Madeleine POV

After the rockets hit the island, I felt a part of me fall apart.

How much I was going to tell about our daughter, to the man I love ... or the one I loved.What will be the opinion that his daughter will have when she grows up and understands the whole story.Should I tell her about him, tell her that her father was a good man, who died to leave her alive?

2 years later

I wake up to make breakfast for Mathilde.I'm taking something comfortable and I start making her favorite food, bacon and eggs.I covered the muffin cups with cooking spray and put two pieces of bacon.I broke an egg in the middle of the bacon and I let them to bake for 15 minutes at 350 F.

So as not to wait too long, I went to Mathilde to wake her.

-Maman, réveille-toi, il se fait tard et j'ai préparé ton petit-déjeuner

-Maman?

-Oui, bel enfant,je suis

-No,no,maman,qui est derrière toi?

I turn quickly and see James with burnt skin and Dou-Dou at his waist, starting to come towards me.

I quickly get out of bed crying and realize it was just a dream.

And 2 years after James' death, I still have nightmares or sometimes dreams in which he was still alive and we continue our lives happily.Until some point I will have to forget it ... if it were as easy to do .I tried to calm down and see what time it is.

-Oh damn it is 7:35

I don't have time for Mathilde's favorite breakfast anymore, so I heat the kettle with milk.

In the meantime, I wake up Mathilde and give her some clothes to wear to school.I go down and put the milk in a bowl of cereal.Mathilde descends sleepily and sits down at the table.

-Mangé tout que je vais m'habiller

She nods understandingly and starts eating.I run to the bedroom and look for something to wear, the green dress I wore that night on the train popping into my eyes.The night I felt like I was in love with James and the reason why Mathilde exist.Two tears began to fall.

"Ready, Madeleine, you're back, this dress is like all the others and I didn't wear it to any special event."...I start crying, knowing that all this is a lie.

-Maman, que s'est-il passé?Mathilde asks, whom I see hugging her teddy bear.

-Rien

I take something to wear at random and go to the bathroom to get water on my face.

I take my bag, take my little girl by the hand and get in the car.

Pretty crowded today, and the clock is 7:54.I just hope Mathilde isn't late for school and I'm not late for the clinic.

I left her in front of the school, Godolphin and Latymer Redcliffe Gardens School.

-Au revoir je t'aime,faire attention et écouter les professeurs!

-Oui,je t'aime aussi!

I turn the car around and run through the crowded streets to the clinic.

I was lucky with Mathilde, because she wasn't late for class, but it's already 08:02 and I haven't got to work yet.

Eventually I arrived at the clinic, where my first patient was very nervous due to my delay.I apologized and invited him inside.

-Hello, I'm Dr. Madeleine Swann, and today I'm going to help you Mr. Wilson get rid of your drug addiction.

-Yes, thank you Dr. Swann, but before I continue, can I ask you something?

-Yes, of course if it is strictly professional or has to do with your addiction.

-You're the agent's girlfriend,I heard he doesn't know how to behave.Tell me where you hide him, I know he's not dead, just too stupid to go back to MI6.

-Mr. Wilson, what's with this question?Please leave the clinic if you are not interested to help you.

-I won't leave until you tell me where he is!

-Please leave voluntarily, otherwise I have to call the security!

-You will regret that you took me out, You don't know what I'm capable of.

The man leaves the clinic, and I sink in thoughts and questions.

I finish my shift at the clinic and go to pick up Mathilde from school.I put the car in the school parking lot and wait for her.I watch her walk towards the car.She has a walk like her father,straight and decided.She gets in the car, leaves his backpack in the back seat and kisses me on the cheek.

-Que s'est-il passé à l'école ,ange ?

-Eh bien, j'ai appris sur les planètes.

-Très bien.

I got home, where I warmed up the soup and went to change.I took a T-shirt and some comfortable home pants, and then I helped Mathilde arrange the clothes she was wearing at school.I turned off the stove, put the soup in 2 bowls and called Mathilde.I placed the basket of bread on the table and started eating.

-Prêt

-Tu n'as pas tout fini

-Mais je ne peux plus manger

-Bon ben tu peux aller regarder la télé.

