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Thinking

Tyson switched the TV channels again, the weather wasn't getting any better soon and it looked like they were stuck in Moscow till it cleared up.

Tyson sighed as he saw a sports channel and flicked the TV off; there was nothing, absolutely nothing to do.

Max, Kenny and Hilary were out with Mr Granger getting some food, and Mr Dickinson was at the police station, he had gotten a call from them about Sergio or something, and he was stuck here, with Grumpy Guts (Kai) and Mr Confusing (Ray).

Nothing was the same, neither of them had spoken to each other or even the team, it was like they were in another dimension altogether.

Tyson looked around...silence was louder then you thought, it was an eerie silence that struck Tyson was very strange.

Tyson stood up, his head turned around the hotel room, a small kitchen, a hallway and two bathrooms, down the hallway was a row of rooms.

He had a scan of the rooms, no one in hearing distance; he sat back down on the ground and flicked through the channels again.

Ray POV

What happened?

What was going on in those eyes, that pain and suffering, it was like reading a book, but, once he said it, that Sergio helped punish Kai, it was like his eyes closed up again, shut.

And the distance between him and reality when he spoke about it, what was I looking for, what was I looking at?

It must have been, a child with no way of explaining how he feels, a boy who wants to live a normal life, a man who wants to grow up and die.

But when I embraced him, he had stiffened as if afraid of what I was to do next, what pain had made him like this, he is just a human kid, and what else do we want from him?

But when you look into his eyes, it's like looking at his soul, at his world.

I want to help him, but I don't know how...or why?

I want to know what happened, who he was, who he is, I want to know what it was like, so we can be at an equal.

I just wish he would let me inside his head, let me feel, touch, have what he felt, what he went through to be what he is.

Kai's POV

Why did I do it?

Why did I tell you?

Why do I trust you?

You all seem to care about me,. What I do, where I am, who I am, when I – Kai Hiwatari doesn't even know who he is.

I could never explain how it felt, how it feels, why I do the things I do, it's just to hard for me now, I cant and I will not tell you what they did, because you will still, never know what it was like – unless – you were there with me, to help me.

Toni, in Moscow

Toni's hands dig into her pockets; she was walking a steady pace in the abbey courtyard, she wasn't even meant to be there, no one was; with Biovolt working back at the abbey it's been like going back in time.

Her hair flew into her face, she hated Russia, she hated the snow, the winds the cold, she just hated the place, and there was nothing here for her, just dreadful memories a frightful life, not now not ever.

She may be a year or two younger then Kai but she looked his age which was around 14.

She heard her combat boots crunch the snow, she knew what Tala had said was true but almost a lie in her part.

A gust of icy wind hit her white face, she sneezed, 'oh great, now I'm getting sick!' it was true, she had a blocked nose, a headache and she was tired and ill.

Her black hair flew into her face, longer then her shoulders it was in the way, she turned a corner and dug her fingernails into her hands.

Tala was going to tell Boris and Boris would come after her and she'd have to go back and for punishment...she shuddered at the thought of the punishment.

Kai was lucky, he was free from all of this, free from the burden of Boris and Voltaire, she smiled at the thought of him being free, even if she never met him, she knew he was special to her, something secret about her existence lay within him.

She may be a few years younger then him, but she was still a good blader, just as good, especially since she had Drio.

She grinds her teeth at to what Tala had said, but, Tala was like her family, but that never helped her with her pain for a real family.

She dug her nails into her palm.

Flashback

"You do want to get Black Dranzer?"

Toni had heard all about Black Dranzer and the tournament, but, she wasn't there, she was in the abbey, away from it all.

"I'm not sure anymore, I know I'm strong, but, no one can control Black Dranzer, it's like it takes over you, like it did to Kai"

Toni understood, Tala had never felt feelings till after the Russian Tournament, but Toni didn't know what to feel for her friend, she didn't know what to do, what to say.

"I can" she whispered.

Tala looked up at her, trying not to lock eye contact.

"You, but how, you've already got Drio"

Toni nodded, "Boris said I could be just as strong as the both of you, Kai and you Tala, I am-"

But Tala cut her off, "No, you will never be what you think you are, you haven't even met him Toni, and you don't know what he was like, what he is like!", his voice rising from anger and frustration.

