Chapter 12: For a Letter and ever
Author's Note: Hey!!! Thanks to everyone who continued to review, I appreciate it so much that you stuck by. Yeah I know it was a long long time since I updated. Sorry!!!!!!! This was actually two chapters, but they were both too short so I made them into one.
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2 weeks later
Sakura sat down on the bed waiting for Syaoran to come home. It was dark; although he was hurt he still had to go to work everyday. His skin had drastically healed and was nearly back to normal.
Over the past weeks, things hadn't been the same between them. There was the coldness between them and Sakura's fear was coming alive, everyday she had feared what would happen if he didn't want her anymore.
Sakura watched as Syaoran entered the door and walked into the bedroom.
"You're back," she stated.
"Yeah, long day,"
Sakura nodded as took his shirt off and sat next to her on the bed, with his back facing her.
She unscrewed the lid of the bottle as she squirted some onto her hands as rubbed it against his back.
"We won't need anymore for tomorrow," she announced, his skin was looking normal. She redid the bottle and got up and washed her hands.
Sakura then sat down and came face to face with him.
"Syaoran?" she questioned.
She continued hesitantly when he looked at her.
"Can I send a letter to my dad?"
"Why?" he asked simply.
"I just want him to know that I'm still alive,"
Syaoran looked at her.
"Yeah, as long as you don't tell him where we are, you can give it to me in the morning and I'll have it sent off."
Sakura's face lit up, she was surprised that he had agreed.
"Thankyou!" she replied as she leaned over and gave him a tight hug.
"Oh, I'm so sorry," she released him, when she remembered.
"I'm fine now,"
"Li! Are you in there?" they heard a voice from the entrance.
They both looked out to see Yue standing outside.
"I've got to go, I'll come back," he told her as he left, went outside and started talking to Yue about something.
Sakura waited inside, this was the moment she had been waiting for. As she stripped down and lay under the covers waiting for him to come back.
Sakura sat upright when she heard footsteps coming towards here. Scared that it might be Yue she quickly held the blanket up towards her chest.
"Sakura?" it wasn't Yue, but Syaoran.
"You scared me," she replied.
"No one's allowed in here but you," he stared at her when she dropped the blanket down.
Sakura held her breath when he started towards her. She then asked the question she had been dreading.
"Do you still want me?" she whispered, loud enough for him to hear. Her body tensed up, scared of his answer.
"Always," he replied as he got onto the bed with her and began kissing gently on her neck. Sakura relaxed.
She got a hold of his shirt as she pulled that off. Syaoran smirked, that was a first.
Sakura wrapped her arms around his neck as she pulled him closer up against her body and pushed her tongue into his mouth. She had missed him for so long.
She broke the kiss to take off the rest of his clothes, as she wrapped her legs around him pressing her body against his, when she felt him become aroused under her.
Syaoran grabbed a hold of Sakura's body as he began inserting into her.
Sakura moaned out in joy. As they both lay back down on the bed. She tried to calm down her breathing, this was the first time she had ever given in freely to him.
She lay down beside him with her hand on his chest as they both fell asleep.
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Later
Sakura woke up in the morning to find no one beside her, he had already gone off, she sighed she didn't know why she had done what she did last night.
What if he expected the same this night, she had after all only done it so she could send a letter to her family. She wouldn't give herself freely tonight.
Sakura got up and changed, as she found paper on his desk and started writing:
Dear Dad and Touya,
You're both probably wondering how I'm writing this letter to you, but I am and I'm still out there. I don't want you looking for me, because I know it'll be hopeless, I'm fine here, really I am, I'm with this man, who-
Sakura paused, but then hesitantly continued
Who, I'm in love with, I don't know if he even loves me back, but I love him, and I want to stay here with him. Don't worry; I'll see you again someday.
Love always,
Sakura
Sakura reread her letter as she folded it up. She couldn't give this to Syaoran, what if he read it; she would have to give it to Yue herself.
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Syaoran walked into the entrance when he found no one at home, Sakura wasn't there.
He sat down waiting for her to return, when not a while later, Sakura came back, with a smile on her face, her smile quickly vanished when she spotted Syaoran sitting, waiting for her.
