Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha for any of the characters involved. ;-;
Warnings: Shounen ai, Naraku/InuYasha
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I must apologize in advance for this chapt.
Evil Temptations
Chapter Fifteen
Thoughts
InuYasha sat alone against the tree, Naraku having gone inside. It was now dark outside, the stars replacing the sun's light. The hanyou had wanted to think things over before going back to Kagome and the others to decide if this really was the right choice. It wasn't that he doubted the miko's word… it was that he didn't know if he actually wanted her to make a wish. Even thought he no longer loved her he still liked having her as a friend. He also thought that if she used the Shikon no Tama that she wouldn't be able to go back through the well, and would be stuck in her own time.
Naraku giving the jewel to Kagome would prove his love to him, but he still couldn't forget about what he had done to Kikyou and himself over fifty years ago. Although he desperately wished he could. It was holding back his trust of the man. He knew that somehow Naraku had come to love and trust him with everything he was and InuYasha wanted to do that same.
He sighed deeply burying his head in his arms, which were on his legs that were drawn up against his chest.
The human InuYasha knew that no matter what he thought he'd still wish to be with Naraku. There was no use in even trying to deny that. He really just did not want to leave him. His love now ran too deep for his once loathed enemy.
If I had not lost my memories none of this would have happened. The hanyou thought with a frustrated sigh. But I'm glad it did. The only reasoning for that was indeed the fact that he got to know the other side of Naraku. The more caring side, the more lovable one; the one he would not give up for the world.
He shook his head, trying to ride himself of such thoughts. I have become a hopeless romantic. He thought angry with himself. Guess I have changed almost as much as he has. Comparing the old Naraku to the new one would lead one to believe they were two totally different people, just with the same look. However, they were one in the same, which was somewhat unfortunate since InuYasha couldn't forget about the cruel act his Naraku had committed all those years ago. His thoughts were only taking him in circles.
Where is the sun when you need it? The hanyou asked himself, looking up at the sky; seeing only stars between the branches of the tree he was under.
Naraku had just finished the conversation he was having with Kagura. He had to get more specific information about the encounter. He could have asked InuYasha for it, this he knew, but his lover desperately wanted to just give the miko the Shikon no Tama and be done with it. The hanyou would also say anything to give Kagome more credit; to convince him that she was worthy of trust with the jewel.
The wind sorceress also seemed to believe that Kagome had been telling the truth. He knew at one point Kagura wanted to betray him and was looking for every available opportunity for it, but he knew not if that was still the case. He had his suspicions that she didn't anymore, though. For the most part, he thought he could trust her, at least about this. There would be no point in lying after all.
Naraku went back to his lover, having the needed information to confirm the trust InuYasha held in Kagome. Before he went outside he had grabbed the Shikon no Tama. He was going to give it to the hanyou so he could give it to Kagome. This would make him truly happy so it was worth the risk. Both InuYasha and Kagura had thought the miko to be telling the truth as well so there was less of a chance of something going wrong.
The crimson-eyed man found his lover against the same tree as before; the only thing different was his position. He wondered what could have been wrong; the hanyou looked frustrated and sad.
"Here." Naraku said, once he got to InuYasha.
The hanyou looked up and saw the jewel in Naraku's outstretched hand. He smiled up at his lover. He picked it up and put it in his dark blue haori; making sure it wouldn't fall out.
Naraku, however, didn't smile back but frowned. InuYasha's smile failed to reach his eyes, as it usually did; instead there was a look of sadness. He couldn't help but wonder what had caused it. Nothing had happened recently that he was aware of, and from the information he had received nothing had happened with Kagome and the others. He knew that he hadn't said anything to get him down, unless it wasn't recently.
Naraku sat in front of InuYasha, making sure he could look directly into his eyes.
The hanyou stared at his lover with confusion now. The look he was giving him was of concern and he wondered why, unaware that his eyes had given away his crestfallen mood.
Naraku looked into InuYasha's deep black eyes and with genuine concern asked, "What is truly wrong, koi?"
