Chapter 3
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Author's Note: Comments and suggestions are appreciated. As with pretty much every author please read and review. You guys don't know how much I agonized over this chapter. It took me a week just to sit down and write it, I was so afraid of it. Then after that I saw Phantom of the Opera for the first time, and I was blown away! I almost wanted to sit down then and there and write a Phantom Fic, but I restrained myself. Then I had to revamp my other story. Well I was distracted that by the time I got back to this story I didn't even remember what I was writing.
And, Iyou guys are going to kick yourselves when you find out what the secret was. Because in all reality I'm not telling you anything new in this fic, but oh well! I hope you like it anyways. I would also like to say thank-you to those who have read and reviewed my story.
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FioreMaryssa- there is misunderstanding in this chapter, but no anger, sorry. I hope you like it anyways. Sorry it took so long to update, see author's notes for details.
FioreMaryssa- Sorry. No he doesn't have HIV. I'm telling you, you already know his secret. It has more to do with where he is taking her than what he feels about her. I meant this to be a one-shot fic, but it got kinda long, so I took it one scene at a time. I think I will have one or two more chapters and that's it.
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TropicalRemix- Everyone is so into his secret, (well duh rowen that's the point of this story) But I'm telling you guys that you already know pretty much all of it. You just have to put it together. See author's note for details.
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General note: '(insert words here)' are Usagi's thoughts. Oh and if you find any spelling, grammar, or problems with consistency please write me a review or email me. Thank you.
Usagi's POV
As I followed Mamoru out of the car I took a good look at my surroundings.
I had absolutely no idea where we were.
I got up the courage to look over at Mamoru. He was standing there. I couldn't quite place the look on him face. It was somewhere between fear and sadness.
It worried me.
"Come on Usagi, we have a lot of walking to do." He said, his voice wavering a little.
I looked back at the car. Somehow, something told me to bring the roses with me, and I was not one to question my feelings, they always seemed to be right. With that I took the roses, locked the car (which Mamoru had neglected to do), and ran to catch up with Mamoru (he was already a good distance away).
Mamoru's POV
I heard Usagi run to catch up with me.
I was ashamed. I had known about this for half a year now yet, I hadn't been able to bring myself to come here. What kind of a person was I?
"Mamo-chan! Slow down! I can't keep up with you if you walk that fast." She sounded out of breath.
Usagi!
I stopped. I could see it now. Our final destination. The place where everything I knew would most likely change.
Was I nervous? Yes I most definitely was.
"Mamo-chan? What's the big hurry? There isn't anyone here." She said. She had her hands on her knees, and she was breathing hard.
Oh my Usako. Thank Kami-sama that she is here with me. I couldn't do this alone.
I turned a pulled her into my arms.
She gasped. "Mamo-chan?"
"Yes Usako?" I murmured. I wish I could just hold onto this moment. I wish I could turn around and walk back to my car with Usagi and go home. But I couldn't. I don't think I would forgive myself if I didn't do this now. I took a deep breath and pulled Usagi a little further away from me.
She was still looking over my shoulder. "Please tell me we aren't going in there. I'm scared Mamoru!"
I looked at her seriously. I needed her! She couldn't leave me. Not now not when I was this close! " I know Usako I know, but I'm here, and I have to do this. I need you here with me. Please don't leave me now I can't do this alone!" I had tears in my eyes.
Usagi's POV
I had never seen Mamoru like this. He had always been the strong one. Now he wanted me to be his rock. I didn't know if I could, but I would try. I wouldn't leave him alone in his moment of need. Even if I was scare, I still had him, and he had me. I guess we would both have to be strong for each other.
I looked up at him. "Mamo-chan I would do anything for you, of course I won't leave you." I took his hand in mine and gripped it tightly.
Then both of us turned and walked slowly towards the gates.
I didn't know what business Mamoru had here, and didn't make sense as to why he wanted me here, but I would go to the ends of the earth for him, even if that meant entering a graveyard.
Mamoru's POV
I took a deep breath. This was it.
I had been waiting so long to do this.
I had spent the past two years looking for this place, and now here I was.
I led Usagi through the gravestones. I knew which ones I was looking for. I had studied the map of this graveyard for nearly six months.
Usagi clung to me tightly. I couldn't blame her. I knew she was afraid of graveyards, but I needed her.
I finally we reached our final destination.
Two gravestones that were vary plain. On one it said:
Chiba Akiko
1955-1983
Loving wife and mother
And on the other:
Chiba Fugita
1953-1983
Loving Father and husband
"Oh Mamo-chan." Usagi whispered behind me.
Usagi's POV
His parent's graves. He had found them. I wonder how long it had taken him. He never told me anything about looking. Although I did know that he was always looking for clues to his past, I had never seen the results.
Poor Mamoru.
But, why did he want me to be here? I didn't understand. Though, I did not dare to ask. Not yet.
I know if it were me I would want to be alone.
I watched as Mamoru knelt between the two graves. He took a deep breath.
"Oh Mamo-chan," I whispered again. I took a few steps back giving him some space. I know how much this meant to him. Family was always number one on Mamoru's list.
Finding them… wow … he's been waiting for this his whole life.
