I DON'T OWN FRUITS BASKET!

Okay well I just got this idea for a story because each member of the zodiac has some trauma related to the curse and as far as I've seen Shigure has none! Grrr okay so I thought of this idea! So here you go! Please don't flame me if you don't like it, keep it to yourself please I'm very sensitive. But if I have some facts wrong please tell me. If I have the ages wrong I'm sorry but I looked everywhere and they were different but having Ayame tell Tohru him and Yuki were ten years apart helpped. Okay I'm ranting now, read on !

This old Feeling

The autumn wind blew fiercely. Blowing the colorful leaves from the trees and then twirling them around in a violent dance until tiring and setting them down on the grass. Shigure Sohma stared wide eyed at the beautiful scenery. Being only twelve it was easy for him to get excited over something like that. He sighed contently and proceeded with his sweeping. Today had started off rather pleasantly and it continued that way so far. His mother had acknowledged him and had even gone so far as to bid him good morning before she started with the house work. He also looked forward to Shizuru getting better day by day.

'Shi-chan, I miss you,'

"Oi, Gure don't you think you've swept that tile enough?" Came the mocking reply from one of his best friends.

"Ayame leave him alone. He was thinking, you know how hard it can be for him sometimes,"

'Ah Hari you're so mean to me with your dry humor,' Shigure looked at his other best friend's face. Nope no smile. Was he even remotely aware that his statement was funny? Then again maybe he was really trying to be that cruel.

"So why are you doing something so grueling and, and, and....I can't even think of a word for something as repulsive as...-"

"Work?' Hatori sighed. 'Get used to it Ayame I hear you have to do it for a living,"

"Aya, Hari did you want something?" Shigure asked, interrupting Ayame before he could retaliate.

"We were wondering if you would take us to go see Shi-chan this fine morning," Ayame asked. Shigure suddenly brightened.

"Oh that's right! I didn't tell you! The doctor said Shi-chan might wake up soon!" Shigure's smile almost made the other two Juunishi cry.

"Shigure you know that might not happen,' He sighed and continued, even though it was hard for him to say this to his best friend. 'She isn't the first sibling of a cursed child to get sick like that. The others like her, they didn't last as long as she has Shigure," Shigure held tight to the broom.

"So,"

"So I'm just saying, maybe the doctor isn't right. Your mother got a normal doctor not one with knowledge of the curse. This one thinks it's just some comma,"

"Quiet," Shigure whispered harshly. Ayame wanted to comfort his friend but he knew when to keep quiet. Shigure didn't say anything else and Hatori continued, this time softer than the last.

"I know that there is a really good possibility that she could get better Shigure...but you need to know that she might n-"

"SHUT UP!" The boy yelled, clinching the broom to it's final limit causing it to snap.

"Gure!" Ayame rushed to his side, inspecting the badly wounded hands.

"I'll get some bandages," Hatori said quietly before walking to his father's office.

"Tsuki you don't really think that alienating Shigure like you're doing will bring you daughter back do you?"

"T-that monster made her sick! He has the nerve to act sad! Like he doesn't know it was him! It was him damnit and he could care less!"

"Don't do this, Shizuru loves her brother and he loves her back she didn't even care when he-"

"Don't, Nagi. Don't you mention what that thing can do. That curse is the reason my child is sick!"

"But it's not Shigure's fault! If you would just listen!"

"I don't want to hear it! I came for some medicine and if you wont give it to me then I'll leave,"

"I wont sell them to you for that purpose Tsuki. You came here honestly thinking I would let you do that to yourself?"

"No, I suppose I didn't but I think I just wanted to tell someone," She walked off, causing Hatori to hide quickly behind the door.

"You can come out Hatori," His father called, amused. Hatori laughed and rubbed the back of his neck, embarrassed.

"Yeah. The sneaking thing was more Shigure's forte than mine," The smile suddenly left his father's face.

"He's not behind that door also is he?" Hatori shook his head.

"Good I wouldn't have wanted him to hear that,"

"Umm...I need some bandages,"

"What for?"

