The Gift of Oneself

Written by Ookami no Kokoro and xDarkxMagicianxGirlx

Disclaimers: Neither I nor Ookami no Kokoro own Yu Yu Hakusho, though we can wish, right?

Chapter Twelve

Tears formed in Yusuke's eyes as he gazed into the other's lifeless orbs. The fox, as though in a trance, slowly sat up, still seeming to stare at nothing.

Yusuke watched the other carefully, shifting ever so slightly so that if he needed to move, he could do it quickly. Kurama looked around, until his eyes fell upon the open window. He began to make his way towards it. Yusuke quickly got in front of him, closing the window and looking at the other. "You're not leaving."

With dull eyes, the fox glared at him, his body glowing slightly with a dark energy. The younger teen looked back at him. "Kurama, you don't want to do this.."

He opened his mouth, as if to speak, but it was not his voice that was heard. "Kurama is no longer in control, so he can no longer tell what he wants...."

The dark haired teen's eyes narrowed when he heard the familiar voice. A cold, mocking look appeared on the fox's features as he sneered. "Honestly, Urameshi, did you think you could keep him away from me for long?"

Yusuke growled. "You won't have control long, Karasu."

His sneer remained. "Now, how do you figure that?" he asked, mockingly.

"You aren't getting out of here until you get past me.." The teen glared slightly, a thought crossing his mind. Kurama can see everything, so if Karasu attacks me, maybe Kurama can become angry enough to push him out of his mind..

The fox laughed. "You don't think I know what you're up to, Urameshi? I can read minds, you know, and I can wait quite a while.. But how long can you last, knowing that I'm controlling Kurama's mind?"

He growled slightly, but his voice suddenly held a slight taunting-ness to it. "So you'd rather wait then take this opportunity? If you do have control of Kurama's mind then he wouldn't be able to stop you from attacking me, and I'd never attack Kurama. It'd be the perfect opportunity to kill me..."

He chuckled, taking a step closer to the younger teen. "Oh, I'll attack, alright.....But....in a different sense." He roughly pushed Yusuke back on the bed.

The teen growled again, pushing himself back up. The other tackled the delinquent, pinning him on the bed, looking down at him. "You wouldn't try and hurt Kurama's body, would you?" he asked, his voice in a low, taunting whisper.

Yusuke closed his eyes, struggling to get free.

He laughed, coldly. "What's the matter, Urameshi? I would've thought you would enjoy this....."

"Get off me!" He growled, struggling to get the demon off him without hurting the fox.

He laughed again, obviously enjoying the younger teen's torment. He grabbed the other's wrists, harshly pinning them over his head.

He winced slightly as he was roughly pinned down. He continued to struggle, with more difficulty now though.

For an instant, a sign of life flashed in Kurama's emerald orbs. "Yu....." He was unable to finish the name, as the dull, dark look returned to his eyes.

"Kurama.." he said, recognizing the voice for an instant.

He shook his head slightly. "Damn, the fox is stubborn, I'll give him that much....."

Yusuke smirked slightly, but continued to try and push the other off him, trying, at the same time, not to hurt the redhead physically.

Suddenly the controlled fox leaned down, roughly kissing the younger teen. Yusuke tried to pull away from the rough kiss, but found he couldn't. He nipped at the delinquent's lip, just hard enough to draw some blood, causing the boy beneath him to gag softly.

Almost gently, he ran his tongue over the other's lips, stroking over the cut. Yusuke writhed beneath the other, turning his head away from the boy on top of him, his eyes closed tightly shut. Breaking the kiss, 'Kurama' licked the blood off his own lips.

The younger teen started to cough, practically choking on the blood that had built up in the back of his throat. Smirking, the redhead started to lean forward again, when he suddenly stopped, his grip on Yusuke's wrists laxing. He closed his eyes tightly, as though he were in pain, a white aura surrounding his body.

Getting his limbs free from the other's grip he put them up to his mouth, coughing up the blood. Suddenly, the redhead fell back on the bed again, unconscious.

A small sigh, coming from nowhere, and yet sounding from everywhere, was heard. "Sorry I'm late," a familiar voice said suddenly.

Yusuke sat up. "K.. Kuronue?" he asked, coughing again slightly.

"Yeah. Are you alright?"

He nodded, looking from the blood on his hand to the unconscious teen on the bed. "Kurama...? Is he okay?"

"Physically and mentally, he should be.."

He nodded again, scooting closer to the other teen. "Where are you?"

"I'm not there with you. I'm still at Kurama's house. But, I felt Karasu's presence.. somewhere. And I found out he was up to something."

"Thanks.." he replied, looking at the teen.

"No problem," Kuronue replied. "Just wish I found out sooner."

He sighed slightly, pulling his knees up to his chest and looking at the older teen, brushing a few crimson bangs out of the other's eyes.

Kurama coughed suddenly.

"Kurama..?" he asked gently.

The redhead sat up suddenly, covering his mouth as he coughed.

Yusuke watched the other. "Are you all right, Kurama?"

Kurama calmed down, his shoulders trembling slightly. The taste of blood was strong, and he felt the urge to vomit. The other teen watched the other, wondering if he was all right.

The older looked at the other, tears filling his eyes as they settled on the small cut on Yusuke's lips. "I.. Karasu.. didn't hurt you, did he?"

He shook his head gently. "No.. I'm fine.."

"Are-are you sure?"

He nodded slowly. "Are.. you okay?"