While Mathilde was watching TV, I started cooking dinner.I was planning to make my favorite pasta,Fettuccini Alfredo , but I didn't have sour cream, so I said to make them without sour cream.I took out a large pot in which I put the pasta and water.Meanwhile I melted the butter over medium-low heat in a large pan.I added the cheese and reduced the heat to low.I see Mathilde coming down and running towards me.

-Que cuisines-tu ?

-Fettuccini Alfredo

-Yummy

My lips rise in a smile and I kiss her on the forehead.

-Pouvez-vous me donner du sel et du poivre du garde-manger ?

-Oui

Mathilde opens the pantry and takes the pepper and salt.

-Maman, regarde papa!

I turned scared and saw James next to Mathilde, this time smiling at me.I was ready to wake up, but I see that it is not a dream and that he is really alive.I leave the palette with which I mix in the pasta and throw myself into his arms, starting to cry.He hugs me and I can feel his tears streaming down my shirt.

-I thought James Bond wasn't crying ?!

-Hey, he's allowed sometimes.

-But how are you here, the rockets and nanobots, how did you get rid of them?

-Before the whole island was destroyed, I managed to jump into the water, and then I went to Japan where I met some chemists, who helped me get rid of the nanobots.

-Why didn't you call me and let me cry for you like a fool? I ask him jokingly, but a little seriously

-I knew that if I told you I was alive you would look for me, and having nanobots I couldn't risk, endangering you.Besides, what do you cook ,cuz smells great.

-Fettuccini Alfredo

-Yummy, I hope I can eat with you.

James broke the embrace and looked at Mathilde.

-How much she has grown and how beautiful she is!

-Well, she grew up because her mother gave her food, not apples. I'm kidding, and James looked at me amazed and angry.

-Yes, but the apples also helped her because they were cut by her father. James starts to smile.

Mathilde looked at us in amazement with her eyes as blue as the ocean, and James and I were smiling at her cute expressions.

We finished preparing the food and we all sat down at the table.Is so beautiful and unbelievable that James is alive and that we serve the dinner as a family.James began to eat and asked for another portion.

-But I see that in Japan they didn't give you that much food.

James started laughing and watching me.

-Here Garfield, eat to your heart's content.I place the plate on the table and give him a chaste kiss on the lips.

After dinner, we went to put Mathilde to bed.

-Bonne nuit maman,bonne nuit papa!

-Bonne nuit.James tells Mathilde and kisses her on the cheek.

-Bonne nuit de chère la maman.

I hug her and see James smiling at us.

I pull the blinds and close the door behind me.

James and I went to the bedroom.I see James stopping in front of me, so close that his warm breath caresses my cheeks.He put one hand on my waist and with the other one he stroked my jaw, bringing his face closer to my ear.

-I think you missed that, he whispers softly with his voice full of desire, while his lips touch my earlobe

-Am I right, Madeleine? he whispers the question and runs his hand under my T-shirt, throwing it on the floor.

His kisses immediately descend to my breast,I put my head back leaning against the door letting out a groan.

-Yes, I whisper, giving in to the hot sensations of his touch.

He comes and kisses me wildly and I open his shirt, revealing that muscular abdomen.I break the kiss and slowly start to touch his 6 pack.My touch makes him close his eyes and bite his lower lip.He covers my bottom with his palms and lifts me, wrapping my legs around him taking me to bed.He gently puts me to bed and looks down on me.

-I want you, you are everything I want.

Hearing my words, he throws himself on me and starts kissing my belly.He takes off my pants and starts kissing me lower and lower.This causes me a deep groan.

I put my hands on his belt to open it.Those blue eyes look at me with passion as I take off his pants and boxers.He enters in me with a desire and a power, while he kisses me.At one point a groan is heard on my lips from him.His movements cause me to orgasm, but he doesn't stop, and I wildly move my hands on his shoulder blades.Then he goes deep inside me for the last time and we groan, getting under the blanket.

I approach him, and he takes me in his arms, revealing a scar.

-Is that because of Safin,cuz I do not remember being here before

-What if I told you no ?

-I'd know you're lying

He looks at me and smiles .

-What did he do to you on the island ?

-He shot me and I broke his arm .

I put my hand under his abdomen, revealing another scar.

-Do you mind if I get my hand on it ?

His eyes meet mine

-I would bleed for you !

I kiss him and try to fall asleep with my head on his chest.

He wraps his arm around me and hugs me to his chest.

-I love you !

-I love you too !