"Shigure scraped his knee trying to catch Kyo," Hatori lied. His father smiled and handed him the bandages.

"Try not to get him angry anymore Hatori. Akito's mother is getting angry for having to replace so many brooms," Hatori stared at his father-how did he? His father pointed outside his window where he could just see Ayame and Shigure both standing close, the snake holding the dog's hands gently.-Dummy of course he could see. Hatori thanked his father and ran out the room quickly. He smiled as he came back out. It seemed that Ritsu had joined them and was now apologizing for the amount of blood.

"I'm sorry I should have brought bandages with me! Ohhhh there's so much blood!"

"Here," Hatori said handing the bandages over to Ayame.

"Bout time Hari what took so long?" Ayame fussed. Hatori thought for a moment-maybe it's best if they don't know, especially Shigure. Ayame finally finished and suggested they go visit Yuki in the nursery instead.

"Shigure! We're going home now!" Called his mother, looking in the direction of Nagi's office.

"Hai!" Shigure called back like an obedient puppy. "Bye guys see you tomorrow!" Hatori and Ayame waved goodbye as Ritsu apologized for him not being able to stay longer.

"We can still go visit Yuki if you guys want? He's the cutest baby ever! His hair is wonderful just like mine!" Ayame struck an unnecessary pose. They walked off, Ritsu still waving goodbye to an almost invisible Shigure.

"Hurry up little monkey or we'll leave you!"

"Sorry!!!!!" Hatori smiled. Over the years many things would changed but he was positive that wouldn't be one of them.

"Shigure?" Hatori whispered into the dark room. He saw the figure in the corner grow smaller at the sound of his voice.

"W-we brought food Gure, in case you were hungry?" Ayame followed behind him. His hair was even longer over that last three years, but he still held the same smooth features. He, himself was still the same...short brown hair with a ting of green. But Shigure...he had changed the most. Not the bright young child like he used to be, but now the secluded, alarmingly silent teen that was curled up before them. It had been two years now doing this; everyday; bringing his meals, trying to get him to talk to them more, but more importantly getting him sane again.
Shigure looked up, his dull slate hues stared back at them. Hatori set the tray down, backed up;motioning for Ayame to do the same; and sat down. Shigure awkwardly grabbed the bowl and chopsticks and began to eat. They sat in silence for awhile-which was fine for the dog spirit-until Ayame tried to break the silence.

"Kyo got a black eye from Kagura today. He said one of her summer dresses made her look fat," Shigure didn't say anything, just kept eating slowly. Ayame sighed softly. He looked to the seahorse. His turn.

"Ritsu knocked over dad's tray of syringes today, one of them poked him but they were all sedatives so it just put him to sleep," Shigure's eyes moved from the bowl to his friend's face. Yes! Now they had his attention.

"It was kinda funny,Momiji cried because Ritsu promised to play tea party with him and he couldn't,so we dressed Yuki up in a dress instead," Shigure's face twisted in concentration.

"Momiji?"

"Oh right you remember him? Blond? He's the rabbit? He was only a year old when-' Ayame caught himself before he made a devastating mistake. Hatori glared at him but also heaved a sigh of relief when noticing the snake wasn't planning to continue the statement. 'Yuki was kinda mad that Kyo saw him in a dress but Kyo apologized for laughing at him later. You know he keeps on going on about some girl he met. Says she was cute and he gave her his hat. I told him if he was going to have a crush on a girl he should know her name but he just told me to "shut it" he's very cute when embarrassed like that!" Ayame laughed.

"H...how...school?" Shigure coughed, using his voice was hard for him. Hatori guessed that would be the case for anyone who only said three words a day for two years.

"It's going well, Ayame's upset because we have to take P.E.," Ayame pouted and folded his arms across his chest.

"It's horrible they make you get all sweaty! Oh and Hatori's tutoring me in Biology he's quite good at it!" The corner of Shigure's lip curved up slightly, very slightly. They talked for awhile longer until it was late into the afternoon.

"Tiered," Shigure couldn't help but murmur. His eyes drooped in a lazy manor but he did not want sleep to come.

