March 5

There's this boy, right? I'm not even sure where to start. We're friends… close friends in fact. He's a bit annoying sometimes and irresponsible. I'm sure that if he sorts out his priorities, he'd do really well in school. He does in fact have the ability to really excel but he just doesn't focus. He sort of spaces out a bit…

"I wonder who this boy is…"
March 6

I got an exceptionally good grade on my Transfiguration exam. But he didn't. I keep telling him to put some effort into it but he never takes me seriously. All I want him to do is take me seriously…

"Pity. I got a bad grade on that exam too…"
March 7

He just looks at me as if I'm a walking textbook! But I'm more than that, right? Everyone else may look at me as a living brain, but I want him to see me as a girl. Because that's what I am… oh, look; I've just stated the obvious. I'm beginning to get dumb…

"This boy she's talking about seems really dense… if I was him, I'd give her the attention she deserves…"
March 8

Yes, I am in fact beginning to get dumb. Just today when he was talking to me, I acted like a complete idiot. It is very, VERY unlike me. I'm acting like such a ditz; I can almost hurt myself for it. All he has to do is say something, and I'll start dropping things and I'll begin stuttering. I. Never. Stutter.

"What's wrong with stuttering?..."
March 10

Oh no. The worst has happened. I'm even too embarrassed to write it in here…

"Wonder what happened…"
March 12

Then I will have to ignore it. Yes, that would be the sensible thing to do. If I do something about it, then things will get awkward. Yes, that's right. It's very easy to cover it up.

"Ignore what?"
March 13

He suspects something. He asked me why I'm always flushed red and dropping things. So I told him that I was catching a cold.

"Come to think of it, just last week Hermione told me she has a cold. Looks like the flu is getting to everyone..."
March 15

I am doing a good job of covering it up. I can do this… I can do this… I will not crack. I will not break!

March 17

Damn it all. Here it is… I think I may like him…

March 18

… More than just a friend.

"What a lucky chap…"
"Ron!" Hermione rushed into the common room breathlessly. "Oh, look! You've found my diary! You didn't read it, did you?"

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