(A/N: Hey Guys xD, Sorry bout last chapter, I was suffering from a migraine so I could have made it all muddled or what, but I'll try to explain it in this chapter. It was a dream the first half, and then after that she couldn't believe what happened in her dream – and it's confusing to her aswell. But she DOES meet Lucius in this chapter.. Just review or e-mail me at embrace fab.as (obviously together lol) and ask me about stuff, I am happy to tell you!)

'What are you doing all by yourself?'

'Sod off Lucius.' I said calmly, place my shoulder strap over my shoulder and standing.

'Don't walk away from me.' Lucius said harshly.

'I can do what I like Lucius Malfoy.'

'Well you best not, if you want me to keep your identity a secret.'

'My what?'

'Yes, Hope, surely you don't think you are fooling everyone? There a much more powerful people who know better.'

'And you being one of them?!' I scoffed.

'I don't like your attitude.'

'I don't like your lies.' I said.

'Hope, you can't seriously think I won't tell anyone. Imagine what would happen if people knew. How about you do something for me.'

I looked at him repelled.

'No way Malfoy, and I going there with you.'

'You would like it there.'

'Who says I would?'

'The Dark Lord will treat you well.'

'That's your little pet name for it is it?'

'God no, you stupid girl, Lord Voldemort.'

'Voldemort? How.. original..'

'Laugh now, some day your day will come, most likely from betrayal.'

'No one would ever betray me, like that.'

'Wishful thinking, people close to your could easily be waiting for their revenge.'

'You are the stupid one Malfoy. No one will go over to him, least of all the people I trust.'

'But, I thought that you weren't friends with them. Perhaps they'd like an offer from the Dark Lord.'

'Lucius Malfoy, if you go near any of them, I swear I will kill you!'

'Empty threats.'

'I've had enough of this talk.' I said departing with my bag.

'Someday, you will find out the ultimate betrayal.' He said chillingly.

'I think it would be you, Lucius Malfoy.'

'Whatever, just foreshadowing..' He said leaving into the great hall.

Stupid git, I thought. I mean, how could he know what's in the future? He's not Trelawney. As If she could predict anyway.

The Marauders were uneasy, looking at me the whole time to Care of Magical Creatures.

'Who are you anyway?' Remus began.

'I thought I told you? SRC.'

'No, you're real name.'

'Like that matters.'

'It does! And how do you know Hope?'

'Everyone does.'

'No they don't.'

'Look why do you care, Remus?'

'How do you know my name?'

'Shit.. Lucky guess!' I said all surprised but he gave me a disbelieving look.

'Who are you?' He said in a firm voice.

'Promise to keep a secret?' I said.

'I promise.'

'Ok then.' I said walking down the hill away from Remus.

'Wait a second!' He said running after me.

He grabbed my arm, scratching me with his nails.

'Oww! That bloody hurt, Remus Lupin.'

'Sorry..'

'Is it nearly that time, I mean your nails growing longer?'

'Wh-what time?' He said startled making sure no one could over hear.

'Full Moon.' I said quickly, realising, this is when he would know..

'But.. How do you know, only a few people know.. Lily and Ho-'

I swallowed hard and looked down diverting my eyes. An obvious give away.

'H-Hope?' He said looking at me confused.

I raised my eyebrows and pursed my lips.

'I – I don't get this..' He said breathing funny, his mouth ajar and his brows furrowed.

I bit my lip.

'But what you said before, about you wanting to kill Hope, you wanted her to die… I mean..' He said looking me over.

'Don't tell anyone, Remus, I mean it.' I said scratching my arm lifting my arm of my robes slightly.

Remus was watching my every move.

'Let me see your wrist.'

'Uh.. Why..' I said pulling the sleeve back over my wrist.

'Hope. Let me see them.'

'No. I said.' I repeated to him.

He grabbed my wrist and exposed my flesh. Deep cuts existed along them.

'Hope, what the hell have you done.'

'I, um, fell.' I said sheepishly.

'Don't be daft.' He said looking at me with confusion and disgust.

'I swear I did..' I said.. I mean I did in a way. I tripped with the knife, which I was going to cut myself with but you know, I wasn't going to do it..

'Hope, you've been cutting yourself.'

'I was going to, but I couldn't do it! But I tripped..'

Remus looked at me, deciding whether or not I was telling the truth.

'Remus, believe me.' I looked into his blue eyes.

He shook his head. He raised his palm and pushed the back of my head towards him. I wrapped my arms around him and nuzzled into his robes. He rubbed the back of my head as tears slowly trickled down my face and into his robes.

'It's ok..' He said.

'It's not though… It's bad, it's really bad.. For me to go to such lengths as this… Do you know how disgusted and alone I feel. I am ashamed at myself, that I could hurt myself! But the pain sort of goes away! For a little while!'

'There should never be an excuse to hurt yourself.'

'You know what has happened, Remus!'

'And I haven't told anyone.' He said calmly.

'I want to stop cutting, I do.. I've tried! I just.. I just can't..'

'There is no such thing as can't.. Maybe it's about time you seek help.. about cutting about the grieving.'

'Why did it have to happen?! Why..'

'I have no idea, Hope..'

'If only.. We were there with him.. before it happened and with what Sirius said.. It just sent me over the edge.. Why.. why did he have to be taken like that?!' I said erupting in another burst of painful sobs.

'You aren't to blame!' He said gripping me by my shoulders.

'But I was meant to be home with him! You know all the warning Dumbledore told us! I was meant to be there to help him!'

'Hope, listen to me! Todd wouldn't have been saved if you were there, you would have died too!'

'Don't you see I wish that?!'

Remus looked at me with a stunned expression.

'Never wish that.' He said firmly, wiping a tear from the corner of my eye with his index finger.

'Never wish that.' He repeated.

'It's just..' I said through fits of sobs, 'I miss him so much!'

'Nothing can bring him back.. Focus on the happy times!' Remus said with a slight smile.

'Don't you see it's the happy times that make me so sad, because I can never have any more! All the times that I wish I never told him to leave me alone..'

'You never knew this would happen, Hope! It is not you fault!' Remus said.

'We knew about it somehow.. All the changes.. What Lucius said to me today.. Voldemort is growing stronger.. and if he isn't stopped.. many more people will die.. just like Todd.. Remus, I can see his face.. I still can! His wide open eyes and stony face.. His shocked but vacant expression on his face! Sprawled on the carpet.. No one was with him.. that's what hurts the most.. I never told him I loved him!'

'He knew it in his heart.. He knows it.'

'I just hope he did..' I said regretfully.

'He knows you did and always will love him, you are his little sister.'