Author: :grins: I had to touch it up a tad, :smiles knowingly: which means I only had two pages finished. I hope u guys get a better understanding of Gohan's reasoning, 'cus I know there were questions. Enjoy!

This chap is dedicated to Elenek and Ore No Kagami. Thanks for reviewing so quickly guys!

Elenek: I think a lot of people r going to question that part, but it was all planned out when I first started, so there will be reason behind my madness! :grins: Mebe.

Ore No Kagami: :grins: Another, very cool review, I'll miss u the most. :grins: Don't worry, I'll answer your questions in this hopefully. :whispers: And I'm not sure on a sequel yet, I have some stuff but I need to get the inspiration to write more, so don't get yur hopes up.

I watched as my father was killed by Cell, I was still young then, innocent. But it was only when he died before my eyes that I finally snapped.

Mirai.

He was everything I wanted to be, everything I wanted. Trunks was perfect in every sense and he knew it.

I don't know when my feelings for him went past that of friendship but they did and I soon found myself falling for him.

Could it be love? My childish mind seemed to think so, maybe that's why it finally happened. Maybe that's the reason I allowed him to take my body, my innocence.

Or it could have been the shadow taking over my thoughts. I had changed the day I killed Cell. Something dark had been awakened inside of me, something dangerous that would soon take over my entire being.

At first it was only a cryptic voice inside my head, trying to push me toward bad deeds. But I soon found myself wanting more and more of the darkness, I felt powerful when I listened to it.

The first time I knew something was seriously wrong was when that same evilness took over my body. I don't know how to describe this being holding me captive, all I know is darkness. But I knew it was evil at that moment.

There were times when my movements would be taken over and I would be forced to watch as sinful things were done to my body, my own hands touching me in places which were forbidden.

I suppose Mirai noticed my strange behavior also, he seemed to be curious about the shadow. We grew closer because of it and I was able to ignore the evilness creeping into my soul, only because Mirai was there with me.

But in the end it was not me that he was interested in, it was the darkness.

I remember so clearly the day Mirai was meant to leave our timeline and return to his own. I remember crying for him, I didn't want him to leave me.

Then he came, that ever present shadow in my mind that enjoyed torturing me with his mere presence. I don't know when the evilness took form but the picture was so clear in my mind at that moment, and I thought of my sickness as a separate being, a separate voice.

I felt him take over my body, only able to watch as he glared at my friends and family. He felt no emotions, he hated everything that made him weak. In short, he hated Mirai.

But Trunks loved him, I could tell the moment his face lit up and he turned away from his time machine to come toward us. He wanted me to follow him into the woods and we followed, curious as to what he wanted. No one questioned our motives, long had they known of my feelings for the youth from the future. What they didn't know of was the murderous loathing from within me.

The forest was calm and for a moment I believed we were only to have a civil conversation between us. Then Mirai kissed us, I know it wasn't meant for me but I still enjoyed the feeling of his lips against my own. The shadow was less then pleased though and forced himself away from Trunks.

It becomes hazy after that, I know they talked for a few moments but then I found myself in absolute bliss when Mirai touched me with his mouth.

I was scared though, I had never experienced sex, I had never wanted to. Only for a moment were the shadow's defenses lowered, but I took advantage of his state of need, I was able to call out.

They were both surprised by the interruption but I wasn't finished. With all my energy I was able to take over my body. I was surprised though when I found Mirai hovering over me, for my vision hadn't been my own during the sinful act.

He knew immediately that I wasn't his dark lover and tried to reassure me that everything was alright. It hurt, knowing that he didn't want me, but that thing.

He grew furious with me, the being within my innocent mind. The shadow yelled at me and I felt myself being thrown against a tree in his rage. I hated how he could control my every move, how he could force me to bestow pain upon my own flesh. I lost consciousness after that.

When I came to my senses I found myself in a cave, Trunks was standing before the entrance and we were on the cold stone.

What happened? I demanded from the shadow.

He doesn't want me, us. Was the whisper in my mind.

I was surprised by the amount of hurt the voice held. The darkness had always been so cold, so inhuman. But me, being the forgiving Son that I was, didn't like to see others in pain. I think that's why we did what we did next.

Kill him. I murmured.

He didn't deserve to live if he didn't want us. The pain below my waist was evidence enough that he had used me, us. He took advantage of my body and I knew that such an act was only meant for the one who was supposed to love you in return.

I think the shadow was surprised by my words but he was already evil and lusted for Mirai's blood.

That was the first of many murders I would be forced to witness. I think it was then that he, along with myself, became obsessed with Trunks. No one found out that we had killed Mirai, it was kept a secret.

I hesitate to punish myself for that bloody act. The power I felt was so consuming, I controlled death, not the other way around. I was the one sacrificing instead of suffering for the injustice of a lost loved one.

