Author: ishoot-yourun
Disclaimer: Everything, save my plot, it property of ABC and all the other obscure people who own the show "Lost".
Summary: Reality had not yet set in for anyone. It wasn't possible.. it wasn't probable.. had it actually happened? Set slightly AU after the rescue of the remaining survivors. Kate/Sawyer.Okay, not so "one shot" anymore but whatever.
Reviews:
Evermore: Despite all my praying and wishful thinking, my plane didn't crash, I didn't end up on an island, and I didn't get stranded with Dominic Monaghan. Sucks.
amberness: I originally was going to do a songfic.. but it didn't work out. I love the song though.
Katiiey: Yeah sort of, but I think mixing Sawyer and Kate is pretty intense anyways
and thank you thank you to Desert, Freckles, INMH, Shannon Michelle, Lotr3-Hp3, and Kekyl! :D
Author's Note: finally I get back to civilization and the free use of a computer! happy dance This was originally going to be one shot but since I only got halfway through, I'm going to have to do another chapter or no ones going to realize that I added on to number one. SO, without further ado, chapter 2. i added a bit of the song to chapter 1. go reread!
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Kate flinched at a soft grip on her shoulder.
"Woah, Chill!" Kate spun around to see Hurley's round, compassionate face.
"Sorry," Kate apologized crossing her arms.
"You seem tense, what's up?" He smiled.
"Nothing, I'm just having a bad day."
"Not having a good day, eh? But we're off the island! We're going home!" Kate shook her head.
"I know, I just, don't really know how I feel." Hurley paused.
"Does this, by any chance, have to do with Jack?"
"NO. Well, it has to do with someone. You know, you don't want to hear all my problems. I gotta go." Hurley grabbed her arm.
"Nope, you need to talk with someone and that's why I'm here. So, want to walk?" After a few silent moments, Kate nodded. "Can I guess who this person might be?" Before she could say no, he interposed. "Sawyer, perhaps?" She stared.
"You're really perceptive, Hurley. You would make a nice therapist." She nervously stated trying to shake the odd feeling she housed in her abdomen with the mention of Sawyer's name.
"Well now I know what I can do with myself." Hurley beamed. "Okay. So you have feelings for Sawyer?"
"Oh this isn't working! You're making this seem like a stupid high school crush!"
"Well? What's the difference? Love comes and goes but it's always the same. Love is always spelled L-O-V-E." He locked eyes with Kate. "You do have feelings for Sawyer."
"Uh huh." She nodded guiltily.
"And all this time I thought you hated him."
"That's just the thing!" Kate exploded as Hurley grinned, amused. "Ugh, I mean I did hate him. Or so I thought. And I was counting the days until I'd be free from his penetrating stare and taunting words.. just him. But, suddenly, I'm here. On this boat. And I'm going home and I'll never see him again if I chose not to. That should make me happy, right? But it doesn't! Because I found out he feels the same way, dammit!"
"Woah." Hurley froze. "When did this happen?"
"Earlier today." Kate sighed. "I accidentally heard him talking with Charlie."
"Wow. So, if you know he feels that way, then why are you upset?"
"BECAUSE HE'S SAWYER!" Hurley hushed her. "I can't just tell him that. He'd.. He'd like..:
"Yes? What would he do? Suck your blood?" Kate was lost for words as her companion grinned. "See? You're making mountains out of mole hills. This isn't a problem, it's a blessing!" Hurley waved his hands feeling more and more like a priest every second. Kate rolled her eyes. "Look. All I'm saying is it won't hurt to talk to him. If he feels the same way he's not going to kill you or anything! And he's not going to reject you either. You think it's going to be hard. Why?" Kate smiled.
"You know, you're right. Thanks." She hugged Hurley warmly and walked off unsure of everything.
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"To go or not to go." Kate paced her cabin. "That is the question." She had decided she was going to talk to Sawyer. The only problem was getting herself to go. Okay, I'll go up on the deck and see if he's there. And if not, I'll come back down. Yes, that sounded like a good plan. She had tried to make herself look her best – taking about the fiftieth shower that whole boat ride (she never really felt clean after the many days of filth on the island) and changed into a fresh pair of clothes, which she too had the privilege of washing earlier. Her hand brushed the handle of the door and she took a deep breath. Hurley was right, she was making mountains out of mole hills. It was almost funny how hard she was making this. With newfound courage she opened her door and waltzed out of the cabin.