The hanyou tried not to look away but couldn't help it with Naraku's piercing gaze.
"Nothing." He answered, not wanting to tell Naraku the true cause… at least not yet. "I am merely tired." He said turning back to face his lover.
The kumo sighed heavily. And he was worried about me not trusting him? He knew his eyes displayed the hurt he felt, but he had finally broken their stare and had lowered his eyes so InuYasha was unable to see. I cannot really place blame on him, though, with what I did to him and Kikyou..." He regretted ever doing it, but still wouldn't it back. He had wanted nothing more than for the miko's death, and still did. Onigumo was the only part of him that loved her. He kept that part buried deep within himself, however. He wouldn't try to release him again until he was sure of the outcome.
"Get some rest, then. After, you can go back to the miko if you wish." Naraku told InuYasha in a defeated manor. He would give the black-haired hanyou time, time to himself to think things over… once again.
InuYasha stared up at his lover in surprise. It was obvious by the look he was giving him that he knew something was wrong. The hanyou was sure that Naraku wouldn't give up until he had pried it out of him. However, he hadn't even questioned his transparent lie.
Naraku stood up and turned away from InuYasha about to leave. "I am going to rest as well." He paused, thinking for a moment. "One thing, though: please tell me before you go back to the young miko."
He then started to walk; this time to his own room instead of InuYasha's, which was usual as of recently.
The hanyou watched sadly as Naraku left. He knew that he had once again torn his lover's heart, but he couldn't help it. I will fix this after I meet up wtih Kagome and give her the jewel. He promised himself and even Naraku, although he could not hear.
InuYasha thought about just going on ahead to Kagome and the others right then, however, he couldn't. He would rest up and then leave – first telling Naraku, of course. That was the least he could do.
The hanyou entered the castle and wandered around a little bit first, trying to remember where his lover's room was. He had only been in it a few times; the first two being on accident.
InuYasha found it at last and went in without knocking or anything to show he was there. He saw that Naraku was already lying in his bed, whether or not he was sleeping was yet to be seen.
The still human InuYasha crawled into the bed carefully so as not to wake his lover if he was in fact sleeping; he knew Naraku wouldn't mind if he was there anyway. He went behind him and snuggled against his back; that was when Naraku finally let it known that he was awake still by turning to face the hanyou. He flashed a smile and closed his eyes again, already in a comfortable position, unlike before.
InuYasha returned the smile even though Naraku couldn't see it. He also closed his eyes after, deciding that they didn't need to say anything at the moment. Besides it seemed that his lover was content enough. Words could wait for the morning.
When Naraku woke next he found himself once again facing a silver-haired youkai. That meant that it was the morning of the next day. InuYasha had finally lost his human form; going back to his youkai one. It was a good thing… for the most part. The hanyou no longer had such an intensified sense of emotions (more than he was used to at least), though some were still high. He would hopefully have more control of them as well. This also had its bad side. Because he didn't have such strong emotions he would react differently to his lover… maybe.
Naraku sighed. His thoughts were getting him no where, which had became normal as of late. He wasn't so sure he liked it either. He'd just have to wait and see how InuYasha was when he woke up. It shouldn't take too long for him to, especially since he was no longer human. In his youkai form his senses were more alert so he would probably feel his movements.
The kumo looked at his hanyou and ran his fingers through the now silver hair. He watched him as he slept, seeing his peaceful features, and how he seemed to lean into his touch.
InuYasha was so relaxed that he didn't wake until minutes after Naraku had been touching his hair. He opened his golden eyes to see the crimson ones of his lover. Definitely not a bad sight for him upon waking!
Naraku kissed InuYasha. "Ohayou." /Good morning/ He greeted, smiling.
The inu youkai smiled in return and kissed his lover, this time it was filled with a lot more passion and lasted a lot longer. He felt different, too, and knew that it was morning. Naraku had also said good morning, he knew for sure he was back to his youkai self.
