hard to spot with a big plaque with gold letters saying "KAIRI'S ROOM". I cleared my throat and knocked on the door.
"Yes?" I heard, faintly.
I knocked again, "Yes?!" this time it was a little louder. Then some pattering of approaching footsteps.
Before I could reply the door swung open. The red head stood in front of me in a tight hot pink halter top and a some loose pajama pants. She looked shocked at first then her attitude struck her again. Her "Ha, I'm still better than you" face. "Sora?" she whispered, "What do you want?"
I opened my mouth to speak, but nothing came out. I low hoarse noise escaped as tears rolled down my cheeks. "What's wrong?" she asked as the bitchy attitude left her voice. Kairi placed her hand on my shoulder and pulled me into her room before her mom could hear. She led me to her bed and sat me at the foot.
She sat on her knee on floor in front of me and leaned on my knees. "Sora," she whispered, "Are you ok?" I shook my head in reply. She gave a small grin to make me feel better, but it didn't. It gave me the impression that she was happy to see my this way.
"I want to show you something," I said as I slowly pushed her off, so I could stand. She sat back on her knees and folded her arms. I placed my fingertips under my hoodie and easily lifted it up. Kairi's eyes widen in surprise as her hand lifted over her partially opened mouth with a gasp. Her hand reached up and brushed over a hickey above my navel. I winced and backed up a little, pulling the hoodie off the rest of the way.
"Holy shit, Sora," she whispered, pulling back her hand, "Who did this to you?" I shook my head. I didn't really want to say, but that decision was already decided, I had no other options. I sat my hoodie beside me and sat back down. The words wouldn't come out. Only tears. The hot salty wetness dripped down from my eyes and down my cheeks. I closed my eyes for a moment and lets more tears flow.
"Was it your mother?" she asked.
I denied it and took in another deep breath as I felt my throat staring to close. I stared at the floor and listened to our breathing. Awaiting the right words to say. She kept asking if it was my mother. Mom would never do anything like this no matter how mad she got at me.
"It was...," paused and looked at her, "I wasn't actually beaten."
Her eyes grew concern and she opened her mouth to speak but I cut her off before the slightest breath was released, "Riku..."
"Riku?" she asked tilting her head
"He..he did this to me!" I blurted, with more tears flowing over the dried ones, re wetting my face. Kairi sat up and hugged me, I cried out when she squeezed me. She apologized and lightened up. "What happened?" she asked. It was hard to say; the fact I was forced, but also willing. I wanted him to love me, but not force me into loving him back.
"He, uh, well, raped me," I confessed.
"Raped!? Is that why you haven't been in school?" the red head asked. I simply nodded. After I got the big word out, it seemed to be slightly easier to tell the rest. Well, maybe the intercourse part, that was a little difficult. She was quiet and listen to everything I said without as much as a murmur.
When I was finished the tears stopped flowing and I felt a lot better. I stood and helped Kairi to her feet. She smiled and shook her head. "What?" I questioned. Her wandered over to her desk and sat backwards in the computer chair, leaning on the back.
"All this time," she began and paused with a chuckle, "all this time while this was happening, I never knew. It was all happening right under my nose. I would have never thought for one second that you were, well, ya know. I thought, for the longest time that you liked me. Maybe at one point, even love me." I chuckled. She cleared her throat and continued, "And Riku, he kissed me, then out of no where I find out he raped you. I never knew he was gay," she finished, resting her head on her crossed arms.
I snorted, "Babe, I don't think he gay or straight." I pulled my hoodie back over my head, concealing my wounds. "I'm sorry about what I said to you about the 'you're a stuck up bitch' thing, but Kairi, remember how you and me used to be good friends? We used to play from dawn to dusk. Well, ever since we got into high school, you changed. You stopped coming over, you stopped talking to me, all you did was cheat off my tests!"
She chuckled, "I see."
With that I looked at the clock and saw it was 10:15. I squealed, "Uh, Kairi, I gotta go. I'll see you at school tomorrow." I rushed out the door and down the stairs. I slipped on my shoes. I looked over and saw Kairi's mother on the phone glued to her ear like always. I shook my head and went out the door, back into the rain.
