Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho. You should know it already.

Warnings: Violence, language, shounen ai (m/m relationship), well OOC:ness, but it has a reason.

Little Myy: So here is the second chapter. I'm not quite happy with it, but if I read it more and start correcting more you'd never get to read this.

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Chapter 2: Hallucinations

The dark figure landed in the backyard of Kurama's house. Hiei hated using the front door, it was so visible. But the fox didn't want him to use windows either, so he used the back entrance.

The fire demon opened the door with a key Kurama had given to him. After all, he practically lived here.

Sometimes it felt like the kitsune used some kind of mind trick on him; Kurama always managed to talk Hiei over.He had even made the koorime to wear human clothes every time they were in public, which was pretty often.

The fire demon took off his shoes, yet another thing the redhead had insisted, and walked in and to the kitchen. ::The fox is probably still visiting his mother.::

Hiei opened the fridge in hunger, but all he found was empty shelves, except two cans of orange juice. He even looked through all the cupboards and found nothing but coffee. ::Hn, Kurama doesn't even drink that.:: The eatable things in the house were bread and two apples.

The kitchen wasn't the only thing that was unusual. There weren't any carpets on the floor, the answerer machine was almost full of unchecked messages and Kurama's table was filled with undone paperwork. It almost looked like Koenma's table years ago. There was first aid kit lying on their bed and next to it was a blood covered shirt.

Before Hiei leaved to search the green eyed beauty, the phone rang. He didn't answer, but he stayed and listened. It went to the answerer machine. "Hello, Minamino-san. It's Rika-san", a young woman's voice was heard on the phone. "I was just wondering if you are alright. I haven't seen you at work for awhile. But it sounds like you're not home right now. Hope you'll be alright and come back soon."

::If all the messages are like that, no wonder he doesn't listen to them.:: It took a moment that the fire demon actually realised that Kurama hadn't been at work.

The worry, that Hiei didn't fully admit, grew. He was leaving to search the redhead (trough the front door, which window was still broken) when he heard a car sounds. It was driven in the garage and a moment later the front door opened. Kurama came in and took his shoes of. He was wearing a black polo shirt and white trousers. The kitsune looked at Hiei, who was standing in the hallway. The green eyes widened.

"No, not again", he murmured and pushed his sleeve upwards uncovering his arm, which was full of still healing cut marks. ::I don't want to see it anymore::.

Hiei knew Kurama's wounds would be gone in couple of days and after that there wasn't even a scar left. So the oldest marks on his fox's arm couldn't be more than two days old.

The yoko reached his pocket and pulled out a stilt knife. Hiei watched in horror when the blade came out. Just before the cold steel could hurt the pale skin, he got his acts together. With a one, quick movement he grabbed the Kurama's wrist and took the knife from the trembling hand.

"What are you doing?!" the fire demon asked anger burning in his eyes.

"Hiei is it really you?" the redheaded beauty whispered.

Hiei let the other man's wrist go and looked in the emerald eyes. There wasn't the normal shine in those beautiful orbs. "Who else?"

The fox smiled in relief and for a moment it seemed like the shine was back. But then his expression changed again in a doubtful look. "You aren't going to leave me are you?"

"Why would I do that?" Hiei really didn't get where Kurama had got that from.

"Well, if you were tired of me or something. Just forget it", the kitsune smiled. "Can I have my knife back?"

"No, if you're going to cut yourself with it."

"Come on Hiei. I wouldn't do something that stupid..." Kurama said like nothing had happened. ::...right now.::

"Really?" the koorime asked raising an eyebrow.

"Fine, keep it", Kurama felt anger rising in him, but he shook it away and smiled Hiei sweetly. "Have you eaten already? I could make you something if you want." He started walking to the kitchens direction.

"There isn't anything to eat."

"Oh, right", the fox stopped and kept quiet for a moment. Then he continued. "We could always go somewhere to eat or order something."

Hiei was thinking about the options, when he realized what Kurama's intentions were. "Don't even try it, fox."

"Try what?" on the redhead's face was an innocent look.

"To change the subject!"

"I am not trying that!"

"Yes you are!"

