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Kat: If it seems like I'm repeating myself at the beginning, I kind of am, though it's intentional, so don't bother me about it before you finish the whole thing.
Turning on her heel, the young wolf demon stormed off up the mountain, ignoring any please that Kouga shot at her as she left, not wanting to listen to him beg her for forgiveness; she wouldn't give it to him. As she turned onto another path, leading up higher on the mountain, she stopped where Kouga had sat down, looking over him, sighing deeply as she watched him helplessly. Ayame felt even more pain now than when she had first seen him, she had thought telling him all the things she had said would help her forget the pain and place it on him, but now it hurt even more than she had imagined it would.
Sitting down on her legs, she put her hands on the edge of the cliff and pushed herself up onto her knees and hands, watching as Kouga stood up and left down the mountain, her lower lip quivering as she silently mouthed, 'I'm sorry,' knowing it was a fruitless attempt. Her eyes were full of tears that she refused to let fall, and her vision was being obscured by them, everything becoming a blurry mess as she fell back onto her the lower part of her legs, growling lowly to herself. 'Ayame, you idiot,' she said, wrapping her arms around her as she let the tears silently fall down her paled cheeks, 'why didn't you just listen to him?'
Ayame stood up, taking a deep breath as she quickly brushed her tears away and started walking higher up the mountain, hoping that if she went up there, she'd be left alone by anyone who wondered where she was. Her mood had changed so dramatically since she first saw Kouga coming up the mountain path to now, when she was walking away from him, knowing she'd probably never see him again now. Happiness had welled up inside to see the familiar face, body, and outfit of the man she had fallen in love with when they first met, though when he had tried to apologize, hatred had taken over, and she had said everything she wanted to say to him. Everything.
She stopped and fell to the floor, sobbing silently to herself again, not caring that the white fur she wore would soon be a dusty brown, only caring how much she had hurt Kouga and the pain she caused the two of them. Placing a hand on her cheek, she brushed the tears away, sighing as she stood up, looking down on the scene below, she wished she hadn't been so truthful with the demon she had once loved so much. Ayame pushed herself up off the ground, brushing what dirt and dust from her leg warmers off as she began to head back down the mountain and towards the caves.
'I didn't mean anything I said, Kouga,' she said silently to herself as she slowly walked down that mountain path, sighing deeply every so often, 'it was just bottled up anger...' The wolf demon kept repeating that same thing to herself over and over again, hoping that it would become true after hearing it said so many times, hoping that things would change and she'd be happily walking with Kouga. No matter how many times she heard it, repeated it to herself, it wasn't happening, she would keep looking over to her right, then her left, and see if he was there, he wasn't there any of the times she looked. After a while, she gave up on what she was saying, knowing it would never be true, knowing that what she said would always remain embedded in her brain and probably in Kouga's as well.
As Ayame came to the part of the path she had stormed away from Kouga, she looked down it and towards the end, where Kouga, Ginta, and Hakaku were still walking, then put a hand out in front of her, biting her lower lip. 'Kouga!' she shouted, her eyes wide in shock at what she had just done, so she bounded up the path and towards her den, hoping to all that was holy that Kouga didn't hear her or didn't recognize her voice, though with how loud she yelled, and how distinguishable her voice was, it was impossible,
'That was stupid, Ayame, just plain stupid,' she told herself after she slowed down and made sure she was out of any eyes from the peak at the end of the path, and shook her head, rusty brown hair falling into her eyes. The demon sighed and looked around as she came to the entrance of the cave and looked it; the majority of the tribe had gone hunting, which left Ayame time to think about everything and convince herself that Kouga was serious about what he had said.
'You're going to have to believe him sooner or later,' a voice told Ayame, who quickly turned around, surprised to hear someone speaking to her, not knowing she was actually talking to herself. 'Knowing you at the moment, it's going to be later, because you're too stubborn to believe him until he proves himself!' Ayame nodded her head in agreement to what she was telling herself, down casting her gaze to the ground, disappointed in herself, and how she couldn't believe anyone after they lied to her.
The young girl nodded to herself again as the same thing repeated in her mind, agreeing with everything she was telling herself whole heartedly, not being able to disagree for some reason she didn't know. 'I know that, I know everything you're telling me,' she said aloud, emerald gaze glancing around the area for anyone who might be coming back from the hunt. 'How am I supposed to make it sooner? I can't believe him after all the lies he fed me, I can't truest him after everything he's done and said since I went down to him, I don't know why, though.' As she finished speaking, she sighed deeply and brushed strands of hair out of her face and pushed her pigtails back behind her shoulders since they had been blown in front and on her chest, covering her red and black armor.