The rain hadn't changed, still pouring down. My shoes were sticking and sinking into the soft, muddy ground while I walked on it. Cars passed and their bright beams of light flashed into my eyes. I climbed onto the porch and into the house, kicking off my muddy shoes and placing them on the rack. I waited, expecting a screaming mother, but got nothing.
Mother had already gone to bed, which was good on my part. I peered into her room and saw her curled in a ball under the fluffy, blue covers. I cracked the door and headed back to my room. I pulled off the hoodie again and tossed it on the computer chair.
I pulled off my jeans and kicked them behind me as the hit the floor and pulled on a pair of teal pajama pants and a baggy white shirt.
- The Next Day -
The alarm sounded at exactly 6:00 a.m. Another day of fear. I know Riku will be here today I can feel it. I took a shower and got dressed. I didn't worry about spiking my head, it would just get ruined anyway from the rain. I just left it unruly. Mother was still asleep by the time I was ready to go, which was 6:45. I paid no mind and left.
The rain lightened up. It was calmer. The raindrops patted on my clothes and soaked my hair. When I got to the school I sighed before entering the gates. What to do? I know Riku will be most likely in front. Maybe the back way will less conspicuous. I slipped through the gate and placed my hands into the pockets and headed to the back of the school.
Raindrops trickled down my hot cheeks. I was nervous. I placed me hand on the handle and was about to open it when I heard a loud scream. A familiar scream. Glancing over my shoulder with wide eyes I saw a boy at the soccer field. He was on his on his knees.
I tilted my head and headed towards the field. I was curious on what was wrong. Why was a guy on the soccer field, screaming, in the rain? When I got to the base of the field I leaned onto fence post to try and see a face through the rain, but it was kinda hard to.
The boy got up and walked to the goal and grabbed the soccer ball from the net and kicked it as hard as he could, slipping from the thrust of his foot. I shook my head and went down a little farther. I squinted my eyes and gasped. It was Riku. What's wrong with him? He looked like he was pissed.
"Riku," I called moving closer to his area. No reply.
"Riku, what's wrong?" I asked placing my hands on his shoulders. He froze and turned, piercing me with his gaze. Riku jerk away and kicked the ball again. Before retrieving it he eyed me. His eyes red. I couldn't tell if it was from tears or the rain.
"Get away from me," he demanded.
"But, I..." I tried to say, but he cut me off.
"I thought I told you to get the hell out of here!" he hollered. His voice was troubled, I didn't know what to do. Riku turned and grasped the ball.
There was nothing for me to do. I shook my head and headed up the hill and back into the school. I entered the crowded halls. Every eye in sight was on me and slowly began to get quiet. I looked at my peers and made my way to my lock. I could hear the crowd whispering every time I passed.
By my locker I saw Kairi and Bara. The red head was whispering into the taller girl's ear. Then their eyes met me. I cleared my throat looked at Kairi. "Uh, Kairi-chan, can I talk to you?"
She giggled, "No."
"Kairi, I really need to talk to you." I whispered, looking over my shoulder at the students staring at me.
Bara interrupted, "Look, fag, she don't want to talk to you now leave her alone. No one wants to talk to a guy that fucked another guy." Then it hit me. The worst thing that could ever happen. Kairi told. She told everything. Riku knows I told Kairi. My fist clinched. My nails entering my skin. I winced.
"What's the matter Sora," asked Kairi, "afraid that your fuck bunny will leave you?"
"You bitch!" I yelled as I lost control of my actions. My hand went numb. I looked back at Kairi and saw her leaning against the lockers holding her face. Tears streaming down the ends of her eyes. I hit her. I just hit a girl. I looked at my fist and back at her again. Bara was screaming, but I heard nothing.
Her hands were around Kairi, I saw a red spot forming on her face. I ran. Bursting through the school doors, back into the rain. I ran and ran. I didn't know where I was going.
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Chapter 10 COMPLETE!!!!!!!
How was it? Like it? I know I did. XD
Please review and be nice.
-Tabi-chan
Next chapter is a-comin'!!!!!!!