AN: Sorry for the delay in getting this posted. I have been trying to update on regular days but it hasn't been working out that way. Anyway I wanted again thank my revierwers, FredTheBlueDuck, yasha21, Soudesuka-Shruikens, Hopeformore, Shaeya Sajet, and

Versus-E. Thank you for your support and comments it really helps to mold my thoughts on the story but there were some that just weren't convinced my Inu's excuse. Ok I'll admit it was lame but I have seen things like this happen so it is possible. All I can say for people who let themselves get sucked in like he did is SUCKER lol j/k ) Hope you enjoy the next chapter.

Song Of My Soul

Part 7

He really didn't want to discuss Kikyo right now. In all actuality he wanted to make love to her again. There were two years worth of pent up tension left and he didn't care if they tried to make up for it over the next week with out leaving the house. After all his father was going to be gone for the whole time but he knew Kagome wouldn't go for that. She waited patiently for him to start but it was hard to know where to begin. There was so much that happened. His clawed fingers followed the line of her jaw to her lips. He closed his eyes and sighed. There was no getting around this.

"Inuyasha?" She question and put her hand on his cheek comfortingly. He looked into her gentle eyes and knew he would have to explain everything to her.

"Ok, I'll tell you and you may not like some of it but if you want to get this all out in the open then you will have to bare with me." His facial expression was indifferent. She began to wonder if she wanted to hear this or not but then her heart said it all had to come out into the open.

"Alright, I'll do my best to be understanding." She said but didn't really know if she could hold her temper. There was something in the way he looked that gave her a feeling of dread. "Tell me something first." She insisted wanting to get this part over with first and foremost. The one thing that had bothered her these last two years and just the thought of it made her nauseated. He frowned but nodded for her to go ahead and ask.

"Did you sleep with her?" She held her voice stern and demanding. His eyes held uneasiness in them and he clinched his jaw. Her heart was pumping so hard in her chest she thought it would come out of her rib cage any second. He took some time to answer her, his eye brows furrowed under his bangs and looked off to the side.

"Before or after we were married?" He asked suddenly. She held in a gasp. There was a time when she was fairly sure he had sex with her before her marriage to Naraku, Inuyasha seemed so experienced when they got married but then how would she know. She never let any guy touch her during her whole life so it was all new to her.

"Both." She held the calm stern look on her face not willing to give in when he cringed and lowered his head.

"A couple of times before she got married." He looked at her with a lost look on his face and her heart knew. "And once after, but..." She couldn't stop the tears from starting. That was the breaking point. He had been unfaithful and she didn't know if she could forgive him for that. She spun around quickly and jumped off the bed but before she could get very far he grabbed her around the waist.

"No Kagome," She cried out a strangled hiss and clawed at his arms with her fingernails. Tears fell freely down her face, "listen to me a second damn it." He yelled hotly. She shook her head and kept fighting to get away from him. Finally he spun them around and tossed her on the bed. She didn't have a chance to recover before he was on top of her with his legs pinning her lower body to the bed. He held her wrists next to her head to keep her place. "I said listen to me. There is another meaning to your question." She bucked trying to get him off but couldn't.

"You lied to me!" She cried painfully twisting her wrists and body trying anything thing to get him to move enough for her to escape.

"I have never lied to you." He spit back.

"You started when you didn't tell me about meeting with her all those months. When did it get so easy for you anyway? Was it our wedding night when you told me there had never been anyone else?" She croaked out between sobs. 'Shit, did I say that?' He thought frantically. He honestly couldn't remember. No she was twisting his words to fit what she felt.

"NO! Stop twisting my words!" He snapped at her. His face was only a few inches from hers now. They were both breathing hard from the exertion of the wrestling. For a human she was stronger then he had thought. Of course adrenalin was probably playing a part in her extra strength. She looked at him with puffy eyes and tears still ran from the corners down the side of her face. Her hiccups came through her pouty lips as she stared at him with loath. He never wanted to see that look in her eyes, it scared him. He could loose her if he didn't explain quickly. "It was when she was in the hospital." He blurted out quickly. She blinked at him a couple of times, the frown never leaving her face.

"When was she in the hospital? I think Naraku would have told me if she was sick." She started to argue back.

"Maybe and maybe not. He may not have known. As far as I know he never even went to see her." She closed her eyes and took a couple of deep breaths. Her mind kept telling her to listen between the lines. It constantly questioned if what he was saying was true.

"Ok, so you are saying that Naraku abandoned her. Then where is she now?" She steadied her breathing to control her anger.

