Talent Show Chapter 6: A whole lot o' changes, a degrassi fanfic

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When Emma got out of Raditch's office I was there waiting. Sure it meant skipping a class, and Raditch did see me, but no one said anything. She walked strait out to me and pretty much latched on to me. I knew she'd been suspended before, Cameron told me that back when we were convincing him to leave, but I take it that actually earning the suspension made her feel trashy.

I held her hand and walked her to Simpson's class. He had a prep period right now, so no one was around when we walked in. He looked up and told whoever he was on the phone with the hold on. She couldn't look him in the eyes, as a matter of fact her eyes never left the floor.

"Emma," he said. "your mom can't pick you up and I can't leave so you're going to have to walk home."

She nodded and I spoke up, "Actually, Mr. S., I can take her home. No one said anything to me about my ditching to wait for her to get done with Raditch, so they probably won't say anything about this."

He nodded to me and we turned to leave. He didn't say anything else, so we just walked out. She got into my car like she left school early with me all the time. But she did one thing to surprise me.

"You know what? This feels good. I should have beat the shit out of Alex a long time ago."

We both laughed and I kissed her. Then we pulled out of Degrassi and took off. I didn't pull out in the direction to go to her house and I knew she noticed it because I could hear her start to say something, but she stopped.

"I know, we aren't going to your house right away. I need to check on my mom."

I could see her nod and she didn't say anything else.

I've started to wonder if this is how our relationship was going to be. Every time we're alone it either being physical action or silence. I hope not. I know she has a passion, I know that when she talks about something she really cares about there's a fire in her eyes that's unimaginable. I just hope she gets like that with me.

We passed a protest against gay marriages at city hall and I saw that familiar fire in her eyes.

"Jay, can we pull over?" I did.

I watched her get out, and I got out to listen to her. She went up to the person with the microphone and asked if she could say something. He nodded and handed it to her and I knew the protesters were going to get it.

"How would you feel if some one protested you marrying in a heterosexual couple? Restricting marriages to heterosexual couples is not right. Just because you were born one way and have not developed feelings of another way doesn't make it right for you to judge people for their sexuality. And if you think it does than maybe you need to be judged yourself."

Emma threw the microphone back at the man and walked to my car.

"Nice, Cause Girl. I happen to not care for it myself, but its their choices and if you feel one way I certainly won't fight it."

She smiled at me and kissed me. "Thanks Jay. I suppose I won't protect the candy bars at my house from you."

I laughed and kissed her back. This was going to be one great ride of a relationship.

We pulled into my driveway and I got out of the car. I motioned for her to follow me and she did.

"I know this isn't exactly your type of neighborhood, but my mom does what she can and I love her for it."

She nodded and we walked in.

"Mom? You here?" I didn't hear anything so I just walked into the living room. There was my mom sprawled out across the couch, but something wasn't right about it. I leaned over to kiss her cheek and she wasn't breathing. Oh no.

"Emma call an ambulance. Hurry!" I started to shake my mom and I noticed blood on her wrists. After looking at them more closely, I realized she'd slit them and I'd started to shake.

Emma got of the phone and came over to me. She held me like a little kid, putting my head against her chest, and rocked me back and forth.

"It'll be alright Jay, it'll be alright. The ambulance is coming, they're going to take care of her. Don't worry my love, it'll be okay."

I could hear her talking to me, but I wasn't listening. All I could think about was what if my mom died. The paramedics pulled into the driveway and came inside, but I couldn't bear to look at them. They shocked her chest and tried to get her to wake up, but in the end, they pronounced her dead on the scene. And I cried.

Emma cried with me, even though she didn't know my mom. She cried and held me while I cried. The paramedics took her to the morgue and left us there, me a heaping mess on the floor and Emma trying to keep me together.

We stayed like that for about half an hour until I heard her cell phone ringing. She answered it and it was her mom. She told them where we were and what had happened, and I started to sob as I heard it and for the first time understood it. She told her mom she had to go and started to rock me again.

No one had ever seen me like this, and I couldn't believe Emma was seeing me like this on out first day as a couple, but I didn't care. I had just lost the one thing that was keeping me together when I wasn't with Emma. And it hurt.

Emma's POV

I was sitting in Mr. Raditch's office for nearly an hour before I was called in. I could hear him saying a lot of stuff, but I wasn't really paying attention. I heard him telling me that even though I hadn't started the fight, I was still being suspended because I fought back. He told me he'd see me in two days and Jay was waiting for me outside, so I walked out to meet him.

He grabbed my hand and walked me to dad's classroom. I don't know if dad could look at me or not, because I couldn't look at him. You know when you feel lower than scum? That's how I feel right now. Dad was on the phone when we walked in, and I figured it was with mom. He told me I'd have to walk home, and I nodded, but then I heard Jay speak up, offering to take me. I was surprised that dad agreed to let him, but he did.

We walked to Jay's car in silence, and sat there for a minute until I finally spoke up.

"You know what? This feels good. I should have beat the shit out of Alex a long time ago."

We both laughed and Jay leaned in to kiss me. It felt really nice, and I was starting to feel better about this whole suspension shit. He pulled out of Degrassi, but didn't take off towards my house. I almost said something, but I cut myself off. I knew Jay had heard me though, because he spoke up to tell me we were going to check on his mom.

On the way to his house there was a protest against gay marriage and it made me sick. My uncle (dad's older brother) is gay. Marco is gay. There's nothing wrong with being gay. So I asked Jay to pull over.

I got out of the car and walked strait up to the podium. I felt like telling some people off for ignorance. So I was going to!

I threw the microphone back at the man and walked to Jay's car.

"Nice, Cause Girl. I happen to not care for it myself, but its their choices and if you feel one way I certainly won't fight it."

I smiled at him and kissed him. I missed being called cause girl. "Thanks Jay. I suppose I won't protect the candy bars at my house from you."

He kissed me and I felt really good about today, and us. We pulled into his driveway and he motioned me to follow him so I did. His house was deathly silent and I could hear him calling out for his mom. We walked into the living room and his mom was on the couch. I could see blood but I don't think he was it until he kissed her cheek.

He hollered for me to call the emergency number and I did. I walked out to get the address and when I came back in Jay was on the floor shaking. I sat down next to him and held him. As I pressed his head to my chest and rocked him back and forth I told him it would all be okay, I would take care of him and everything would be fine.

The paramedics came and tried to save her but pronounces her dead on scene. He started to cry and it made me feel so sad that I started to cry. Sure, I didn't know her, but she was still dead in front of me and my boyfriend was breaking down because of it.

We sat there for God knows how long until my phone rang. I got up and answered it.

-----cell phone convo----

Emma: Hello?

Caller: Em, its mom. Where are you?

Emma: Mom I'm at Jay's. We went to check on his mom and found out she committed suicide. (Jay breaks into sobs)

Spike: Oh honey I'm so sorry. What's the address, we'll come pick you up.

Emma: 4092 Cristian Blvd (made up, don't know if its real or not). But I have to go, Jay needs me.

Spike: Ok, be there soon!

---ends---

I leaned down and kissed Jay's forehead.

"Its okay Jay, I'm gonna make sure you're alright. I promise you I won't let you hurt anymore."

He grabbed me and pulled me down on his lap where he held me and cried like there was no tomorrow. I wasn't going to let him down, so I just held back and stayed quiet, letting him express whatever he felt like.

Hope you guys like it! Four whole pages in Microsoft word and this is on page five. I'll update after xmas probably, so have a happy non-denominational seasons greatings!!!!!!!!!!!!!