I awoke on the bench early that morning, sick to my stomach, like I was gonna throw up. It was a horrible feeling. I picked myself up off the bench and walked to the girls toilets. I was weak from hunger and I was tired. I just felt generally sick. I didn't want to go back to Gryffindor tower under any circumstance. I had this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach but I didn't want to dwell on the feeling, I had a knack of thinking too much and actually making myself sick, something I just don't like doing.

I splashed cold water onto face. I was so hungry, but obviously I couldn't go back to the tower, there was one other place I could go. It was off bounds but the elves liked my company in the kitchen, and they had a fire and I could eat as much as I wanted.

Walking along the corridor and down some flights of stairs. I tickled the pear and the door opened. The elves swarmed around me and I patted them on the head. I got some toast with marmalade, a hot chocolate and some fruit and sat by the fire.

'Does Miss want something else?' The Elf asked.

'I'm right thank you.' I said.

The little elf wandered off to prepare more food, as slowly the dishes disappeared to the great hall. My chance to get some fresh clothes and a rug.

I crept slowly around each corner to the Gryffindor tower, slowly inside and upstairs. I grabbed my belongings and stepped quickly down each step.

'Hope?'

I turned. I was sprung. Just Great..

'What are you doing?' Remus said coming off the boy's flight of stairs.

'Leaving.'

'You haven't showered since yesterday.. Lily said you weren't in your bed last night.'

'Like she would care.'

'She thinks you spread harsh things about her..'

'Oh I can guess who did, cause I didn't..'

'Just stay here, they'll be back from breakfast.'

'I am staying away from everyone. They treat me like shit, like I'm filth, like I am rubbish, Remus!' I said getting emotional and looking away.

He was speechless.

'I may as well look like it.' I said quietly going towards the door and opening it.

'Don't go..' He said.

'Goodbye, Remus.' I said before closing the door behind and breaking down. I have been doing that a lot lately. I walked to the girls bathroom, my things in my hand, and I went to the shower block. I looked at my long dark hair in the mirror. Steadily I raised my hands with a pair of scissors in my grip and cut it to shoulder length, my hair falling gracefully to the ground. I looked back at myself. I got undressed and stepped into the shower, washing my hair and body. I dried myself off and dressed in clothes, and a big robe over top. I needed something drastic to cover my identity. I reached for my makeup bag and grabbed my black eyeliner. I put a line on my top lids. Steadily, I put on mascara. I tied my hair up in a ponytail and looked at myself. It wasn't completely drastic, but I looked different, and I couldn't do anything else right now.

I walked along the corridor, I desperately needed a place to rest. A wooden door with a brass handle began to appear. I had never seen this door before, so I dragged myself inside of it, to find a nice bed, set up and some space to put my stuff. I would hide out here, and go to the kitchen for food. I shoved a door under the handle to stop people coming in and I rest on my bed. It was so peaceful.

I took out my journal and read the notes from everyone. Words like 'best bud' and 'lots of love' made me so sad. I still don't understand why these people are like this to me.

I touched the necklace around my neck. I bet even Severus is on some mental hatred spree against me.. Everyone is..

I got up and walked outside. I made it so the door was invisible using my wand, and I walked along the corridor. I needed some supplies of food for my room. I crept to the kitchen and tickled the pear. I entered.

'Ah, Miss, how can Crinkle serve you?' A larger elf said, bowing.

'Can I have some lunch food, in a hamper, if it's not too much trouble?'

'A picnic, Miss?'

'No, unfortunately.'

'Very Well.' The elf said bringing the hamper of food and handing it to me.

'Thank you.'

'Anytime, miss.'

I walked out along the path and up the stairs. I found the room of requirement again and placed my hamper inside. I needed one more thing. My gifts. I want them back.

I flung my invisibility cloak over my head and walked towards Gryffindor tower. I waited till someone opened the door and I rushed in behind them. Up the stairs I crept and got my bracelets Lily had placed on the bedside table. The rings must be in the boys dorm.

Carefully creeping down our stairs and up the boys, I darted against the wall as some boys flew down the rails. I opened the door slightly like a gust of wind or like a practical joke. They were in there. This was going to be tricky. I reached and grabbed my ring from on Remus's shelf. Remus was wearing his.

I slid under the bed and waited till he stood up, which was when I grabbed the ring. I hid it under the cloak and laid still so when he tried to find the ring, he could not see me.

'I saw Hope today..'

'Where did she stay last night?' James said biting into an apple.

'Don't know, but she wasn't exactly clean. She took all her belongings.. I think she went home..'

'What?!' The three chimed in after Remus's announcement.

'I told her not to go.. She just said goodbye and left. People have seen her walking around and a few seventh years said they saw her outside on the bench, laying down last night. A few say she stayed there all night.'

'She would have frozen!' James said.

'She doesn't want to come any where near us.'

'It's coz of me. I've been a jerk.' Sirius grunted, snapping the bracelet together. I got outside of the room and hid the rings in my pockets and the cloak under my jumper.

I knocked on the door.

'Yeah?' They said.

I entered.

'Hope, is that you?'

'Just returning this.' I said throwing the invisibility cloak to James.

I turned to walk away.

'Wait, where are you going?' Sirius said standing and grabbing my wrist.

'Where I want.' I said finally.

He snapped the bracelet onto my wrist. I threw my chin towards the ground, as he released my arm. I continued to walk. Remus ran up behind me.

'Remus, just leave me alone, everyone will be better off, just go.' The rest of the boys where at the door watching.

'No. You have to stop this now.'

'Just leave me. I will go far far away.'

'You can't hide from it forever.'

'but I can try.'

'Stop being so stupid, Hope!'

'Remus, my life is so fucked up right now!' I said harshly, starting to cry.

'My own best friend thinks I started a rumour about her which I didn't, Sirius treated me like scum, Peter followed the cruel taunts, James believed I started the rumour... and you. You never ONCE believed I didn't. You never ONCE defended me..' I said breaking down in sobs.

He place an arm around me and gave me a hug. I stood there and pushed away, looking at each individual Marauder for a while each, and stared at Remus, before turning and walking away, my robes fluttering behind me.