Dead Memory

Disclaimer; don't own Beyblade

Kai's POV

I hate this cold, it's never this cold in Japan like this, not that I've noticed anyhow, but hey, I'm used to it. Why on earth would Sergio want me to go here I don't know?

It's the cemetery, odd isn't it?

I mean, what on earth could I do here, and why on earth has he just left me here alone, in the middle of no where?

It's lonely here, quiet, peaceful, like a place of rest and peace...what on earth was I thinking on coming here I don't know?

My feet are walking, I don't even know which is south anymore or where I am, it's dark down here, there's a small part of the cemetery that's dark and gloomy, like it's been forgotten...like my mind.

There's a great big oak up ahead, its leaves are, well, how can I put this...frozen?

I sit down at its trunk, I don't believe I'm tired of walking here, my feet are 'sore' and my head is thumping.

I stand up, take a look around; nothing but gloom, sadness, grief and regret is seen.

At least these people are dead, they don't have a care in the world, I mean, when you're dead right? You're free from all sadness and this hatred the world carries?

Well, that's what my father sad once...my father.

He's gone, my mother, she's gone, my grandfather, he's gone, I'm alone...I'm the last of the Hiwatari's.

Voltaire's gone; he's lost in his own mind, lost in his own world, he's been taken to jail for good, all because of me, all because I wasn't the perfect grandson, like I was one, all because of me, after the tournament.

Flashback

I'm in warm chair with a burning fire at my feet; Voltaire's next to me, staring, and thinking.

He opens his mouth and say's, "You may leave if you wish it". I don't respond, I never do, his voice reminds me of my father, and I don't believe I still remember it.

"Kai, you may leave, you're free"

"No, I'll never be free"

"Why" he's confused

"Because you've left me to suffer, and you know what they say about family"

He chuckled, "What do they say Kai"

I pause, is it the right time to tell him, can I say it?

"They say...they say blood is thicker than water"

"And what does that mean"

I pause before saying, "family comes first no matter what"

His face darkened, I was taught that long ago, and still by this day, I will live by it.

"No! Your father hated me for what I did I know, but family is stronger together, but there is always a weakness in a family, and you know what Kai, Leon was that weakness".

I stand up, and head for the wooden door, "Where are you going!" he shouts.

I turn to him, the door half open, "You said I am free, well, I guess I must fly free" and leave.

End Flashback

I smell roses, why?

It's too miserable here, why do I smell roses.

I look around and see Sergio, he's at the far end, I walk towards him, the clouds bellow, the wind whistles, and it rains.

I stand behind him, he's crying, he's holding flowers, red and white roses, he doesn't know I'm there.

I look at the two graves he's staring at, and fall to my knees.

Bladebreakers

"Where should we start?" asked Kenny as the walked onto the streets of Moscow. "The abbey", said Ray in such a sure voice.

"Why", asked Tyson, "It seems the right place to look right, so let's go", said Ray, and they started off on their search.

"It's raining", complained Tyson as they walked towards the old abbey.

"Who cares, we need to find Kai", snapped Ray, Max watched as Tyson backed away from him.

Back with Kai

I stayed in that position for a few seconds when Sergio sees me, his eyes are red, not from the madness he's been through but from, from the sadness.

I look up at the graves, to see it reads, "A loving husband, father and friend, Leon Hiwatari", I couldn't read the date.

Next is my mothers grave, I fall to my knees the second time and look at them, I crawl closer, my fingers touch the stone, the icy stones.

Why did he make me come here, why did he make me see this, why.

I don't like it, I don't like this, even if I know their here in front of me I still wont like this at all.

My hearts hammering against my chest, my breathing obscure, and my body feels uncertain.

Why am I here, why did I came here, it is true then, I'm alone again, I'm always alone?.

The pain I felt, as I touch them, it's almost lost and cold, forgotten, I feel it, an emotion I've forgotten, I withdraw my hand fast as I remember what it is.

Love

An emotion that was never allowed to eat me apart, it dragged me to the bitter end, but Voltaire made sure it never came back, again.

That's how I felt for Lillian, love; I loved her as a friend, a sister, a person. She was my only friend and I deserted her, she never was with me when I took Black Dranzer, it was my imagination, I had, destroyed her before that.

I wish she was here, because I'm alone, I'm always alone.

Sergio's POV

I haven't been here since they were buried, the poor kid, he's shaking, he wants to cry, to let it free, to let it lose.

But can't, he can't because he's learnt crying show's weakness, it show's emotions. Why Voltaire, why did you do this, why?

