Disclaimer: Since Digimon hasn't gone on sale I still don't own it. 'Luv Your Life' belongs to Silverchair, not me, because I can't write songs as well as Daniel Johns, but I love it, and I think it sorta works with this part of the story. So please don't sue! I'm broke! I need a job! =P
I would just like to thank everyone who has read & reviewed. Thanx for inspiring me to go on! =)
More torture is coming…
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Thrust the candle
To the dark of your disease
Burn the fishplate
Execute ill memories
Labyrinth of sympathy
In which I'm lost and can't leave
And too much truth
Overshadows the lime lies
And what lies beneath the clouds
Is an altered perception
And I'll pay for sanity
But sanity don't come cheap
You don't know the truth and I love your life
You don't know the truth and I love your life
Do do do do do do do do do do do do do
Do do do do do do do do do do do do do
Flinch against the fire
But this ain't winter
And I'm all by myself
The way I wanna be
Where I'm content to be to be all by myself
But frozen eyes are bound to melt
Do do do do do do do do do do do do do
You don't know the truth, and I luv your life…
I stir feebly, while the song continues to softly hum in my head. Sunlight streams through my eyelids. I moan softly as I open my eyes. I lift up my right hand to shield the sunlight. I shake the drowsiness away as the blue sky opens to me. I sigh lightly. What a beautiful day… I look to my left, and find Tai awake. My stomach drops. His face is so blank… so lifeless… so sad…
"Tai?" I ask delicately, unsure of whether he'll respond. His eyes flicker.
"Hi Kari," he responds, his voice emotionless. He looks at a bird perched on our balcony railing. A dreamy look flashes in his eyes.
"I wonder what it's like to sit on the railing…" Tai says, not taking his eyes of the bird. I open my mouth, but no sound comes out. The bird flies away. Tai turns to me, but I only continue to stare back, my mouth open for the whole world to see. Tai grabs the side railings, and attempts to stand up. I close my mouth, and help him up. His legs tremble as he walks over to the railing where the bird was perched. We lean on the barrier, and I look out upon the other buildings, and the people walking in the street below us. A warm breeze blows past me. I feel movement beside me, and I turn to Tai. He was sitting on the barrier, gently swaying back and forth, looking down at the ground.
"Tai!" I hiss, worry rushing through me. "Get down from there! You could fall!" Tai takes no notice. I grab his right arm in an attempt to pull him backwards, but he winces, before wrenching his arm out of my grip, and overbalancing. As he falls forward, I grab the back of his t-shirt and pull him back. Tai falls into me, and we fall to the ground. Tai lets out one small sob.
"Why didn't you let me fall?" he whispers fiercely, but fails to cover the quiver in his voice.
"What, and let you die?" I answer harshly.
"Yes."
There was a heavy silence.
"No, I won't let you die." I say, hugging him tighter.
"Why not?" Tai mumbles, almost sadly.
"Because you mean too much to me. You're my big brother. I can't let you just die like that, after all you've done for me."
"But can't you let me die, to show that you're grateful?"
I gasp with shock, before a new emotion takes over. I swing around, sit on his thighs, lift him by his shirt and slap him across the face. A tense silence fills the air. I release my grip on Tai's shirt, and he falls to the ground, gingerly holding his left cheek. I breathe heavily as Tai stares at me, stunned.
"I will never let you die," I whisper fiercely. Tai's eyes begin to water. I sit there, fuming, before a familiar sound breaks the silence between Tai and myself. I look up, and find Sora and Joe running towards us- shock obvious on their faces. Sora drops next to me.
"What happened?" she asks, worried.
"Nothing," I answer, my anger ebbing away. Tai continues to stare at me, disbelievingly.
"Oh, snap out of it Taichi," I snap, my anger rising again. Sora stares at me, eyes wide.
"Are you sure you're ok?" she asks again, brushing my fringe out of my eyes. I shoot Tai a warning glare before turning back to Sora.
"Just a little tired, I guess," I answer wearily. All of yesterday and today's events hang heavy on my shoulders.
"C'mon," Sora says, helping me stand up, "let's get you inside. I'll cook both of you some breakfast." My legs tremble as I straighten up, so Sora picks me up and carries me inside. I look back to Joe helping Tai up, and Tai stares at me, a tear sliding down his cheek. He blinks, and gives me a look of confusion and sorrow. I feel so sorry for him. I pull myself off Sora and run to him. Joe lets go of Tai as I throw my arms around him- the force knocking us into the balcony wall. I hug him tightly. He tenderly wraps his arms around me.
"Oh Tai," I sob. "I'm sorry. I… I…"
"It's ok," he reassures. "I needed that. I should thank you."
"Oh Tai…"
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Next chapter: on it's way to a computer near you very soon!!! =)