Toni was taken aback, this wasn't Tala she knew, the kind guy who helped her through Biovolt, this was anger talking to her, pure anger for Kai.

"You hate him", she said, in a matter-of-factly kind of voice.

Tala looked at her and said, his own voice rising in such hate, "He was always better then I, always, I always second best, you'll never understand how that feels Toni, because you're the best, just like KAI!!!!!!!!!!!!"

End Flashback

Just like Kai.

She would never be like Kai, never, she felt tears sting her eyes; she brushed them away with a sleeve of her jacket, and looked at where she had ended up.

Voltaire wasn't free yet, but he would be, the Demolition Boys were in the tournament, but that wasn't till about a month.

She took out a blade, purple; going darker red ran along its colour, a BitBeast, Drio, its blue icy colour mixed with Toni's passion for a family.

It flushed a bluish colour, she smiled ever so slightly, what wonders Drio was.

Drio, her Ice Phoenix.

Mr Dickinson, Moscow streets

Mr Dickinson struggled to digest the news he had received from Sergeant Hotly, he had told him of a body found in the cemetery.

The man they found was named Sergio Yule, and Mr Dickinson had sent a missing ad for Sergio, Mr Dickinson had been given photo's and reports of the body, injuries and such.

Mr Dickinson didn't realize how much this man looked so familiar to him, but he couldn't think of where he had seen him.

Mr Dickinson stopped at the room the boy's were staying in, he would have to tell Kai, it would be hard for him, and he seemed so connected with this man.

Mr D walked into the living room, seeing Tyson sprawled over the couch, he was snoring.

Stanley walked further into the room, and saw Ray's door open, he opened it slightly more and peaked in, to see Ray pacing the room.

'The poor kid', Mr Dickinson thought as he looked away and went to Kai's.

At Kai's door, Mr Dickinson took one deep breath, knocked on the door, there was no response and Mr Dickinson opened the door, entering to tell Kai the ghastly news...

With Tala

Tala stood there, he wasn't going to tell Boris of Toni running to the courtyards, he wasn't like that anymore, and he was different.

Tala couldn't understand why he was still trapped in so much hate for Kai.

He smirked; he knew the answer before he even asked of the matter.

Kai had always been the best it was known throughout the abbey, but it was also known that Tala had a thing for Lillian.

Lillian.

Tala's grin vanished at the thought of her beauty, she swept the heart of any boy in the abbey, but she chooses Kai as her companion.

Why he would never known.

Kai had everything now, friends, and family if that annoying oaf Tyson was to be called family, he had his own team, his memories, his past, but Kai would never really have his family.

His family was gone, except Toni.

Tala closed his eyes; if Kai called Toni family then pigs could and would fly.

Toni had grown up here, about two years younger then Kai, and completely different birth.

But Toni was just a backup plan, Plan B.

Tala loved Toni as his own sister, but never a lover, he couldn't, he loved Lillian, and he hated Kai for killing her, for his stubbornness.

A low growl was heard in Tala's throat.

Hate was a big word, but that was how he felt for Kai, he hated him, despised, loathed, detested his presence, yet they were to bring him back, but that was to get Black Dranzer.

Nothing more, just Black Dranzer

Tala opened his eyes, turned around swiftly and started to walk to the cells, he needed Time alone, he needed Time to think, what Tala really needed was Time itself.

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Let's see, I like Tala, I really like his BitBeast and his eyes, his eyes are so memorizing.

Ok, I see I left a cliffie, I didn't mean to but I'm getting tired.

Puppalupp2008: you hit the nail on the head, well, almost, slightly off, maybe a few inches, but you were close.

Hazel-Beka: Glad your back to land of the living dead, I mean the land of the Internet Fanfiction, anyhow, I put Kai in a the car accident to get his leg into bad shape for my own reason's.

KailoverLC: I'm glad, actually surprised for someone to luv this fic so much shrugs shoulders all well, I had to have at least one person like you, I'm glad your enjoying it.

RayKai(): I switch from Japan to Russia so you get a look at both sides of the story, I seem to be leaving though the one side at a stop most of the time.

Garnet Leonheart: there will be future paring with my OC and a Bladebreaker but no inner pairings like Tyson and Max or Kai and Ray