I kneel down with him; put my arm around his body that looks so small. He doesn't even notice, and he falls even closer to the ground, his nose is touching the soil, he wants to cry so badly, he's hammering his fists against the ground.

I bring him against my body; the warmth is going through us both. The roses I bought are at my knees, I leave them for now.

I look down at Kai and say softly, "It's ok, I'm here now, I'm here", and he cries.

After ten minutes of recovery, he shakily stands up, I stand up with him.

End Sergio's POV Normal POV

The two stand like statues, when Kai looks up at Sergio's stone face and saw, "Thank you".

Sergio removes his arm as Kai picks up the roses, "Your mother favorite", Sergio say's smiling faintly.

Kai smells them and say's, "She always had them in my room, in her room, in their room, she smelled of roses".

Kai places them at their graves and say's to no one in particular, but more or less to himself, "I thought they were gone".

Sergio smiles again and said, "Yes, I did to till yesterday when I had a dream of them being buried.

Kai looks up at Sergio and say's, "when".

"When what?"

"When were they buried", his voice was like ice.

"A month after your third birthday"

Kai nodded and said, "That long, I missed them, I almost forgot them, and I thought I was alone".

Sergio wrapped his arms around Kai and embraced him, it took a while for Kai to realize what Sergio was doing and hugged him back.

The two parted and Sergio said in a determined voice, "You Kai Hiwatari will never be alone".

Bladebreakers

"We've searched every hotel in distance of the abbey, we've searched the abbey from head to toe and no Kai" said Ray.

Hilary sat on the bench in the park; she was tired, they were all tired, but none wanted to give up to quickly. Tyson, Max and Kenny were getting lunch from somewhere.

Ray sat next to her, waiting for a reply; none came, so he let it be.

Hilary looked up at his golden eyes and said, "I wish Tyson was here with the food I'm starved"

Ray nodded and sighed as he looked across the park they were in, it was beautiful peaceful.

Across the park he saw an old looking cemetery, its gate was half open and there seemed to be no one inside. (AN: I have no clue what Moscow looks like so just bear with me).

When he caught sight of it, a peck of blue hair, he blinked and it was gone.

He shook his head and Hilary looked at him, confused, and asked, "Why do you think Kai's like he is".

Ray stared at her said thoughtfully, "He's just Kai, he's had not much of a childhood and well, what can I say, Kai's Kai because he's never asked much of us".

Hil nodded and looked at her hands.

Ray stared back at the place were he saw the peck of blue hair but now saw two figures at the far end, quiet far from where they were sitting.

Hilary sees him staring and look's at what he had been gazing at for the past minutes, "Kai", she whispered.

Ray looks at her and say's, "Are you sure, it could be anyone". Hilary nodded and stood up, "Come on we better go see", but Ray stay's put and Hilary looks at him.

"No, if it is Kai, well we'll see, but when they come out, we'll go", Hilary plopped herself back on the bench and looked at Ray, who was so determined not to move.

Tyson, Max and Kenny

"I think Hil likes Kai", said Max as he took hold of some steaming food, "Na, Hilary like Kai, that's mad, she likes me", said Tyson.

"Please Tyson, don't start, look there they are, let's go before this gets any more icy", say's Kenny, picking up the pace.

Back to Kai, Kai's POV

I still don't believe, they were here all along, here, under my nose.

I don't want to go, don't make me leave them, I need them.

But Sergio makes me move, were going to the gate, I feel as if someone watching me, staring, gazing at me so intently.

I look around as we step out the gate and spot them, Hilary and Ray, there, looking straight at me.

No, I didn't want them to follow, why did they come, why don't they get it; I don't want their help or anyone else's for the fact.

Sergio looks at me, I must look shocked, he then say's to me in Russian, "Don't worry, they won't bite".

I've gotten used to the fact I can speak Russian, it's easy, I just need to know what I'm saying.

So I look up at him and say back in Russian, "I don't want them to speak to me".

He nods and say's, "You have to face them some time Kai, like you did today, you faced your parents graves, remember, your not alone".

Alone, I'm not alone, just lost.

The Others

Tyson, Max and Kenny stood at the back of bench, their food dropped onto the floor at what they saw.

Ray looked at Kai, he seemed different, and he walked with a different impression to him.

"It's him Ray, come on, let's go", said Hilary, Tyson, Max and Kenny waited for Ray to say something.

"Who's that with him", asked Tyson, they shrugged and Ray stood up and they started to walk.

Back to Kai Kai's POV

Oh no, their coming to me, I look at Sergio and say in Russian, "Can we go", Sergio looked at them and smiled.

"Just remember what I said Kai", and we run.

I can't run to fast, I've still got that dumb limp. Their running after us, Ray's in the lead, Hilary's calling me, what does she want!

