A.N: Last night I saw the episode where Pete asks Sam to marry him (I think it's called 'Affinity') And well, I'm kinda upset that Sam's marrying Pete, so I decided to write this (and another), to kinda justify why. So yeah, it's really short, but please tell me what you think.

In My Heart

"Carter, there's something up with you and I wanna know what" he demanded.

"Sir, I'm fine" she should've known it wouldn't fool him.

"You haven't talked techno babble at me in days"

"Pete. He asked me to marry him"

"And?" Jack had to know.

"Well, sir, I don't know. I haven't answered him yet"

"Why?"

"Why does he want to marry me, or why haven't I answered him?"

"Why haven't you answered him. I know perfectly well why he wants to marry you and that smart as hell scientist techno babble thing definitely isn't top of the list"

"Well sir, there's some stuff I need to figure out first, before I answer him" Jack's heart skipped a beat, she couldn't be talking about what he thought she was talking about, could she?

"Like" he prompted.

"Like my job, kids, you know"

"Yeah I guess I do" he replied his heart sinking a little.

"And, there's you" she said nervously.

The words hung in the air between them. Sam's eyes penetrated Jack, as he let her words sink in. "What about me?" he managed to choke out.

"Look…Jack" she let the foreign word roll from her tongue "Ever since I came here, I just always got the impression that one day, something would change and we'd well fall into bed together. I just assumed …" she trailed off, gazing at the floor, not daring to look up and see the rejection in his eyes. She took a deep breath, turned away and busied herself with one of her 'doohickeys' "I couldn't wait for you anymore. I just couldn't" tears threatened to fall, but she sniffed them back, she had to finish. "I don't know if you love me. I'm pretty sure I love you. But I also love Pete, and he loves me. Being with him makes me happy… or at least content. I don't want to be alone anymore"

Behind her she sensed Jack moving, but didn't turn around. She told herself she wouldn't cry. Not in front of Jack. She told herself not to break down. At least not until Jack left. She told herself Pete was the best thing that had happened to her. Besides Jack.

She wanted to make it work with Pete, she really did. She loved him, it was true. She just loved Jack more. But she knew she couldn't wait forever.

"For the record. I do love you Sam, but it could never be" Jack whispered into her ear, she jumped not realising he was so close. "And I'm sorry I've never told you before. I'm sorry you never told me. Sorry that you're marrying Pete and not me. But not nearly as sorry as I should be" his breath tickled her ear and made her shiver.

"I'll love you forever Sam"

"I know. And Jack, Pete may have my body, but you own my soul" she placed a soft kiss on his cheek and sauntered out of her lab. She had her answer. She'd tell Pete later. Yes.

She'd be Mrs. Pete Shanahan in reality, but in her mind and her heart, she'd always be Mrs. Jack O'Neill.

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A.N: Um I know it's a bit different to how it happened in the show, but this is how I think it could've gone.