"I'm not really sure. That is a long story and I think we would both be more comfortable if we got dressed." Unfortunately his beast side was finding this little toss in the bed a turn on and he could feel himself getting excited again. He started to release her but then stopped and looked at her seriously. "As long as you promise not to try to take off again." He insisted. She pursed her lips but nodded in agreement. He slowly got off her then reached for their clothes. He handed hers to her first then pulled on his sweat pants with out any boxers. She sat back on the bed near the night stand and picked up a cold cup of tea but it didn't matter, she needed the moisture in her mouth. She smoothed the hair from her face and looked at him. After taking a few more deep breaths she patted the bed beside her.

"I think you better start with after you got her the apartment." She was feeling drained but needed to hear this. It was painful now and she couldn't imagine it getting any worse. Before he could start again she just had to get something off her chest. "I want you to know that your story so far is very iffy. I am having a hard time believing even you could be so gullible." Her face was as stoic as Sesshomaru's. He wondered where the hell she had picked that up from. But grit his teeth and held back the sarcastic remark he could have flung back at her. She saw the hurt flash through his eyes but he held it in and instead of setting by her he made himself comfortable at the end of the bed with his back resting on the foot board so he could face her. He frowned and stared at his feet hiding his eyes behind his bangs.

"Why are you being so difficult?" He asked in a low voice. This whole situation was wrong and never should have happened but it wasn't all his fault. If she had those kind of questions then why didn't she ask to begin with? Why let it get this far before she got suspicious? Her mouth opened and she stared at him.

"I am not being difficult. How am I being difficult? What is wrong with wanting to know what my husband was doing for the past two years while I was wallowing in my pain in another country trying to figure out if I was doing the right thing. Why shouldn't I want to know? The nerve!" She hissed angrily already considering trying to sprint to the door to get away again. This whole thing was rubbing her the wrong way.

"Yes difficult or does being a bitch sound more comfortable to you?" He spit back hotly. Her mouth closed and her eyes narrowed.

"If that is the way you feel then I don't need to hear it ever." She stood and started to walk toward the door. The mattress squeaking under his weight was all she heard before he grabbed her to haul her back to the bed. She was ready this time and planted her elbow in his ribs as hard as she could. A satisfying 'whoomf' sound escaped his lungs and he let go. She spun and stomped toward the door. Even though he was hurt he beat her there and blocked her way. She immediately began to hit him with her fists and kick at him while screaming for him to get out of the way. She called him names like bastard, dog boy, half breed or anything else that would reflect the hurt she felt inside from his actions.

"I have a right to know why you slept with her damn it. You said...you said..." She started to sob again. Her strength finally being sapped by the anger. She hit his arm one more time the collapsed on the floor in front of him crying. Her face in her hands with her head hung. Strands of her dark hair fell limply over her shoulders and curtained her face as she continued to cry. "You killed my soul. Do you really love her that much you would hurt me like this. Is she more important to you then me?" She sobbed uncontrollably. He leaned against the door looking at her with suppressed anger of his own. He knew she was lashing out because he had hurt her and he didn't really mean to but as usual he let his pride get the best of him. His heart ached to comfort her but she would only reject him right now.

"No I don't love her." He said in a whisper. "I love you and always have." He swallowed back his own tears. "You're right I was selfish, arrogant, prideful, stupid and a bastard. But your taking my words and putting your own meaning to them to justify your rage. I didn't have sex with her after we were married. Yes I did sleep in the same bed once , sort of..." She made a snorting sound.

"Sort of? Either you did or you didn't. Which is it?" She didn't look at him just stared at her lap while trying to wipe the tears away.

"She was in the hospital and she was upset after everything. She wanted me to hold her for a little bit. I had been so tired and stressed I fell asleep ok. It wasn't like anything intimate. I left as soon as I woke up." He said slowly.

"Why didn't you just say that instead of getting mad?" She looked up at him but he was running one clawed finger over a place on the carpet with his back against the door so she couldn't get out.

"Well duh! You didn't believe me about all the rest. That sounds just as lame as the rest. Why should you believe it any more then the rest of my 'story'?" His voice held sarcasm in it as he looked at her with tired eyes. She sighed. "Look Kagome I don't want to fight about this. My head hurts and I know you're tired." He stood up and opened the door then turned back to her. "I'll sleep in Sess' old room and you take mine tonight ok. Just promise me you won't leave with out letting me know." She glanced at him then nodded. He left the room and closed the door.