And I trip, I lay on my back, Sergio helps me up, and their too close I can't face them.

"Kai, come back, we want to help", Tyson yells, that's a laugh, no one helps me!

Sergio looks down at my leg, I've torn my pants and I've got a bad graze, it's bleeding.

"Kai", he say's worried, I look at him and say hastily, "Let's just go", and we start again, I'm slower now, to slow to keep up.

Their a few paces behind me, Sergio's trying too slow down, there's a fork path up ahead.

I fall again, my graze is stinging, the air's cold.

He picks me up and I sit on his back, I'm tired, I need some sleep.

And he runs, but I'm slowing him down. Their far away we have time to catch our breath, he looks at me and say's, "You can't keep running, it doesn't solve everything", I smile at him and say, "That's what Tyson said to me, and I end up in hospital".

He laughs slightly and they're closer, he picks me up again, and starts to run again down the one route.

I see them stop, their panting, but as I look back, that look Ray gives me, the way he's looking, I hate it, and no I despise it.

Sergio stops and takes some breaths, I hope they don't come after us, but they do, this time Hilary in front, Ray is walking calmly, what's with him?

She's shouting at me, for waiting and for wanting to help me.

I don't want her help, I don't want any ones help, and I need to sleep.

The cold airs stinging my leg even more, please, I need to sleep.

Sergio looks at me and say's something but I don't hear him, I look at Ray. It looks like he's in a beybattle he's so determined to get to me, I can't bear it anymore then I can bear with Tyson's feeding habits.

I need some food, some water, some sleep. I ask Sergio where we are, but he doesn't answer, he watching them comes closer, I wish he would hurry up.

He finally looks at me and say's, "not far from the hotel, just hold on", and guess what happens, it pours rain cold stinging rain onto my leg!

My hair going onto my face, my clothes are soaked as it is, and my leg stings even more.

Sergio's looking around, we're at another fork path, I choose the one on our far left, and I'm on his back again.

But they won't stop; they just keep coming, even if it's raining they wont stop, so I won't either.

There's the road, I'm off his back, their not far behind, the streets wet and I'm frozen solid, I wish I had some food and a bed.

He's making me walk across, good; he's probably as tired I am. There's a gap between the cars, and I walk or limp across, only to be to slow for my own good.

I hear a scream, I don't know whether it's Sergio or me, then I hear a screech of brakes and I'm hit with a pain so terrible I can barely describe it.

Hilary's POV

Why wont he stop, I called him so many times, and my heart is banging my chest, the rains making my clothe stick.

There they are, at the road, Kai's crossing first, "KAI!"

Sergio's POV

I should have crossed with him, he's been knocked over, and he told me has once, what'll happen if he is again, what about his leg?

I hear the girl scream, she must be Hilary, she calls his name, I call to warn him, but it's too late, he screams and he's gone, he's hurtled off the truck, and into a window of a restaurant, the glass shattering his face, he's bleeding badly, there's a piece of glass near his heart, I run to him, he's rolled out into the rain.

I push through, and kneel, holding his head up, my tears become the rain.

I look at his leg with the limp, it looks shattered. "Hold on Kai, it'll be alright".

The guy who hit him comes up to us, and looks at him, "Oh god no", he whispers. And gets his cell out and phones an ambulance, but they wont be here for a few minutes, the kids come that were chasing him, their all crying, "Kai, please no", the Chinese boy whispers whispers.

The ambulance comes, they take him up with a stretcher, I glance at them and say, "you may come", and they get a ride with the guy who hit Kai to the hospital.

End Sergio's POV Normal POV ten minutes later at Hospital

Sergio sat in the waiting room, Kai was sent to the ER.

The other arrived just as Sergio sat down with a plastic cup of hot, sugarless coffee.

Tyson walked up to him and said, "How is he", Sergio didn't look up but said, "They haven't come to tell me", the driver came up to Sergio and said, "Can I do anything, my brakes failed".

Sergio looked at him and said, "No, it'll be fine, just like the last time", he didn't mean to be mean or to let it lose that Kai had been hit by a car before.

"Oh dear, are you sure, getting hit twice isn't that pleasant", Sergio stared at him and said quietly, "No it isn't, but he'll live, he's a tough kid".

And so, he left, Tyson looked at Sergio up and said to Sergio, "How do you know Kai", Sergio smiled and said, "It's a long story, my name is Sergio, and you are Tyson Granger".

"How did you know that", asked Kenny, Sergio looked at him, "Kenny? Kai has told me everything that has happened, who you are and all".

"Oh", they said together.