That was also the day I bonded with the very creature I strived to defeat. I became like those many darkened, evil spirited monsters we protected the earth from.

Am I wrong to want such power at my fingertips? Even if it is the power to take lives, it makes me feel comforted.

My shadowed soul remained dormant within me for a while, until the Trunks of my time was born. The stirring inside my body was overwhelming, I wanted him. More importantly, the shadow wanted him.

I wasn't one to deny the being of his pleasure, especially when our desires were the same. I watched him grow, from a young child to the beautiful creature he is today.

My brother was born sometime between but he doesn't matter to me, though I was forced to play the fatherly role with him since my own sad-excuse for a dad had once again died on us.

Selfish bastard. My anger of him fueled me on through life and I knew I was close to attaining my goal. Years later, many years it seemed, I happened upon my little angel. He was with Goten as usual and I felt jealousy burn my veins, my own kin trying to take what I had claimed? I think not.

So I killed him.

Goten? How I wish, but no, I killed that old fisherman, the one who dared destroy Trunks' peace. Taking pictures? The price is death.

But it felt good to kill with no supposed purpose. There were no screaming humans running for their lives, no monsters threatening the world. It was my choice and after so many years of want and need I snapped.

I couldn't control the darkness that was within me, and I withdrew into myself. That bastard, the one I had willingly joined with betrayed me. He took my body, like the parasite he had always been and forced me to kill once more.

I had a family at the time of Goten's demise. The poor fucker couldn't handle the pressure of murder and cracked like the delicate skull of a child in my crushing hand. He was sent away while I was free with Trunks.

This was my chance to get closer, fuck the term pedophile, this was love. Love has no boundaries, it never does. Unless of course there was nothing to love. Unless the word was twisted into something sick and ugly and thus transformed into obsession.

But that was not the case, I wasn't an empty shell yearning for what I couldn't have. Because I had had my Trunks, in Mirai I had fulfilled my love. In fact he was the reason the bastard of an emotion had spawned and had been revealed upon the world. Our forbidden moment had given birth to something terrible and horrendous.

But love lives on, just as I did along with the rest of the world. No one mourned Goten's disappearance, especially me. I killed for Trunks, gladly I would slay the ones closest to me if for the chance of a whispered voice of love.

Videl was first, she tried to help Goten escape, that would not have been good for my plans. She screamed for me in the end, calling upon the help that would never come. The blood was everywhere, it only heightened my lust. So I killed Pan too, no particular reason, save for the fact that she reminded me of my bastard mother.

I always loathed my human side, it left me feeling degraded and unclean. Vegeta helped that hate within me grow and expand, always shunning us damn Sons. I hated the name.

The next on my list was Krillin, the reason? He got in my way. He purposely brought Trunks to visit Goten. I suppose my reasoning is a bit skewed but I take everything personally when it comes to my love.

Who was my next victim? Oh yes, that whore of a bandit and his cat. Really, the world could do without them, I simple sped up the inevitable. He probably would have met a similar fate in some dark alley, at the hands of a total stranger. At least I gave him pleasure before he died.

All the deaths seem to blur together after that, I really didn't care for the deceased so I show no compassion upon their demise. I remember killing my own mother in "cold blood" as some would say.

Their words would fall on deaf ears. I am now a monster, nothing more then a pathetic flame waiting to be blown out. Necrophilia? Why don't we add that to my long list of sins. That's right, I raped Mirai's body long after death.

Because I loved him. I still do.

I may have damned myself to the pits of hell but does it matter? I know the fucking King of the spirit world! I won't be put down so easily. I will rise again to enact my revenge upon the brutal world of today.

Goten.

He is the one I want. Not for the heavenly sins of pleasure but for death. I must kill him.

Perhaps it is he I am obsessed with, after all, I killed many to protect my Trunks from him. Does he instill fear into my heart? Never, Trunks' love is false.

I shall be his champion. I will be the one to protect him from the terrors of the night. And the nightmares of the day.

I love him.

Why can't he see that!? I have given up everything for him and he shows nothing! Nothing!

No, I must gain control of myself. I don't want to be at the hands of that monster again.

That's right, this is the true Gohan now. I have been tortured for far too long and I have suffered.

No one can save me now, I am a fallen angel, a demon. Trunks would never love anyone impure such as I. But I need his light, to atone for my own darkness. If he will have me I will be saved from hell.

That is why I must have him, body and soul, he will belong to me. Any sin acted out is for him alone, my blackened heart is his to destroy. My love for him runs deep and that is why I will find him. Nothing will hold us apart and I will help him realize this.

Because he is my love.

My obsession.

Author: Do u feel sorry for Gohan!? After hearing his side not even a bit of compassion? Well it's good that i luv him then.Clear anything up for u though? Hope so, well goodbye to anyone who's still here, I hope to see u guys again. It was fun. :grins: Ja ne.

-Red