Chapter 5. So you know what's up with the tattoos now, and in this chapter, you'll find out why Relena is angry with Heero.

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Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or any of its characters and I do not own New York City (obviously).

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Relena rubbed her eyes and sighed as she unlocked the door to her apartment. It had been a long night and she was drained.

'Why can't Heero just leave me alone,' she thought to herself. 'I don't want to go back to the way things were and he needs to just deal with it.'

She shoved her door open angrily and flipped the light switch on.

A scream echoed through the courtyard.

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"BLODDY FUCKING HELL HEERO!!!!" Relena yelled. She had turned on the lights and he was standing there in front of her. "What are you trying to do, you bastard, give me a heart attack?!"

Heero simply raised an eyebrow. Her language never used to be so... colorful. Oh, she would curse every once in while, but never so much in two sentences.

"I'm here to take you back to the Sanc Kingdom," he said coldly.

"I told you already," Relena spat back. "I'm not going back."

"Relena," Heero growled, getting fed up with her attitude, "we've been through this. You have to come back."

Relena could feel her breath getting shallow and her eyes filling with tears. She couldn't go back to the way things were. She wouldn't. She turned her head to the side so that Heero wouldn't see her tears. She wouldn't allow him to see her as weak anymore.

"I'm not going back with you Heero, so you need to leave."

Heero sighed and took a step towards the girl. Relena jumped back, her body tense and her watery eyes fierce.

"Don't. Touch. Me," she choked out.

Heero sighed again and reached for her arm, prepared to drag her back. As soon as he made a move for her though, she freaked out.

"NOOOO!!!" she shrieked as she slapped her former bodyguard across the face. He froze. Her slap hadn't hurt, but it had surprised him. He hadn't expected her to react like that. He watched as Relena then proceeded to sink to the floor, sobbing.

"Don't you get it?" she sobbed. "You're killing me Heero. Every time I'm around you, every time I see our tattoos, every time you speak to me like I mean nothing to you, a part of me dies. I can't be around you anymore; I can't go back to the way things were."

They stayed there, staring into each others eyes. Cold, Prussian blue meets sad, tear-filled turquoise. He hoped that she didn't mean what he thought she meant, but his gut told him that she did.

"So you're breaking our promise?" Heero said softly.

"No Heero," she whispered, "you were the one to break our promise."

Heero's breath caught in his throat. Was that true? "How?" Heero whispered.

Relena looked down at the ground, feeling broken, "Because our promise was that we'd always find hope in each other, but when I was around you, I lost all of my hope."

Silence filled the room.

"I know you've been through a lot," she continued, "I know you need time to heal and feel again, and I tried to be patient, I really did. But I can't wait forever, no matter how much I love you. You made it very clear while you were my body guard that you have no desire to feel again, that I just don't matter enough to you. I think that what happened between us was just two desperate people looking to fill the void in their souls." Tears streamed down her face as she broke down into sobs again.

Heero felt a strange pain in his heart, one that pierced deeper than anything he had ever felt before. He crouched down next to the woman he cared about and attempted to hug her, wanting her to know that he did care for her. As soon as he touched her though, she began screaming and thrashing violently in his grasp.

"NOOO!!" she wailed. Her haunting cries ripped through Heero. He let go of her and she curled up into a ball on the floor, wailing, pain and sadness radiating off of her. "Just go away," she whispered through her sobs. "Please."

He closed his eyes and sighed. "Okay Relena. I'll go." He said softly as he stood up and walked out the door, pausing once to look back at his dove of peace. "Goodbye," he whispered. And with that, he shut the door and walked away.

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WAIT!!!! DON'T FEEL SAD OR ANGRY YET!!! THIS IS NOT THE END!!!! At least, I don't think it is. If it is the end, it is not the end that I had planned. So, either the next chapter will be an epilogue or just another chapter. I don't know yet to tell you the truth. Maybe I'll make two versions of the story. One with this being the end (which makes me want to cry), and another, longer one with a happy ending.

I'm not sure how this chapter turned out. It seems quick and lacking emotion. I don't know. That's why I need reviews. Thank you to all of you who have reviewed so far, but please, keep them coming. Let me know.