NEW Responses:
Mimiheart: Sorry he cried ^^;;
BladeTenshi: Lol.. thanks... I like the Japanese too ^^V
Sherry-chan: Hehe... Glad you like it ^^
~*~*~*~Old stuff~*~*~*~
Y-n-Y: Okies... before I do the reviews I'd like to make a little announcement.
Yuugi: What now?
Y-n-Y: Well, me and Starkiss came up with a great idea, so we joined together and created the name Star no Yugi. We have one story already done and we're quite proud of it ^_^V So, everyone please go check it out.
Yuugi: That's it?
Y-n-Y: Yes... ^^;;
To sky-lightning: I should, shouldn't I? ::sigh:: Boy, this is probably gonna be the angstiest chappie I've ever written...
To Wolfspeaker: Nope, there's more! ^_^
To Devil Malik: ^^;; Thankies for reviewing ^.^
To rox: Thankies!
To Digimagic: Thanks for your review ^_^
To Moonlitspire: Angst won't be gone for a while, my friend.
To moonnymph: Owwies... stop doing that
To Labannya: XD ::nods:: I do make it angsty... ^^;;
To Gin Ryu-chan: ::nods:: But they're my idiots ^___^;;
To anime AndrAIa: Oohh... cookie? Did someone say cookie? ^___^
To YamiLava: Go Lava! ::pets her chainsaw:: ^_____________^
To Synchronized Love: ::nods:: Yeah, sad... Even worse this chappie...
To Seventh Sage: ::hands kleenx:: Sowwy...
To Kyra Windwood: ::nods:: Imma sorry ^^;;
To kiyoko-chan: Sorry it's so sad...
Chapter 5
Regrettable Actions
Yami looked after his departed friend. He sat down at the same spot. His lips still felt warm, they were the only warm part on his whole body. He touched two fingers to his lips. Then he started crying again, swearing he would never wash his fingers again. //Will this pain ever go away? He could have convinced me, but he didn't want to hurt me. He could have forced me to be true to my feelings and to take him in arms and...//
Still sobbing, he went inside. While on his way to his room, he prayed no one would see him. For his sake, no one did. He sat on his bed. As he looked out his window, he saw Yuugi, still crying. With what seemed to be one last look at Yami, he touched his fingers to his lips and ran off. Yami's heart did not need him to see that. It made his insides feel like shit. He stared at his hand. //No regrets, remember?//
Yami wiped off his tears and went to the bathroom. There he washed his hands, with soap and hot water. Hot enough to scald him for life, but he took it.
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Yuugi arrived home and it looked like no one was there so he did not bother to wipe the tears off his face. /At least I know Yami won't be sleeping tonight./ He went into the kitchen; hoping food would cure him for a little while. Yuugi raided the cupboards and the drawers. Not bothering to be careful, he slammed them when he closed them.
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Kaiba, once again reading a book, was interrupted by the sound of cupboards slamming. 'Is there ever peace around here?'
He went into the kitchen to investigate. He saw Yuugi looking into the refrigerator. "Oh, it's just you, Yuugi. You're home," Kaiba said.
His little brother must have been surprised as he was an unexpected guest. He heard sniffles. "Oh, Kaiba. What are you doing here?"
Yuugi would not look at him. "Um, remember? Your grandfather went out of town? Hey, what's wrong?"
"What? Nandemo." Yuugi looked up at Kaiba. "Why?"
Kaiba saw that he had been crying. 'Not doing I very good job at hiding it either.' His cheeks were a little puffy and red and his eyes were still watery. "Well, for starters, your eyes are red and watery."
"OH! No, I was just too close to a stray cat today. Allergies and all."
"Oh." Kaiba did not believe him for one moment. "Whatever you say."
"Well, I'm gonna get changed. I don't need any cat hair on me."
Kaiba knew that Yuugi was not allergic to cats. He has been around cats at his house and never showed a sign of an allergy. 'He'll tell me when he wants to.'