The doctor that was treating Kai came up to them; he smiled at the gang and spoke to Sergio in Russian.

"He's lost a lot of blood, and the wound in his chest it very fragile, their operating on him now to remove it, his legs are badly damaged, and his pulse is low, were are needing some donations of blood to help Kai, he's lost so much but we have a problem, Kai has a very rare blood type (AN: made up ok), and we were wondering of any of you had his blood type".

The doctor looks over at the children; Sergio nods and tells them only about the blood situation.

"What type is he", asked Kenny.

The doctor looked at him and then at Sergio saying back in Russian, "Type A". Sergio translated and they all looked at each other, when Ray stood up, "I'm type A", the doctor nodded and led Ray to the room to get some blood.

Operating Room Kai POV

I'm I dead at last?

Why's it so dark, my head hurt's so badly.

I hear voices, where are they coming from, what the?

I'm floating, in darkness, I see nothing but darkness, I'm standing up, I don't hurt, what's going on?

I hear a voice, two voices, no three, four, yes four, but where are they coming from?

I turn around so rapidly I could have sworn I heard one of them say my name, my name...what's my name?

Where am I?

Kai, that's my name, Kai, I remember them, the Bladebreakers, and they were running after me.

I turn around again, no, it can't be, I know that voice...Mother?

I'm dead, I'm dead, I'm in hell, I deserve to be here, alone, I'm always alone.

"No, Kai you are never alone"

Who said that?

She said it, She hates me now, because of what I am, and because I'm alone...does He hate me just as much?

I turn around; who's there I want to say, I can't, where am I?

He, my father, he's here too, he's with her, I want to be with them, "Mama", I squeak.

I feel like I'm falling, what's happening?

Who's that?

There's a boy, of three, he's crying, he's surrounded by light, he has a small toy in his hands, he looks like me, is that me?

He wont stop crying, I want to help, I walk towards him, he turns to face me, he's sobbing, he hasn't got the face marks, who is he?

I kneel down and see what he's got in his hands; it's an old train, wooden.

I look at it, it's broken in half, I look up at his face, such uncorrupted face lines, I stare at his eyes, amazing, no hate, nothing, not like mine.

He looks up at me and gives me the one half of the toy, he wipes his face with a sleeve, and I realize he's in pajamas, blue and white, white stripes.

He stand's up and so do I, he looks up at me and say's, "fix please", his voice is soft and as innocent as his face.

I take the other half and say to him in the softest voice I can have, "how", he has some tape in his hands now, I take it and work on fixing it.

I give it back to him and it's fixed, he smiles, so pure, I hear a voice now, so does he.

"Kai", he looks around and runs off, leaving me with the train in my hands.

A few seconds later I see him again, in a bigger scene, it looks like Christmas, I see a fire ablaze, a tree decorated too neatly, and presents at the bottom, all wrapped up in gleaming paper.

I see him come towards the tree, he's smiling, he's in different pajamas, with a navy blue gown on, and navy blue slippers.

He calls someone; I think he said, "Mama, Papa".

I see two people came in, mugs in their hands, their also smiling, there's a lady, "Mama", I whisper under my breath.

A man, "Papa", I whisper again.

I watch them as they have fun and laugh.

Then darkness, I hate this, that was me, I was that boy, I was that happy boy, I fall down, holding my head, "Go away" is ay to myself.

Then I see feet, shoes to be exact, I look up...Lillian.

She's smiling, she holds out a hand to me, she's about me age, an older version of herself.

She smaller then me, she come sup to my nose.

She touches my cheek, its cold.

I hugged her, I hold her tight, not letting go, she looks up at me, her beautiful eyes, so sad, "Kai, make me a promise", I nod and say, "anything, I'll do anything you want"

She looks deeper into my eyes, "let them in", I stare at her, "I cant, they don't know what's it's been like".

Lillian looks even deeper, searching for something, "do it for me, for your parents, for yourself"

She then say's, "It's not time", and she walks away, "Lillian", I cry out, but she doesn't listen and disappears.

I'm floating upwards, I see light, lots of stars, light, and I'm alive.

Then, I hear them, the Bladebreakers, all over, saying how good I was, how wonderful I can be if I just trusted them.

Ray

Once Ray blood was given to Kai, the doctor came back, saying he had made a huge change.

This gave hope to the gang, hoping and having faith that Kai will be ok, but Ray didn't seem to notice this feeling the others felt.

His mind was elsewhere, Kai had now got his blood running through his body, his blood.

He couldn't but think, 'did this bring them closer that he now had his blood inside him, or would he reject him once he found out?'

"Hey Ray, you did a great job", said Tyson happy as ever.