It would have been fairly dark on the deck, had it not been adorned with millions of little lights illuminating the way for passers by. Kate leaned casually against the railing at the front of the ship, taking in the cool night air. By now she was seriously getting second thoughts. I can't do this. She repeated. I just can't. She quickly left the rail and hurried towards the door. She was just going to have to live her life without him. Yes, she would be forever wondering, but after all, she had no time for a relationship. This was the best way for her. She was always on the run and even though he was Sawyer, another would just get in the way. No sooner had she forced the porthole door open, she ran into someone.
"Sawyer?" She gasped, preparing herself for one of his taunts.
"Hi." He responded simply. His surprised face showed no sign of a smirk or a witty remark – just pure surprise. Kate opened her mouth to excuse herself when he asked to walk with her.
"Okay." Her mouth had responded at her mind's protest. Sawyer led her through the door back onto the deck. They walked a few feet bathing in the gold aurora of the lights. Tired of wondering and surprise, Kate spoke knowing it was now or never.
"I have a confession to make. Sawyer nodded.
"Me too." He nervously flashed his grin.
"Alright, you go first." Kate prompted.
"I," He began after a deep breath. "I want to apologize for acting the way I did on the island." Her eyebrows raised.
"Really?" Sawyer nodded.
"Yes. I acted like a total ass and want you to know that's not how I wanted to come off as." He laughed nervously and stopped walking now that they were at the front of the ship. "I'm sorry I made you hate me." Kate shook her head. "It was all an act to get your attention over Jack's. Yeah, I'm a jealous little boy." He looked down at his hands which nervously fidgeted. "And by some sliver of hope, you could see past that?" Kate smiled.
"You know, I really did hate you on the island. Once I got on the ship though, I felt as if I were leaving something behind, that I was missing something. I didn't really think of it until I heard you and Charlie talking."
"You heard that?" He exclaimed, eyes wide.
"Yeah. And let me tell you, I'm glad I did." She gently grasped his hands and slowly ran her thumb over his fingertips. "Remember when they tortured you for the inhalers? And the following.. events? I knew I felt something but I didn't accept it. Now I have. That mysterious thing I was missing? It was you. I knew I'd never see your teasing grin or heard your heavy southern voice. She pulled Sawyer in closer. "And I can't live without that." Sawyer grinned and kissed her softly. Suddenly they broke apart at the crash of a slamming door.
"Get off her!" A voice shouted. Sawyer turned and barely missed Jack's flying fist.
"Jack! Stop it!" Kate ordered.
"Who do you think you are? You're just going to keep on harassing her, aren't you?" Sawyer shook his head. "Well that's going to stop know." He raised his fist again at Sawyer who stood still not wanting to move or keep coming out above Jack. For once, his life seemed on track and that was more than enough. Getting beat up by the good doctor? Eh, he could take it. Now he didn't need to be better than him. He was happy. Before Jack's fist could collide with Sawyer, Kate grabbed it and twisted Jack around.
"STOP." She breathed standing between the two. She faced Jack. "He wasn't attacking me. The only one doing the attacking is you, and if the circumstances were any different, I'd welcome it. But the truth now is I love him. Jack, I love him." Jack stared, bewildered. "Yeah, ironic, isn't it." Jack's mouth opened and closed soundlessly like a fish, words escaping him entirely. He turned at slowly staggered towards the door, disappearing below.
"That will take him a while to get over." Sawyer grinned at Kate's smiling face.
"I'll go check on him later." Sawyer pulled Kate close.
"Now where were we?"
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A/N:yay that's the end, meaning, the end of the fic. No, i'm not writing anymore to this, sorry! This was considerably shorted than last chapter and I really should have just made it one. Oh well. Poor Jack, eh? He'll get over it and everything will work out great and Charlie will still be as hot as hell. Happy New Years!