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Yuugi made it to his room without a tear, but once he was inside, the tears started again. He fell face first on his bed and buried his head in a pillow. /Stupid, stupid! I shouldn't have let him do that to me. I should have stayed. Well, it's too late now./ He pulled the covers over his head, and even though there was still light out, he tried to sleep. Sleep finally did take him, but last words Yami said echoed through his head. "Aishiteru, demo sayonara."
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After washing his hands, Yami tried to find a good lunch, but nothing seemed to do. He eventually got a glass of water. He sat at the table staring at it. Out of nowhere, he heard "Aishiteru, Yami. Zutto."
"Huh?" Then Yami remembered their last conversation. Right before Yuugi accepted Yami's decision. "Knock it off!"
His mom came into the room. "Nani? Did you say something?"
//Stupid!// "No. I'm just thinking aloud."
"Oh. Okay. Look, I wasn't born yesterday. I know something's up with you and Yuugi. And if you need to talk to someone, I'll listen." Then she left the room.
//I do need to talk, but I can't. Not with what I want to talk about. Damn it, Yuugi! How will I ever be able to forget you?//
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Yuugi slept until nightfall. When he finally did wake up, he did not want to do anything. Not eat, sleep, think, or live. The person who he loved the most had rejected him. He felt knifes go through his body. /Death has got to be less painful than this./
He looked on the table next to his bed and saw a cup with water and some food and a plate. He took the food off the plate and put it on the table. He struggled to break the plate. He finally broke a piece with a point off. He rolled up his selves and put the sharp tip to his skin near his wrist.
The pain of the cuts made the pain of losing Yami fade to almost nothing. But the moment he stopped cutting the pain came back. /I can't win!/
Finally, after losing so much blood, he passed out.
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Kaiba was in the kitchen, hoping Yuugi would at least come down for dinner. He felt like he could not help, but now he had a good idea what is going on. After an hour went by, he wrapped up the food and put it away. 'He must be really miserable if he didn't eat dinner or lunch. I just hope he ate what was on the plate.'
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In his room, Yami was looking at the window where he last saw Yuugi. //I want to see you so much right now, but I can't. I want to be with you, but I can't. I need to get over this, but I can't.// Yami smiled humorlessly. It was nighttime and Yami could not wait until he could stop thinking about Yuugi.
Unfortunately, he learned sleeping is not a very good problem solver.
~*~*~*~DREAM~*~*~*~
Yami ran up to Yuugi.
"Hey, Yuugi! Let's duel today." He said.
Yuugi pushed him away. "Go away, you idiot. I can't believe you were stupid enough to actually think I was in love with you." Yuugi laughed. "Oh, you did? Loser!"
It was his laugh that startled him. It was not filled with warmth. "Yuugi..."
"Don't talk so rudely to me."
"Demo..."
Yuugi hit Yami. When he tried to get up, Yuugi was already there to hit him again. "Why...? Why?!"
~*~*~*~END OF DREAM~*~*~*~
"WHY!" Yami woke up screaming. He heard other voices screaming, too. //Mom and Dad... I hope they didn't hear me.// He waited a bit, but no one came. So he went back to sleep, but still the disturbing dream came to him.
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Yami's mom stopped arguing with her husband after she heard a yell from her son's room. 'Poor, boy. He won't tell me what's going on. I can't do anything for him if he doesn't.'
She went to his room to ask him what was wrong, but he was asleep. 'Why don't you tell me, Yami?'
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A week went by. Days of pain followed Yuugi, not wanting to hurt from Yami's rejection.
From a sleep of pain, Yuugi woke up. He didn't realize he had fallen asleep. He looked at his bed covers. They were stained with blood. A trail of new blood led to his arms. He looked at his arms and was immediately reminded of Yami. He found the broken-off piece of the plate on his bed. He tried to pick it up, but had difficulty moving his hands.