"We should leave, you need to sleep," Hatori said standing up. Ayame followed reluctantly and waved goodbye. The poor dog tried calling out for them to stay but found his voice wouldn't listen to him. He let out a whimper and looked around the dark room. He stood slowly and stumbled over to his futon. After he pulled the cover to his shoulders sleep came easily, but his dreams were worse than ever.

::Dream::

"She's what?" Shigure stood, unmoving in the middle of the room.

"GONE! AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!"

"TSUKI STOP IT CAN'T YOU SEE HE'S IN SHOCK!" Nagi tried holding back the wild mother but it wasn't her he had to worry about. Shigure's father slowly walked up to him and backhanded him across the face. The stunned boy fell to the floor still staring at the bed that once held his sister. He was still looking as his father picked him up by the collar and threw him at the wall. He barley felt the pain in his back. But he did hear his mother's words.

"SHE DIED SCREAMING YOU MONSTER! DO YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID?! "SHIGURE HELP ME!" BUT YOU DIDN'T DID YOU? I BET YOU KNEW HOW TO SAVE HER AND YOU WERE JUST LAUGHTING AWAY WITH YOUR LITTLE FRIENDS!" Kazuma was now holding back Shigure's father in an attempt to keep him away from his injured son. Shigure's breath was coming out ragged he couldn't see. His vision was dimming. He squeezed his knees close to his chest and closed his eyes tight. He saw her then. Screaming in her disease sleep. He opened his eyes; ignoring the sight of his own parents being thrown out of the room; and she was gone. He closed them again and she was there, more haunting than the last time.

"STOP IT!" He grabbed his head and dug his nails in, trying to focus the emotional pain on his physical senses.

"Shigure stop it!" He felt a hand wrap around his wrist and he cried out. It wouldn't let go,it held on tight. He couldn't make out the face with his fogged vision. "SIGURE STOP!! STOP YOU'RE HURTING YOURSELF!"

::End Dream::

Shigure awoke to someone shaking him while holding down his bleeding hands.

"You're awake," Shigure glanced up and saw Kazuma standing there looking at him worriedly. Kyo stood behind him looking at his friend's blood soaked hands.

"Kyo, go get Nagi-san, he should be in his office,tell him we need more bandages in here, we used them up last time," Kyo nodded and ran out, happy to get away from the eerie room. Kazuma took in the damage Shigure had done to his head and noted they were only shallow cuts. He heard the scampering of many feet and the doors were flung open. Ayame, Hatori, Yuki, Kagura, Ritsu and Hatsuharu stood there.

"What's with all the noise?" Kagura asked annoyed by he lack of sleep. Hatori and Ayame rushed to Shigure's side. Yuki; who tried to follow his brother was held back by Ritsu. The look on his face was very serious and distraught. Hatsuharu held Yuki's hand and they watched as Kagura went to find what was taking so long.

"It's alright Shigure calm down," Hatori said rubbing the dog's back as it began to shake. Hatori looked up as his dad, Kyo and Kagura ran into the room.

"Alright everyone go back to sleep,' He looked to Ritsu at this, 'Make sure they all get back to their beds," The monkey nodded and ushered everyone back into the hall and up the stairs. Nagi turned his attention back to the quivering boy.

"It's all right Shigure come here,I need to see your hands," Kazuma shook his head and pointed to it. Nagi looked closer and saw blood shown through Shigure's thick bangs. 'Just like last time,' He thought. He turned around for the bandages and found nothing. "But they were just-"

"Hold still Shigure you'll make it loose," He heard his son whisper.

"I thought I said for everyone to go to bed?"

"We're his best friend's we don't plan on leaving," Ayame said for once with a serious tone and expression. Nagi looked at his son bandaging the injured boy's head as he stared at his hands in his lap dully.

"Fine but did you remember to clean the cuts-" Hatori held up the wet rag with thin lines of blood scattered about it. If they wanted to help that was fine with him. He was happy for the assistance.

There you go more to come later! R & R PLEASE!!!