"Hey, I'm sorry, but I went off to Yue to give him the letter myself," Sakura reassured Syaoran.
Syaoran nodded, he had expected to give Yue the letter himself so that Yue could send it, but it didn't matter anyway. He started staring at Sakura who was still standing at the door, aware that she wasn't moving.
"Go," Syaoran told her as he looked towards the room.
Sakura stood there for a moment before shaking her head, not tonight, she had only done it last night, but not tonight.
Syaoran started getting angry, so last night she had only done it for her letter, but he wasn't going to show her that it mattered, as he pulled her over to the bed.
"You're not going to escape," he whispered into her ear, as he stripped her, he would feel no shame.
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Sakura woke up and the nights events came back to her, she felt horrible, it hadn't felt right, denying herself what she wanted so much, but she had only done it for the letter.
Sakura looked over at Syaoran's sleeping form, and knew that she really did care about him. She loved him, so much, that she didn't ever want to leave.
Sakura sighed, she knew that he didn't love her, he had only lusted for her, and he still did, she was only something he played with, but she still loved him. She was feeling so guilty about denying everything.
She didn't care anymore, Sakura had enough, even if he didn't want her, she wanted him, she loved him, and she was going to stay with him.
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Syaoran woke up to find, Sakura still lying next to him.
"Sakura?" he asked placing his hand on her shoulder, to feel her bare skin.
"Yeah," Sakura turned over to face Syaoran.
"What are you doing here?" he asked, normally when he woke up she would already be dressed and out of bed.
"Don't you want me here?" Sakura asked, as she moved her body on top of his, tracing on his chest with her finger.
"What are you doing?" Syaoran asked, a smile tugging at the sides of his lips.
"Making up for last night," Sakura replied as she pressed her lips against Syaoran's.
"Stay with me," Sakura asked Syaoran when they finally broke away.
"Today?" he asked as he started kissing on her neck.
"Today, all today," Sakura replied.
"Gladly,"
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Author's Note: Okay, did it all make sense??? Please review, I've been getting less lately and that kinda makes me sad. But I guess it's also my fault. Please review?? Please??? I know I don't deserve it, but please????
Author's Note: Hey!!! Thanks to everyone who continued to review, I appreciate it so much that you stuck by. Yeah I know it was a long long time since I updated. Sorry!!!!!!! This was actually two chapters, but they were both too short so I made them into one.
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2 weeks later
Sakura sat down on the bed waiting for Syaoran to come home. It was dark; although he was hurt he still had to go to work everyday. His skin had drastically healed and was nearly back to normal.
Over the past weeks, things hadn't been the same between them. There was the coldness between them and Sakura's fear was coming alive, everyday she had feared what would happen if he didn't want her anymore.
Sakura watched as Syaoran entered the door and walked into the bedroom.
"You're back," she stated.
"Yeah, long day,"
Sakura nodded as took his shirt off and sat next to her on the bed, with his back facing her.
She unscrewed the lid of the bottle as she squirted some onto her hands as rubbed it against his back.
"We won't need anymore for tomorrow," she announced, his skin was looking normal. She redid the bottle and got up and washed her hands.
Sakura then sat down and came face to face with him.
"Syaoran?" she questioned.
She continued hesitantly when he looked at her.
"Can I send a letter to my dad?"
"Why?" he asked simply.
"I just want him to know that I'm still alive,"
Syaoran looked at her.
"Yeah, as long as you don't tell him where we are, you can give it to me in the morning and I'll have it sent off."
Sakura's face lit up, she was surprised that he had agreed.
"Thankyou!" she replied as she leaned over and gave him a tight hug.
"Oh, I'm so sorry," she released him, when she remembered.
"I'm fine now,"
"Li! Are you in there?" they heard a voice from the entrance.
They both looked out to see Yue standing outside.
"I've got to go, I'll come back," he told her as he left, went outside and started talking to Yue about something.
Sakura waited inside, this was the moment she had been waiting for. As she stripped down and lay under the covers waiting for him to come back.
Sakura sat upright when she heard footsteps coming towards here. Scared that it might be Yue she quickly held the blanket up towards her chest.
"Sakura?" it wasn't Yue, but Syaoran.
"You scared me," she replied.