Failing to pick it up he attempted to get out of bed, but as soon as he stood on his legs, he fell. /No energy. Too much blood lost. I gotta get back in bed before Kaiba comes in./
After a while, he got back into his bloody bed. He managed to get the plate shard. He put the point into his skin. This time, he didn't just scrape his skin, he push the tip in at least a half an inch. He felt his whole hand go numb. Blood seeped past the shard and run on his hand and arm. Soon he felt light-headed. /Yes, let me die... I can't take this pain... I want to die!/ Yuugi felt his head hit his pillow as the whole became a very dark place. /Yes... I'm finally going to die. Goodbye, 'jii-chan, Kaiba, Jounouchi, Mokuba, Bakura, Ryou, Marik, Malik and... You... The only one I'll ever love.../ Yuugi pictured a smiling and happy Yami. /Yami... I'll see you when it's your time. Genki de... minna.../
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Yami woke up from a dream the made him wake up crying. //Yuugi...! Good, it was a dream, you didn't die...// He wiped the tears off his face. //It felt so real... I could have felt his blood on me...//
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That week that had passed was the same pattern to Kaiba. The water would be still in the glass and the plate gone, but the food still on the table. Kaiba would enter his room to take away the food and water. He would call to Yuugi to wake up, but all he would get is a moan or a sharp yell telling him to go away.
On the eighth day of this pattern, Kaiba went into Yuugi's room, determined to wake him up no matter what. He saw the food he gave Yuugi on a table and the plate was in little pieces this time, instead of gone. 'Oh, no.' Kaiba woke Yuugi up.
Yuugi sat up a little. Kaiba was shocked with what he saw. Yuugi's skin was pale and his eyes seemed darkened and red around the edges. His once semi- built figure turned to skin and bones. His clothes were in shreds that revealed many cuts on his arms, some of the deeper ones still bleeding. Half in his arm, Kaiba saw a big shard stick out. "Yuugi, what's this?" Kaiba asked. "Is this another allergic reaction?"
What shocked Kaiba even more was the hollow voice Yuugi spoke with. "I don't care anymore."
Y-n-Y: Eep... um... no comment...
Mimiheart: Sorry he cried ^^;;
BladeTenshi: Lol.. thanks... I like the Japanese too ^^V
Sherry-chan: Hehe... Glad you like it ^^
~*~*~*~Old stuff~*~*~*~
Y-n-Y: Okies... before I do the reviews I'd like to make a little announcement.
Yuugi: What now?
Y-n-Y: Well, me and Starkiss came up with a great idea, so we joined together and created the name Star no Yugi. We have one story already done and we're quite proud of it ^_^V So, everyone please go check it out.
Yuugi: That's it?
Y-n-Y: Yes... ^^;;
To sky-lightning: I should, shouldn't I? ::sigh:: Boy, this is probably gonna be the angstiest chappie I've ever written...
To Wolfspeaker: Nope, there's more! ^_^
To Devil Malik: ^^;; Thankies for reviewing ^.^
To rox: Thankies!
To Digimagic: Thanks for your review ^_^
To Moonlitspire: Angst won't be gone for a while, my friend.
To moonnymph: Owwies... stop doing that
To Labannya: XD ::nods:: I do make it angsty... ^^;;
To Gin Ryu-chan: ::nods:: But they're my idiots ^___^;;
To anime AndrAIa: Oohh... cookie? Did someone say cookie? ^___^
To YamiLava: Go Lava! ::pets her chainsaw:: ^_____________^
To Synchronized Love: ::nods:: Yeah, sad... Even worse this chappie...
To Seventh Sage: ::hands kleenx:: Sowwy...
To Kyra Windwood: ::nods:: Imma sorry ^^;;
To kiyoko-chan: Sorry it's so sad...