Naraku could feel the passion and love in the kiss but… something was missing. He wasn't exactly sure, though. He just knew that it wasn't the same as it had been a couple nights ago. He figured InuYasha should just hurry and get the whole thing with the Shikon no Tama over and done with. Maybe that would help his attitude as well. It was worth the try; they could always have a deeper conversation when he returned.
"What is it?" He hanyou asked, concerned. His lover had just stopped and it looked like he was thinking.
"Are you going to go to the miko now or later?" Naraku suddenly asked; the question was etched with an odd sense of concern.
"Anou… I guess I will go now." /Well…/ InuYasha said disappointed. What? Does he wish to get rid of me now?
"Do not get the wrong impression. I merely wish to get this over with." The kumo sighed. "After, if you will, I want to talk about a few things. Now is not the right time."
The inu youkai nodded, having a pretty good idea about what was going to be asked. He had a few questions of his own, too. He brushed this off, however, leaving it for later. He had to concentrate on the task that had been put before him sooner than expected, since Naraku wanted him to go.
"Kagura…?" There was no need to finish the question; his lover knew what he was talking about.
"Hai." Naraku said, and then summoned the wind sorceress. She thought nothing of InuYasha's change back; he did usually look like that after all. Speaking to her he said, "Follow him again. The same thing as before, but with more caution. If they catch you while he is giving the jewel to them, who knows what they will think."
Good idea. The hanyou thought. He hadn't even thought of that possibility. It would certainly be a bad thing if she was spotted.
Kagura nodded and bowed, leaving again. She knew what was going on. She was shocked to hear that Naraku was just giving the jewel to the miko, but there was nothing she could say or do… not that she would.
InuYasha stole a kiss from Naraku before setting off again. All he had wanted to do was stay with Naraku for a while. Perhaps this was for the best, though. He was doubtful of his lover; this gave him more opportunities to get rid of the doubt.
The others had woken up about an hour ago and were waiting for InuYasha to show up. They had certainly been right about tone thing: they had to stay where they were for quite a while; it was a good thing they set up camp.
Kagome, Shippou, Miroku, Sango and Kirara were all gathered around the fire eating when they jumped, hearing a voice ask, "Any for me?"
They turned to the direction of the voice and saw a grinning InuYasha. This time the change in the hanyou's features didn't surprise them, it was the next day after all; this was pretty hard not to remember.
Kagome smiled back. "Of course, there's plenty left still." The young miko had made ramen again since it seemed to be everyone's favorite, especially InuYasha's. It wasn't as if she knew he'd show up, however.
She served the hanyou some of the ramen and he gratefully accepted it and quickly ate it. When he had caught the smell of the food in the air, he realized that he had had nothing to eat.
Before Kagome knew it there were tears silently falling down her face again. Why can't I stop crying?! She scolded herself, she didn't want to seem anymore weak then she did. Having the inu youkai with them again just made it seem like everything was back to normal, however, she remembered that he was only there to talk and possibly give them the Shikon no Tama.
Everyone had stopped conversing and looked sadly at the miko. They all knew why she was crying and were powerless to help her, even InuYasha.
Oh, and I just realized what I had done. I kinda put 'kumo' to describe Naraku, which means 'spider.' Read a few fics with it and it got stuck in my head, and then on the paper. -.-;; I don't feel like goin' back and pickin' through it to find it…
'Kay. I really do not like this chapt at all! It was so freakin' boring… I'm surprised if you didn't fall asleep while reading. There is prob'ly drool all over your keyboards from sleeping. --sighs-- I am so sry everyone. I promise the next chapt will be better and not as boring. Hopefully getting' somethin' goin' on. Hey, hey… mind out of the gutter. n.n 'Kay, 'kay, maybe that was only me. n.n;;; But seriously, next chapt will be better and more than likely the last chapt. I know I said that for this chapt, but this just didn't tie up the loose ends. Whatever… doesn't matter. I just hope I didn't bore you guys too much.
Hope everyone had a great… whatever you celebrated.
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