Will picked up the envelope and stared at it. He couldn't bring himself to open it. Tears came from his eyes as realized this was probably the last thoughts that Grace ever had about him. His hands shock and he eyed the door. They had the best of intentions , but right now he just wanted to be the grieving widower. That is exactly what he felt like.After all, this wasn't a lover, but his Gracie.
He took a sip of wine from his glass to settle his nerves. In the background he had Mozart on to set a mood. He took his finger and slid it into the flap. Cautiously he opened the letter.
My dearest funny friend William, (God he hated when she called him that )
There have been a few thoughts on my mind lately. Thoughts that have been driving me crazy. By the time you read this, my suffering will be over. I will have shed this mortal coil. (God did that sound trite and cliché, he thought)
I have one unfinished piece of business and that is why I am writing this letter. As a divorcee now, I realized why my marriage to Leo didn't work. You probably all think it was because Leo was cheating and lying sleazebag. That wasn't it at all. Leo knew I was in love with someone else and this is how he chose to deal with it.
I am in love and it only pains me to know that love will never be returned. I gave my heart to another one a long time ago. I never loved Danny or truly loved Leo, there has been only one man I ever loved and that my dear friend is you….
Will dropped the letter and then picked it up
Sometimes I would see you standing naked and then just say it's my gay friend Will. Other times I would see your fine features and just want you to take me in your strong arms and make love to me all night long. I would want you to serenade me and then look into my eyes and love me just love me. It tears my heart to know this is only a dream in my imagination never to be.
I now realize I can never find a love to make me happy. That was my problem. I searched high and low for the perfect love and it was right in front of me, but never meant to be. Without love, there is no life. So I must go on to the next life or heaven or purgatory whatever you chose to believe. Some believe I will be in hell, but for me hell is on earth for there is no love for me.
Will it is not too late for you. I also realize that our special relationship has held you back. Some men have been frightened by out close bonds. So to you I say, if you have found the right man. Don't let him go and don't make the same mistakes that I did. Live for love William and most importantly be happy.
With my eternal love, Grace Adler.
Will walked over to the mantel and picked up the picture. He bent his head down and started to sob as the Mozart played . He felt like it wasn't Leo who killed Grace, but him.
"Why did you make me this way, God?" he wailed. "I wanted to love her and be the father of her chidren."
"Why did you make me gay?" he sobbed quietly.
Jack quietly entered the room and began to embrace Will. He leaned over and slowly rubbed his friend's back. Will began to look at Jack as he had never seen him before. He saw him as a tender human being who was reaching out to him. Will's tears rolled down his face and Jack took his hand and tenderly wiped them. Will lifted his head and move his lips toward Jack. Yes he was confused, but he needed someone to comfort him. He needed Vince but he was at work right now. He needed love, he didn't want to end up like Grace. He needed a man and he needed one now. Jack tried to push him away but his own needs caused him to touch his lips with Will's. Soon the two men were embracing each other and kissing .