Chapter 5
Regrettable Actions
Yami looked after his departed friend. He sat down at the same spot. His lips still felt warm, they were the only warm part on his whole body. He touched two fingers to his lips. Then he started crying again, swearing he would never wash his fingers again. //Will this pain ever go away? He could have convinced me, but he didn't want to hurt me. He could have forced me to be true to my feelings and to take him in arms and...//
Still sobbing, he went inside. While on his way to his room, he prayed no one would see him. For his sake, no one did. He sat on his bed. As he looked out his window, he saw Yuugi, still crying. With what seemed to be one last look at Yami, he touched his fingers to his lips and ran off. Yami's heart did not need him to see that. It made his insides feel like shit. He stared at his hand. //No regrets, remember?//
Yami wiped off his tears and went to the bathroom. There he washed his hands, with soap and hot water. Hot enough to scald him for life, but he took it.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yuugi arrived home and it looked like no one was there so he did not bother to wipe the tears off his face. /At least I know Yami won't be sleeping tonight./ He went into the kitchen; hoping food would cure him for a little while. Yuugi raided the cupboards and the drawers. Not bothering to be careful, he slammed them when he closed them.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kaiba, once again reading a book, was interrupted by the sound of cupboards slamming. 'Is there ever peace around here?'
He went into the kitchen to investigate. He saw Yuugi looking into the refrigerator. "Oh, it's just you, Yuugi. You're home," Kaiba said.
His little brother must have been surprised as he was an unexpected guest. He heard sniffles. "Oh, Kaiba. What are you doing here?"
Yuugi would not look at him. "Um, remember? Your grandfather went out of town? Hey, what's wrong?"
"What? Nandemo." Yuugi looked up at Kaiba. "Why?"
Kaiba saw that he had been crying. 'Not doing I very good job at hiding it either.' His cheeks were a little puffy and red and his eyes were still watery. "Well, for starters, your eyes are red and watery."
"OH! No, I was just too close to a stray cat today. Allergies and all."
"Oh." Kaiba did not believe him for one moment. "Whatever you say."
"Well, I'm gonna get changed. I don't need any cat hair on me."
Kaiba knew that Yuugi was not allergic to cats. He has been around cats at his house and never showed a sign of an allergy. 'He'll tell me when he wants to.'
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Yuugi made it to his room without a tear, but once he was inside, the tears started again. He fell face first on his bed and buried his head in a pillow. /Stupid, stupid! I shouldn't have let him do that to me. I should have stayed. Well, it's too late now./ He pulled the covers over his head, and even though there was still light out, he tried to sleep. Sleep finally did take him, but last words Yami said echoed through his head. "Aishiteru, demo sayonara."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
After washing his hands, Yami tried to find a good lunch, but nothing seemed to do. He eventually got a glass of water. He sat at the table staring at it. Out of nowhere, he heard "Aishiteru, Yami. Zutto."
"Huh?" Then Yami remembered their last conversation. Right before Yuugi accepted Yami's decision. "Knock it off!"
His mom came into the room. "Nani? Did you say something?"
//Stupid!// "No. I'm just thinking aloud."
"Oh. Okay. Look, I wasn't born yesterday. I know something's up with you and Yuugi. And if you need to talk to someone, I'll listen." Then she left the room.
//I do need to talk, but I can't. Not with what I want to talk about. Damn it, Yuugi! How will I ever be able to forget you?//
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Yuugi slept until nightfall. When he finally did wake up, he did not want to do anything. Not eat, sleep, think, or live. The person who he loved the most had rejected him. He felt knifes go through his body. /Death has got to be less painful than this./
He looked on the table next to his bed and saw a cup with water and some food and a plate. He took the food off the plate and put it on the table. He struggled to break the plate. He finally broke a piece with a point off. He rolled up his selves and put the sharp tip to his skin near his wrist.
The pain of the cuts made the pain of losing Yami fade to almost nothing. But the moment he stopped cutting the pain came back. /I can't win!/
Finally, after losing so much blood, he passed out.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kaiba was in the kitchen, hoping Yuugi would at least come down for dinner. He felt like he could not help, but now he had a good idea what is going on. After an hour went by, he wrapped up the food and put it away. 'He must be really miserable if he didn't eat dinner or lunch. I just hope he ate what was on the plate.'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
In his room, Yami was looking at the window where he last saw Yuugi. //I want to see you so much right now, but I can't. I want to be with you, but I can't. I need to get over this, but I can't.// Yami smiled humorlessly. It was nighttime and Yami could not wait until he could stop thinking about Yuugi.