Suddenly everything fell away the graveyard, the fear, almost going over the cliff, Mamoru's odd behavior, and my overactive emotions.
All that mattered was that Mamoru had found his past.
I watched him with tears in my eyes. 'Oh my Mamo-chan, how you must feel right now.'
With his hands he traced the graves of his parents.
"I finally found you," He whispered, "it took me thirteen years, but I found you."
My heart went out to him. Oh how I wanted to run into his arms, but I held my emotions back. He needed me to be strong now, and I would do that.
For him.
"Hello mother, father it's me, your son Mamoru. I wish I could remember you." His voice wavered. "I wish you could tell me about my family, my life before the terrible accident that destroyed my life. I wish… I wish… Oh how I wish…" His voice slowly dimmed to silence.
He took a deep breath.
"It has been thirteen years to the day that you died. Since we drove over that cliff." He gave a small laugh. "You know I almost didn't come today. It took me two years to find your graves. I've known their location for six months now, but I just couldn't bring myself come." He laughed again, this time it was sarcastic in nature. "I help protect the world. I have faced the most evil creatures in the galaxy, I have even faced death, but to bring myself to come to my parents graves. I… I just couldn't do it."
He was crying now.
"Forgive me," he sobbed, "Please, mother, father, please forgive me."
Oh how I wanted to pull him into my arms and kiss away his tears, but I knew I shouldn't. He had more to say; I could sense it.
It took a few minutes for him to calm down and stop crying.
"If it wasn't for Usagi I don't think I would have had the courage to come here. Her courage facing Galaxia and her strength during the last few months… It is her courage that led me to be strong enough to come here." Tears were coming to his eyes again. He held out his arms. "So what do you think of your son now?" He hung his head, and then he raised it again. He took a deep breath. "You've missed so much of my life. I want to tell you everything that has happened to me…"
With that Mamoru did. He started at when he woke in the hospital, not remembering everything, to his dreams about the princess and being Tuxedo Kamen. He told them about our Senshi battles, about finding me.
About how much he loved me.
He told them about the Dark Kingdom, the Black Moon, Pharaoh 90, Helios, and finally the Galaxia.
I stood there watching him. It was as if he was slowly lifting a great burden from his chest.
When he told them about our past lives he said, "But! I don't want you to think that that means I am not your son. I am! I just don't want you to think that I stayed away because I learned I once had a family that didn't involve you."
He told them how much he debated coming. How afraid he was.
Finally his tirade slowly came to a stop.
There was silence for a good five minutes.
"I feel so much better. I'm glad I told you all of this. You don't know how long I have searched for my past. Always wishing to remember some part of my life with you. But nothing comes. I was so alone. For a while I blamed you, but it didn't last very long. I became so cold. I don't want to remember my life between the time I lost the two of you and the time I met my Usako. It was too dark, too lonely, too cold." He shivered. "Well," Mamoru began to get nervous again. "The real reason I came here was… was to tell you both that… that I … that I love you and… I miss you so much." He broke down again sobbing hiding his face in his hands.
I could no longer just stand and watch. I ran to Mamoru and threw my arms around him crying; the roses I was carrying fell to the ground where I had been standing. "Oh Mamo-chan," I whispered.
"Usako," he whispered back. Pulling me closer to him, and guiding my head to his shoulder with his hands. "I love you."
I don't know how long we stayed that way. After a few minutes my criessettledto hitched breathing.
Mamoru ran his hands through my hair. "Oh my Usako, I'm so sorry, I know I have been impossible lately."
"It's ok Mamo-chan, I understand."
Suddenly Mamoru took my shoulders firmly in his hands, pulling my away from his body to face him. "Please don't leave me Usagi!" he pleaded.
I was confused. Why would I leave him?
"Mamo-chan," I said softly, "I would never leave you. Why would you think that I would?"
"Usagi, I can't even face my past. How can I face my future?" he turned away from me.
I took his face in my hands. "Mamoru, nothing can stop my love for you. You are stronger than you think you are."
"But," He tried to say.
I placed my fingers over his lips. "Mamoru, I love you, and your parents love you. You are the strongest person I know. I never would have had the courage to do what you did. To go through what you went through. I would have died. Don't think for a moment that you are not strong enough, because you are. I know, because I rely on your strength to get through the battles."
"Oh Usagi, but don't you understand. If it weren't for you I… I would never be able to get up every morning. It is the knowledge that you are there that gets me through the day." He argued.
I smiled at him. "Guess we both need each other." I said resting my head on his shoulder again. But, Mamoru would have nothing of that, he took my face in his hands and kissed me passionately.
"I'm sorry I dragged you all the way out here, but I couldn't do it alone." He whispered.
"I know Mamo-chan, I know." I whispered back.
He kissed me again. "Come on Usagi let's go home." He said standing up and extending a hand to me.
I took it. As I stood I remembered the roses. "Wait!" I yelled.
I ran to where I had dropped them.
I picked them up and quickly divided them in half. I put one half on Mamoru's mother's grave, and the other half on his father's.
"There," I said walking back to Mamoru.
He smiled at me. "Oh Usako you are so sweet." He said pulling me closer to him.
With that Mamoru and I walked back to his car.
I made a mental note to thank Keyni when I next saw him.