The two of them had moved in the living room. Hiei pushed Kurama to the couch and sat himself on the coffee table in front of the green eyed beauty.

"Now you tell me, what the hell is wrong with you?" Hiei didn't have patience anymore.

"Nothing is wrong. I'm perfectly fine", Kurama said convincing, but he didn't quite look in the red eyes.

"No you aren't! You don't look or act like yourself! You don't even have your youki anymore! Your arm is full of cut marks and just now you were going to do one more, damn it! And you say you are alright!! I don't buy that crap!" This was probably the longest thing Hiei had ever spoken to anybody in one breath. But it was also the first time that the koorime was really angry with Kurama. "So start explaining!"

::Hiei sure do know me too well. Yusuke didn't notice anything, except my youki.::

"Noth..." the kitsune started, but the gaze in the red eyes made him change his mind. "I don't know."

"What do you mean, you don't know?!"

"I just keep seeing these things, hallucinations, nightmares. They just don't leave me alone", Kurama took a deep breath. He knew there wasn't any backing away now. "First they were just nightmares so I couldn't or I didn't want to sleep..."

The koorime got the answer, why there was so much coffee in the house.

"...but after that I started to see them even when I was awake. I can't tell what's really happening and what isn't. Well, I can sometimes recognize when I have the illusions, but it doesn't help much."

Hiei kept quiet so Kurama continued. "The only thing that can snap me out of them is pain. First it only needed a pinch or so, but now they come all the time and well, I think soon it needs even more than a cut to wake me up." He really wanted to forget the hallucinations. It was always as torturing. Even when he didn't see them, he remembered them.

After a long silence Hiei talked. "For how long?"

"Not quite a month", Kurama answered looking at his hands then he raised his head. He was trying to smile and it almost looked real. "It isn't so bad."

Hiei didn't say anything, but his eyes showed he didn't believe the last statement. The spiky haired man stood up and walked to the phone. While he had been 'living' in the Ningenkai he had learned how to use all kind of electrical things, like phone. He didn't like them, but he could use them if needed. And now was one of the times he was lucky to know how.

"What are you doing?" the fox asked from the sofa.

"I'm calling the others."

"No Hiei, I don't want them to get mixed in this thing."

"I think they do. And I want to get you back to normal."

That wasn't thing you heard from Hiei everyday. He normally didn't say anything that showed some kind of affection. But today he had said many things that made him look, like he really cared about Kurama. And he did.

The redhead was so deep in his thoughts he didn't pay attention to the conversation the fire demon was talking on the phone. He wasn't quite sure if this was only another cruel trick of his mind. So he took the pocket-knife that the koorime had accidentally left on the coffee table and made another cut on his left arm. ::The seventeenth cut within twenty-four hours. It's getting worse.::

"Why the heck did you do that for?" Hiei asked angrily and took the knife away, again.

"I just wanted to be sure." ::What a lame excuse. My brains sure seems like they don't work. I can't even lie or come up with some good excuses::.

The blood drops were making a small pool on the floor. The moved carpets just got a reason. Hiei left for a second and came back with the first aid kit and a towel. He dropped the cloth over the red pool and made a bandage on Kurama's arm. After that he removed the blood covered towel and disappeared again. After he got back, he helped the fox up and led him in the hallway.

"Where are we going?" the kitsune asked while putting his shoes on.

"To Yusuke's."

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Translations:

Kitsune = fox

Koorime = Ice maiden/ice demon in this case, meaning Hiei.

Yoko = fox demon or something

youki = demon's (spirit) energy

Ningenkai = Human World

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That's that. Please review. More pressure, quicker writing. I hope it was okay.

My school starts next week so let's see how quickly I can update, but I try my best to make it soon.

To BabbleQueen: Thanks for the review. I said in the first chapter that the guys (I meant Kuwabara and Yusuke) are something like 24, so it makes Kurama's human form 25 years old. I think.

To What2CallMyself: All your questions will have an answer. And well, most of them got some kind of answer in this one. I hope you'll have patience to read further smirk. Thanks.

To Wish He Was Mine: I hope I can keep your interest up. This was pretty revealing chapter. Thank you for the review.

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