Disclaimer: I don't own Slam Dunk. I don't want to be your friend is also not mine.
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Prologue
The D.J. from the radio announces something but I can't clearly hear it because the beating of my heart is louder than the sound coming from his player. Thud…thud…thud it goes when I heard the next song played.
I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
sigh
I don't wanna thing
Just stay away baby
It is over... lonely nights...empty dreams...weary life...
"Do you love me?"
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna know if you're alright
silence only the soft moan of the ocean and the cries of the birds answered me back.
Don't wanna hear that you'll stay in touch maybe
I weakly smiled at him. "That told everything that I need to know...what more should I say? It is definitely over...no more...nothing"
I'll get by just fine
So if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye
silence
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
"Is that all you wanted to do?! STARE AT ME FOR ETERNITY?! I NEED ANSWERS, DAMN YOU! I WANT IT NOW!" Slowly, hot liquid spilled from my eyes...they sting and burned my skin...but. I rose my chin up...I will not be the first to be beaten...this is the war that I' am looking forward to win! I know I'm acting childish but who cares! I want to say it in his face, how I feel for him, this is my last chance.
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
He looked at me...his face...it held a blank...emotion... but then again...when my tears fell...I saw something in his eyes...but like a passing wind it died the second I tried to decipher what it is. "Yes. I love you...because you are my friend and you will always be.
I'm not over you yet
And I don't think I care
A short sentence...but it is like reading a book with similar words in it...repeating...every single lines...It hurts...I might accept a whole earful of curses, and the most unbearable little NO...but he uses that annoying cliché I had read a hundred thousand times!
And I don't want to be your friend
"Yes..."I laugh through misty eyes." Yes...how can I be so stupid...I am your friend and will always be...just a friend..."I started to sob and to my horror the sob turns to a rain of tears. I am beaten...all of my cards are now laid...I have nothing more...
I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
A loser; I've gotten my hopes to high now I had to face the consequences, the pain. He slowly approaches me, I planned to move my feet back, out of his touch but I couldn't. As if my feet were rooted on the sand.
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
No! Don't come near me! It will only add on my sufferings. I heard my mind speak but I couldn't make my lips to do so.
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want to be is just free of you baby
He held me in his arms...I heard him hushing me up...then I broke...all my defenses crumble like a castle of sand blown by a strong blowing wind from the mighty sea. God! How I love him! He was my everything!...I was an idiot! I shouldn't have fallen in love with him! Stupid...stupid heart!!!
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
I tilted my head up and stare at his warm gaze...his eyes of the darkest blue...it wanted to say something...but what? Slowly I raised my face to him...this will be my last chance...my means on saying goodbye...before he knew what I am about to do...I pressed my lips to his...I felt the world stood very still as if the time never tick another second.
Go now, go now
When I let go...he was stunned...I took my chances and run towards nowhere...I need to get out of this place...out of his life...until...forever?
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be your friend
I climb the cliff side and I could still see him...standing there...not moving. I don't expect him to find me...after all why should he do such nonsense. Then...he slowly walks...away...away from me...
You take it casually, and that's what's killing me
I'll get by just fine
So if you're goin' then darlin' goodbye, goodbye
I felt like a coward...NO...I am not...I love him...I walk away knowing I will always love him...and that is all that matters...
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
No, no baby
If we meet again...Surely we are going to meet...I will hold on...I will let time heals all the wounds...let it flew like a bird out of the cage...I am very certain that I will get over him...
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I don't want to be your friend
See you next time, Akira. Maybe when we meet again, I could say "hey! It's nice seeing you old friend." And then, I could move on.
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
I don't want to be your friend...
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A/N: Oh! I suck at grammars. Where's Sir Menoy when you need him! Oh too bad. Maybe I was asleep or absent that I can't put good words together. Ohh…no!
Hope you like it! All reviews are open. Pls. bear with me; this is my very first fan fiction. Pls. RxR! Watch out for the next chapies! Until next time! Ciao!