He nodded, placing a hand to his throat as he tried to suppress the urge to empty his stomach.

The younger teen watched him, concerned. Feeling a little bit of his own blood dripping from his upper lip, he brought his already blood stained hand up without thinking and wiped it away. The smell of blood filling his senses, and the taste of blood on his tongue did nothing to help his already upset stomach, and he quickly got up and ran to the bathroom.

"Kurama?!" he yelled, sliding off the bed.

The older bent over the toilet bowl, gripping the edge as he emptied himself violently.

Yusuke stopped at the bathroom door, seeing the other vomiting into the toilet. He turned around so he didn't puke himself.

Once finished, the redhead collapsed to the floor, shaking slightly. With the bitter taste in his mouth, he wasn't sure if this, or the blood, was a worst taste.

Turning, the other ran over to the teen, pulling him into his arms. "Kurama.. are you okay?"

He nodded slightly, gasping for breath. Not believing the teen, Yusuke sat there, the older teen in his arms. Tears started forming in his eyes. "I... I'm sorry Kurama... did you see.... everything?"

He nodded again, tears flowing down his cheeks. "And don't be sorry.. it's not your fault."

"I could've gotten him off from me... but I didn't want to hurt you.." he replied, looking away as tears began falling down his own cheeks.

He cuddled closer to the younger teen. "It's not your fault.. If it's not my fault for not being able to fight him off, then it's not your fault either."

He nodded, leaning down and burying his face into the other's chest. Kurama gently placed his hand around the younger teen, pulling him closer, trying to ignore the bitter taste in his mouth.

The younger teen lifted his head slightly and smiled slightly through his tears. "Do... do you want some water?" Kurama winced slightly, running his tongue through his mouth. He nodded. Yusuke nodded in return, standing, the older teen still in his arms. He wanted something to drink as well. The taste of his own blood, and the remembrance of Karasu's rough kiss was enough to make him gag.

Wiping the remaining tears from his eyes, Kurama cuddled closer to the other, smiling slightly. Setting the other down on his bed, he grabbed the drinks they had been drinking earlier. They were still slightly cold, and he handed one to the other. Taking the offered drink, Kurama took a quick drink of water, flinching at first as it passed through his throat.

Yusuke opened his own bottle, drinking a quarter of the water, closing his eyes tightly as his own blood was washed down his throat. The fox stopped drinking, coughing slightly as a mix of blood, vomit and water passed down his throat.

Gulping down his water, he looked over. "Are you sure you're all right?"

He nodded, clearing his throat. "I will be....." he replied quietly.

He sighed, looking down at his hand. The blood he had coughed up on it was now dried and it made his stomach turn just looking at it. "Do you want me to do anything for you?" he asked silently, still looking at his hand.

"No, I should be alright.."

Yusuke nodded slightly. "All right.."

Sitting up, Kurama gently took the other's bloodstained hand. A pained look flashed through his eyes. Seeing the look, the other quickly took his hand away from the boy, placing it behind his back. Looking up at the other, Kurama gently reached up, wiping the semi-dried blood away from the cut lip. The younger teen looked down at the other gently.

Reaching out, he pulled the other's bloodstained hand from behind. Yusuke tried to pull it away again, but failed, tears starting to form in his chocolate orbs. Kurama felt tears fall from his own eyes, wetting the palm of the other's hand. From his pocket, he pulled out a handkerchief, gently wiping the now wet palm clean.

Yusuke looked at the other. "Why.... do you let everyone do that to you..?" he asked, indicating to what Karasu had done to him.

He looked up at the other, a little hurt. "I didn't LET him do that.. I don't let ANYONE do that. But sometimes.. I don't know, it's like.. Fighting back doesn't work.."

Walking over, Yusuke embraced the other teen, tears falling from his eyes. "I.. I'm sorry.. I didn't know.." He choked on a sob, and replied honestly, "I was always so.. jealous and angry.. when they touched you.."

The redhead embraced him back, his own tears being shed. "I understand that. But understand that I don't like that feeling either. I always feel so.. dirty..." He shuddered slightly.

Yusuke nodded, burying his head into the other's chest. "I know.. and you're not dirty.. not to me.." he replied gently, his words muffled slightly in Kurama's shirt. Even though it had been Kurama's body on top of him earlier, he too felt slightly 'dirty'.

"But I can't help but feel that way..."

Looking up, the raven haired teen nodded. "Just remember that.. no matter what happens to you, I'll still love you, ok?" he said gently, closing his eyes and cuddling closer to the other.

Kurama smiled through his tears, gently pulling the other closer to him, enjoying the warmth. "I really don't deserve someone like you," he said, his voice slightly shaky.

"If I deserve someone like you.. then you certainly deserve someone like me.."

"Who says you deserve someone like me?" Kurama whispered. "You deserve someone much better than me......"

Yusuke cuddled closer, yawning slightly. "There isn't anyone better than you, Kurama.."

The fox smiled softly. "Tired?" he asked quietly.

Yusuke nodded slightly.

"Maybe you should rest.."

The boy looked up. "What about you?"

"Maybe... I'll stay up for a while.."

"You'll stay here... right?" the delinquent asked, closing his eyes again.

Kurama nodded, rubbing the other's back reassuringly. "I'm not going anywhere.."

"Thanks, Kur.." Yusuke didn't have a chance to finish his sentence before he fell asleep in the other's arms.

The other smiled, gently embracing the other before setting him down to lie on the bed, sitting on the floor beside it.