Taking it from the cliffhanger!

But guess who was already there.

'I don't intend to walk through those doors.' I said waving my hands in front of me.

'You'll have to face him sometime.' Lily said pushing me onto the door step.

'Well today is not sometime.' I said stubbornly, walking through the door.

'Lily, Hope, here!' James said rising from the table.

Lily walked over to the table and I stayed by the door, grabbing a table by the window.

'Hope?'

'Sorry I am not here at the moment, and won't be for some time.' I said.

'Don't be stupid, come on over here.'

I walked up to them, slowed down then walked past them to the counter.

'Can I get a firewhisky?'

'ID?'

'Since when?'

'Good Girl, here you go.'

I walked back with the alcoholic drink, and sat at the window table again.

I would normally be scalded for drinking such thing, but since I was annoyed, it didn't make an entire difference.

I drew the last contents from the bottom and stood. I had brain freeze from the drink being so cold, obviously.

'Wait up.'

I ignored them.

'Aren't you a bit young to start drinking?'

'Aren't you a bit young to be an asshole?'

'That's not nice.'

'There's a fine line between pleasure and pain.' I said treading up the grass toward the shrieking shack.

'Just listen to me would you.'

I spun around to meet Remus face to face.

'What is wrong with you?'

'Nothing.'

'There is now tell me.'

'Do you ever know how it feels to get your heart broken?'

'Everyday.'

'Remus I am being serious.'

'And so is he.'

'Then why in the hell did he just reject me?!'

'That is something I do not understand.'

'Is there something wrong with me?' I said.

'No. Not at all.'

'Then kiss me.'

'What?'

'Kiss me Remus Lupin.'

'You can't be serious?!' He said in utter shock.

'Oh I don't know what to think..'

'Some day you will realise that what ever Sirius may do, he does like you.'

'Then why must he scoot around me?'

'For some unknown reason he does not know how to react.'

I leant forward and wrapped my arms around him. I rested my head on his chest.

'If he didn't treat me like this, I wouldn't be confused. He's making me have feelings for anyone I can latch onto. Another way for him to accuse me of something!'

'Maybe we should stay away from each other for a bit then.'

'Why?!'

'Well just being with you would make you more confused.'

'You're scared I will fall for you aren't you?'

He didn't answer, he just looked away, watching the Marauders and Lily walk towards us.

'Thought so.'

'Look it's not like I really have much of a choice.'

'You will always have a choice.'

'Well this is a choice I agree with..' He said straight forward.

'So you are chucking in our friendship, because of my appalling love life?'

'Stay back!' I yelled to the Marauders. 'I might just develop feelings for you!' I said storming away from Remus and through the middle of the Marauders.

'Shut your face.'

I spun around.

'What did you say?' I said staring Sirius in the eyes.

'Shut. Your. Face.' He repeated.

'I advise the same to you.' I said through gritted teeth.

'Did you not hear me?' He said.

'Oh I heard you. Loud and Clear.' I said.

'Then do it.' He said harshly.

'No. Why would I listen to you?'

'Simple fact you are addicted to me.'

'How dare you Sirius Black! You conceited git!'

'Conceited? You are queen of that role.'

'Conceited means you think highly of yourself, now when have I ever?'

'I love you.'

'Love is a word commonly used in vain.'

'See, you always pushed me away.'

'You were the one who pushed ME away!'

'Whatever.'

'Yes, Whatever. So what, I've lost friends,' I glared a Remus. 'And I lost you. What else?'

'You never lost me.' Remus said.

'Friends don't just, give up.'

'And friends don't accuse each other.'

I sighed.

'Blame it all on me, I understand.'

'Ok, the blame is on you.'

'You know what Sirius, go fuck yourself, I have had enough of your smart arse comments. I was falling for you, but being a jerk turned me off. Being a jerk off is no turn on.' I said bitterly, walking away.

'Slut.'

'Funny that isn't it? Being a virgin and all.'

'Well I wouldn't call you that if you didn't act like it.'

'Well I call you a dickhead, but I suppose it's in the same league, not having a dick and all.' I said not turning back.

All I was thinking about was how everything is going so badly. I mean I fall for someone, they reject me, my friend pushes me away.. What next?

'Hi Hope.'

'Hi Matt.'

'Uh, I have a problem...'

'What's that?'

'I can't take you to the ball.. I'm so sorry.'

'It's Ok, I understand, I mean everything else in my life has gone to the shit hole.'

'What?'

'Nah don't worry about it.'

'Ok..'

I slowly walked along the path back to Hogwarts. This was seriously sucky. No one to come to the ball with. Yay, There is no point going now is there. I would just go by myself but that's odd. I rubbed my forehead walking back home. I just feel so stupid.

Breathing deeply, my hard rate ecstatic. My nose running and my eyes red and sore.

I walked through the courtyard at Hogwarts and up to my room. I slumped on my bed and took off my shoes. Taking a shower and changing into some sport trackies and a hoodie. Do you get your greatest ideas in the shower? I do, no such luck today, but it hides the pain, the water does. The tears aren't shown.

Walking out towards the lake to the little wooden bench under the willow, I looked out upon the water and far along to the trees and banks of the river at least 200 metres away.