Unfortunately, he learned sleeping is not a very good problem solver.
~*~*~*~DREAM~*~*~*~
Yami ran up to Yuugi.
"Hey, Yuugi! Let's duel today." He said.
Yuugi pushed him away. "Go away, you idiot. I can't believe you were stupid enough to actually think I was in love with you." Yuugi laughed. "Oh, you did? Loser!"
It was his laugh that startled him. It was not filled with warmth. "Yuugi..."
"Don't talk so rudely to me."
"Demo..."
Yuugi hit Yami. When he tried to get up, Yuugi was already there to hit him again. "Why...? Why?!"
~*~*~*~END OF DREAM~*~*~*~
"WHY!" Yami woke up screaming. He heard other voices screaming, too. //Mom and Dad... I hope they didn't hear me.// He waited a bit, but no one came. So he went back to sleep, but still the disturbing dream came to him.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yami's mom stopped arguing with her husband after she heard a yell from her son's room. 'Poor, boy. He won't tell me what's going on. I can't do anything for him if he doesn't.'
She went to his room to ask him what was wrong, but he was asleep. 'Why don't you tell me, Yami?'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A week went by. Days of pain followed Yuugi, not wanting to hurt from Yami's rejection.
From a sleep of pain, Yuugi woke up. He didn't realize he had fallen asleep. He looked at his bed covers. They were stained with blood. A trail of new blood led to his arms. He looked at his arms and was immediately reminded of Yami. He found the broken-off piece of the plate on his bed. He tried to pick it up, but had difficulty moving his hands.
Failing to pick it up he attempted to get out of bed, but as soon as he stood on his legs, he fell. /No energy. Too much blood lost. I gotta get back in bed before Kaiba comes in./
After a while, he got back into his bloody bed. He managed to get the plate shard. He put the point into his skin. This time, he didn't just scrape his skin, he push the tip in at least a half an inch. He felt his whole hand go numb. Blood seeped past the shard and run on his hand and arm. Soon he felt light-headed. /Yes, let me die... I can't take this pain... I want to die!/ Yuugi felt his head hit his pillow as the whole became a very dark place. /Yes... I'm finally going to die. Goodbye, 'jii-chan, Kaiba, Jounouchi, Mokuba, Bakura, Ryou, Marik, Malik and... You... The only one I'll ever love.../ Yuugi pictured a smiling and happy Yami. /Yami... I'll see you when it's your time. Genki de... minna.../
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Yami woke up from a dream the made him wake up crying. //Yuugi...! Good, it was a dream, you didn't die...// He wiped the tears off his face. //It felt so real... I could have felt his blood on me...//
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
That week that had passed was the same pattern to Kaiba. The water would be still in the glass and the plate gone, but the food still on the table. Kaiba would enter his room to take away the food and water. He would call to Yuugi to wake up, but all he would get is a moan or a sharp yell telling him to go away.
On the eighth day of this pattern, Kaiba went into Yuugi's room, determined to wake him up no matter what. He saw the food he gave Yuugi on a table and the plate was in little pieces this time, instead of gone. 'Oh, no.' Kaiba woke Yuugi up.
Yuugi sat up a little. Kaiba was shocked with what he saw. Yuugi's skin was pale and his eyes seemed darkened and red around the edges. His once semi- built figure turned to skin and bones. His clothes were in shreds that revealed many cuts on his arms, some of the deeper ones still bleeding. Half in his arm, Kaiba saw a big shard stick out. "Yuugi, what's this?" Kaiba asked. "Is this another allergic reaction?"
What shocked Kaiba even more was the hollow voice Yuugi spoke with. "I don't care anymore."
Y-n-Y: Eep... um... no comment...