She sat on the carpet unmoving for so long she was even sure how much time had actually passed. Her heart ached with each thump it made. What was she going to do? Should she believe him or toss him aside like he had done her? Her heart pinched at the thought. She took a deep breath then began to analyze everything she knew about him as a person. If anyone knew him it was her. They were best friends for most their lives and she knew everything about him from top to bottom. Every emotion he was able to hide from others she could see in his eyes.

'Growing up he never was a trusting sort to strangers but when he met Kikyo he trusted her. Why?' She rested her forehead on her knees trying to think. Something that far back was hard but she could do it if she could clear her mind of the thoughts trying to press in on her.

Flashback

"Kagome?" Her mother had called out to her from the front door as she was getting ready to leave.

"Yeah momma?" She stopped and turned to look at her mother.

"Where are you off to? We have guests." Her mother asked patiently knowing full well.

"Mom I told you already. I'm supposed to meet Inuyasha and the others at the soda shop. I'm late already. I will be back for dinner." She turned and started to race toward the steps that led to the street.

"WAIT!" Her mother yelled causing her to stop dead in her tracks. She knew what was coming and she didn't really want to do it. "Take Kikyo with you. She doesn't know anyone here and you have nice friends. They will make her feel more at home." Her mother smiled and stepped to the side revealing said person, her look alike cousin. Inside Kagome groaned but smiled brightly.

"Oh sure, you are right. I am so sorry Kikyo for not thinking of it myself." Kagome waved her hand at Kikyo signaling for her to come along. Kikyo grinned and walked slowly to where Kagome waited.

They didn't talk much as they walked the few blocks to the soda shop. Kikyo never did have much to say most the time. She always seemed like snob but there were times they would get along well enough and she was family after all. When they entered the soda shop a lot of the kids from school stared at them. She knew they were wondering who Kikyo was and could already hear the whispers between many. Most were confused about the twin factor and someone even mentioned cloning. She almost laughed at that one but didn't want to insult Kikyo. She definitely would tell her mother. It didn't take her long to see her friends setting at a booth across the shop. She waved to Sango as soon as the girl looked up. Kikyo tugged on Kagome's sleeve to get her attention.

"Who is that gorgeous hunk setting over there?" Kikyo pointed at none other then Inuyasha.

"Oh that's Inuyasha. Remember I told you about him. He is my best friend and we are like that." Kagome held up her fingers crossed over each other to signifie their closeness. She walked forward and immediately plopped down next to Inuyasha leaving Kikyo standing there dazed.

"God your late. What took so long, wench?" Inuyasha chuckled when she hit his arm.

"My mom suggested I bring my cousin with me. She just moved here to finish off school so you guys be nice to her. Kikyo set her next to me." Kagome pushed Inuyasha all the way to the wall and made space for her while patting the seat. "This is Miroku, Sango and Inuyasha, everyone this is my cousin Kikyo." They all stared at the new girl then turned their eyes back to Kagome then back to Kikyo before Miroku opened his mouth.

"Wow Kagome she looks like you." Kikyo took the seat next to Kagome and reached over taking a fry from Inuyasha's plate.

"Actually you should say she looks like me. I was born first." She smiled at Kagome's groan. "You don't mind do you..Inuyasha was it?" She smiled sweetly at him and took another fry.

"Um..no, not at all. Knock yourself out." He pushed the plate toward her a bit so she didn't have to reach so far across Kagome. All Kagome could do was set there in shock. He was never that nice to anyone at first, especially when they were being pushy like that. She turned to say something but found him staring at Kikyo like she had two heads. She turned and looked at Kikyo who was looking back at him while playing with a fry on her lips seductively. At the time she didn't realize it but his teenage hormones were kicking in and Kikyo took advantage of it.

End Flashback

With a groan Kagome realized that Kikyou was playing him for a sucker from the start. Jesus she as such a bitch. Kagome suddenly knew it was partially her fault for not warning him in the beginning about Kikyo and her sly deceitfulness. What more could she have done to show him? She could have scolded him like everyone else but then that would have made her no better than them. She sighed, this was so hard. If she wanted to keep his friendship then she should approach this like a friend instead of a jealous wife. It was so frustrating to think about and she just wanted to put it all behind her. Slowly she forced herself from the floor and headed out the door. Taking a quick turn to the left she soon found herself standing outside Sesshomaru's old bedroom.

AN: Ok shoot me. Hehehehe. I know not another cliff hanger. I hate when someone puts them in a story I am reading so I know but it just seemed like the right spot. Anyway I will try to update soon.