I'm sure that the heart I left behind still lies hidden in the deep, deep forest.
I'm stuck in one place in my life, neither moving forward nor backwards. I don't know who to trust, and it's tearing me apart…
The days pass by and change, without us even realizing how blue the sky really is.
I never knew how much I was connected to the monk, the demon slayer, and most of all, the girl. Not until I left them behind and traveled far away, to a place that they can't find me…
Exhausted, without the strength to search, people vanish into the infinite darkness.
Where did I go? To the mountains. I wanted a place with tranquility and quiet, where I could sort out what's in my mind…
If we can find the rhythm of time, we can fly once again.
Once I sort out what's going through my head, I'll go back. I'll apologize to everyone I've hurt, and I'll right all the wrongs…
I've known all too well about pretending to be strong, but since then, my doubts have vanished.
I pretend not to care about anything, but deep, deep inside, it really hurts when Kagome's gone. I can't help but cry sometimes…
I was frightened by the never-ending night, so I prayed to the distant stars.
To tell the truth, I didn't just "leave." I fled from the ones I love, just like I've done before. I was afraid of betrayal, or hurting them more than I ever have. At night, I look at the stars and contemplate my existence…
Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance, the way I see before me is always blocked. Every time the days I want to see you but can't, my strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.
I can't figure out what to do. Even though I've been gone for several days, I still can't figure out what I should do about my situation…
I think of you, and that is enough to make the tears start to flow now… I always, always wish that these fleeting thoughts would reach you...
I miss Kagome, and the others too. I'm beginning to think that with them is actually where I belong…
It would be nice if we could put away and throw out everything except what really mattered, but reality is just cruel.
There's so many things going on, I don't know what's relevant and what's simply there. I'm so confused…
In such times, I see you laughing whenever I close my eyes. Until the day I reach eternal sleep, that smiling face will have to stay with me without fail.
I begin to tire, so I close my eyes, trying to bring on the sleep that won't come. I think of Kagome again, and of how beautiful she is. I realize just how much I miss her…
There's definitely things I want to show you, and so many words I want to hear. I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry, so I'll stop waiting and seize my chance.
I want to be with her and show her my true colors. I'm thinking about going back now, but I'm not sure…
Overcoming that made-up scheme, we live the present, and our rusted hearts begin to beat again!
I decide to go back. I can't stand it not being with everyone anymore. I now know that I do belong there, and that they don't care about my half-blood. I care about them all too much to stay away…
I want to change the world. I won't hesitate again. If I can shape a future with you, then I can fly anywhere. I can spread my wings and fly towards the unknown future without losing my passion. It's wonderland…
My future lies with Sango, Miroku, and Kagome, even if it means no time to myself anymore. It's my destiny…
Back then, when we met, it was all awkward. We went the long way, didn't we? We got there in the end.
Thanks for reading!!
Becca