Ray just nodded, not noticing the odd looks he got from them.

Half an hour later

It was late; Kenny, Max and Tyson had fallen asleep next to Ray, Sergio and Hilary.

A different doctor came up to them, her hair tied in a bun, with a green 'hat' on to cover her hair and she wore the operating clothes, but her gloves off.

Sergio stood up; she smiled at the two children and said, "He's doing fine, but his legs aren't doing so well, his left one (the limp) stitching was extremely undone, and we've re done it, his other leg though is broken in five places.

His wound on his chest didn't do too much damage but it was very deep. On all, he has cuts from the glass and his one rib is broken on the left side".

Ray, Hilary and Sergio could now breath, they had only just noticed the had been holding their breath.

"Can we see him", asked Ray, who had his sleeve up with a square plaster on the inside of his elbow where the extracted the blood from.

The doctor shook and started to think, "He...um...needs to...um, um rest, yes...rest, his body...er is very...um, weak", she said, trying her words in English.

She did very well though, but her Russian accent didn't cover most words right.

Sergio nodded and looked over at the sleeping figures next to him, "Can they stay in his room".

For some reason the doctor nodded and led them to the room, Tyson, Kenny and Max being pushed in wheelchairs.

In the room, Kai's bed was covered by a curtain; only the dressing table was seen and partly the bed.

The room had a heart monitor to him, two drips', one with Ray's blood and one with a liquid.

The Bladebreakers got a pillow, blanket and chairs for them.

The doctor turned to Sergio and said in her mother language, "They are not allowed to turn the curtain over, if something goes wrong they call a nurse from one of the other rooms", Sergio translated and they understood (Ray and Hilary).

Sergio left soon after they were getting to sleep.

He walked across the roads, and towards the park, saw the shattered window, and skid mark and running blood from Kai.

He sniffed and walked towards the grave yard. His mind wondering from what he was to do now to how Kai was, he was also wondering what he was going to do when the others found out what he had down to Kai as a child.

Sergio smiled softly, when he had also started fighting them, they used the serum on him, but in fewer quantities.

He stopped; he was at their grave now, Leon, Sincerity Hiwatari.

The roses still lay there on the ground.

Sergio stood there, the rain leaving a small haze across the graves, across the ground.

When someone spoke, "Loving couples weren't they", Sergio spun around to face a stranger.

His face covered by a hood, but that voice, he couldn't pin point it.

The man snickered and said, "don't you know who I am?" Sergio didn't answer.

The man looked at him, and then at the knife covered by Sergio's coat, it shone from under its covering, "It's sad Kai wants nothing to do with his family, or his past".

Sergio couldn't find were he's heard that voice.

Sergio noticed him starring at the knife, so he swiped it out of its hiding place, the man smiled under his hood.

"Beautiful creation you've made there Sergio", Sergio held it out to the man.

"Bring him back and you may have saved someone's life", the man said, ignoring the threat.

"No, I will never bring Kai back; I made a promise to him"

"To who, Kai or his father, their so alike, are you sure you know who you were speaking to then"

"Yes, Kai, and I'll never destroy his life"

"Tsk, tsk, you never learn, what must we do to bring him back, Sergio, you may save a life"

"Who's, Kai?"

"No, Toni's"

Sergio's face whitened, "you still went on with the plan, after what happened?"

"Yes we did, and it was a great success, she should be Kai's age by now".

Sergio didn't believe a word of this, so to try and save Kai life, he twisted the knife for the blade to face him, took one glance at the man, and stabbed him, saying, "no one commands Sergio Yule", pushing the blade into his heart, blood swam onto the virgin snow.

His red blood mixing with the white sheet, the man stepped forward once Sergio was dead, he looked at Sergio's face and thrashed the knife out of him, seeing the blood drip off.

"Have it your way", and wiped it on the snow, tucked it away in his coat and walked off into a black car hidden in the darkness of the night, leaving a secret behind, a deadly secret.

Longest chappie ever! I should have writers block more often, it seems to make me write longer chaps...anyhow, review and tell me if this is getting interesting or not...OK! Oh another thing...I've got 80 reviews! 20 more and I'll have 100...I hope, you will review right? Because if you don't I'm not writing! Oh another thing, there will be some major Kai and Ray fluff, alright by you? And I'm thinking of changing my penname, any suggestions are welcome...here's what my sister came up with...StormHunter And there's one big thing, omega is coming!

Someone said they hope the story didn't turn into a KaiHil. What did I say before! But anyhow, Kai doesn't like Hilary, and I will change the parts of Ray and Hilary if you like, like I have done in this story. Not motioning names here.