"No one's allowed in here but you," he stared at her when she dropped the blanket down.
Sakura held her breath when he started towards her. She then asked the question she had been dreading.
"Do you still want me?" she whispered, loud enough for him to hear. Her body tensed up, scared of his answer.
"Always," he replied as he got onto the bed with her and began kissing gently on her neck. Sakura relaxed.
She got a hold of his shirt as she pulled that off. Syaoran smirked, that was a first.
Sakura wrapped her arms around his neck as she pulled him closer up against her body and pushed her tongue into his mouth. She had missed him for so long.
She broke the kiss to take off the rest of his clothes, as she wrapped her legs around him pressing her body against his, when she felt him become aroused under her.
Syaoran grabbed a hold of Sakura's body as he began inserting into her.
Sakura moaned out in joy. As they both lay back down on the bed. She tried to calm down her breathing, this was the first time she had ever given in freely to him.
She lay down beside him with her hand on his chest as they both fell asleep.
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Later
Sakura woke up in the morning to find no one beside her, he had already gone off, she sighed she didn't know why she had done what she did last night.
What if he expected the same this night, she had after all only done it so she could send a letter to her family. She wouldn't give herself freely tonight.
Sakura got up and changed, as she found paper on his desk and started writing:
Dear Dad and Touya,
You're both probably wondering how I'm writing this letter to you, but I am and I'm still out there. I don't want you looking for me, because I know it'll be hopeless, I'm fine here, really I am, I'm with this man, who-
Sakura paused, but then hesitantly continued
Who, I'm in love with, I don't know if he even loves me back, but I love him, and I want to stay here with him. Don't worry; I'll see you again someday.
Love always,
Sakura
Sakura reread her letter as she folded it up. She couldn't give this to Syaoran, what if he read it; she would have to give it to Yue herself.
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Syaoran walked into the entrance when he found no one at home, Sakura wasn't there.
He sat down waiting for her to return, when not a while later, Sakura came back, with a smile on her face, her smile quickly vanished when she spotted Syaoran sitting, waiting for her.
"Hey, I'm sorry, but I went off to Yue to give him the letter myself," Sakura reassured Syaoran.
Syaoran nodded, he had expected to give Yue the letter himself so that Yue could send it, but it didn't matter anyway. He started staring at Sakura who was still standing at the door, aware that she wasn't moving.
"Go," Syaoran told her as he looked towards the room.
Sakura stood there for a moment before shaking her head, not tonight, she had only done it last night, but not tonight.
Syaoran started getting angry, so last night she had only done it for her letter, but he wasn't going to show her that it mattered, as he pulled her over to the bed.
"You're not going to escape," he whispered into her ear, as he stripped her, he would feel no shame.
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Sakura woke up and the nights events came back to her, she felt horrible, it hadn't felt right, denying herself what she wanted so much, but she had only done it for the letter.
Sakura looked over at Syaoran's sleeping form, and knew that she really did care about him. She loved him, so much, that she didn't ever want to leave.
Sakura sighed, she knew that he didn't love her, he had only lusted for her, and he still did, she was only something he played with, but she still loved him. She was feeling so guilty about denying everything.
She didn't care anymore, Sakura had enough, even if he didn't want her, she wanted him, she loved him, and she was going to stay with him.
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Syaoran woke up to find, Sakura still lying next to him.
"Sakura?" he asked placing his hand on her shoulder, to feel her bare skin.
"Yeah," Sakura turned over to face Syaoran.
"What are you doing here?" he asked, normally when he woke up she would already be dressed and out of bed.
"Don't you want me here?" Sakura asked, as she moved her body on top of his, tracing on his chest with her finger.
"What are you doing?" Syaoran asked, a smile tugging at the sides of his lips.
"Making up for last night," Sakura replied as she pressed her lips against Syaoran's.
"Stay with me," Sakura asked Syaoran when they finally broke away.
"Today?" he asked as he started kissing on her neck.
"Today, all today," Sakura replied.
"Gladly,"
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Author's Note: Okay, did it all make sense??? Please review, I've been getting less lately and that kinda makes me sad. But I guess it's also my fault. Please review?? Please??? I know I don't deserve it, but please????