A/N: I would have posted this earlier but FF.Net was down for a
couple of days. I apologize if the formatting is off, since my word
document was acting weird. Also, this is an extremely peculiar chapter in
my opinion, but I like it anyways since it helps plot wise. You can blame
Ap-chan for it. ::glomps Akurei Dracul, Otaku Person, Chibi-y4kuza:: Thank
you for reviewing! Chibi-y4kauza-san, you can call me whatever you like ^-
^. So, here's the next chapter, I hope you like it.
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The sound of water crashing onto rocks wakes me from my slumber. I stretch and yawn. Stretch? I panic as I open my eyes quickly and find myself lying on my side in sand. I sit up as quickly as I can. I look around and in front of me is a beautifully crafted ocean. Something deep inside of me stirs at the sight of it. I try to ignore it as I stand and look away from the ocean. All there is are cliffs made up of lonely rocks and more sand. However, there is pavement is the distance and the shape of it resembles one of a parking lot.
I start walking, ravishing at the feeling of the warm sand embracing my feet. I look down and see how it dances in the sun's light. As I look back up and before me, the pavement that I'm trying to get to keeps moving back.
I pause.
Perhaps it's just my eyes playing a trick on me because of the glare from the glorious sun that is shinning down. Or it's my mind playing a trick on me. It would explain how on earth I ended up lying on a beach and not still being back in the bed at the hospital.
I take a step back and the pavement once again becomes clear. I take a step forward and it hides from my view. I do this a couple more times. My head starts to throb from my quick movements and I decide to give something a try.
I run.
I run as fast as my wobbly legs allow me. With each step I take the throbbing in my head worsens. I try to keep on running to get to the pavement so I can get away from this place. However, something inside me has a different idea, a different goal than what I'm trying to do and I collapse onto the sand. I welcome its unbound warmth as I lie there and try to calm myself. All becomes quiet and all I hear are the ocean waves.
My mind starts to clear and the throbbing that I had just felt turns into a gentle nudging, a nudging that is pulling me back to the ocean. I slowly stand, getting the feeling back into my legs and make my way back to the water. The water is calling me like a mother calling to its child.
I step at the edge where the water meets the sand and I allow the water to wash over my feet. The cool feeling makes me smile. I feel a tingling feeling along my back like something was touching me there. My smile fades.
Someone is behind me, I see their shadow cast over the sand. Then I see their reflection in blue water and I gasp. The person behind me is I. Beautiful black wings are spread out of his back and into the air around us.
An arm, his arm wraps around my waist pulling me against him as the other runs through my hair. A noise coming from his throat almost sounds purring like as he speaks.
"Hello, my precious Kamui."
I open my mouth to say something, or anything and nothing comes out but a tiny squeak.
The arm around my waist starts to rub my stomach and the other caresses my face. His mouth by my ear, breath tingling it.
"Do not be afraid, my dear. There is no reason to not trust yourself."
His tongue flicks my ear lightly, in an almost erotic way and a tiny moan escapes my lips.
"Trust me my dear."
I can almost hear him whispering, "my other half" in a soothing way. Something about this calms me even though half of me is screaming to run, that something is wrong and this shouldn't be. The other half of me yearns to stay in this warm embrace and listen wholly to him. The urge is overwhelming and I quickly make up my mind. I lean into the embrace, and he holds me from behind.
Finally, I find my voice.
"You. You've been calling me."
"Yes."
"But why? I-I don't understand…."
"You do not remember, my dear."
"Remember what?"
"A part of you has always remembered. It is time for that part to show it's self."
One of his hands turns my head back towards him and he presses his lips to mine in a rigid kiss. Something about it feels familiar. Feels warm. Feels right where it belongs. I shut my eyes from the shock for only what seems a few moments and as I reopen them they widen from what I see. We are no longer at the ocean's shoreline, but outside of my old school.
He whispers into my ear, "Does this seem familiar?"
"Yes," I breathe.
I look at him, in those achingly familiar eyes and wonder why we are here and how we got here. Nothing seems to be making sense anymore. All of this is just so impossible, however it still feels right. He takes my hand in his and we start walking from the front courtyard to the back.
It is painfully familiar. The place where I used to hide. My so-called sanctuary.
Then it hits me, a sudden case of déjà vu. The people, their actions, the weather. It's all happened before. It at least explains to why no one has noticed us. No one as gone and given us an odd look.
I look forward and I gasp. Standing off to the side is none other than Aiden.
/So he did go to school me with/ I think.
We move closer to where he is and I gasp again, at seeing what he is doing. Aiden is sitting there with other members of the school council, most likely talking about doing a found raiser for a school trip if I remember correctly. However, it isn't what he is focused on. He is staring to his right and is looking right at where the me from that time is sitting. A loving look plastered on his face as he watches me.
Aiden's voice suddenly fills my head.
"Oh, Shirou-kun, if you only realized that you deserve better than this. If you only realized about me. I could save you."
I turn to my other.
"I don't understand at all."
"Do you really not see?" He asks me.
I blink in confusion.
"See what?"
"My dear, he loves you. He watches you, he wants you."
He smiles. "You never did understand fully."
I start to shake and his arms wrap around me once more. My shaking starts to worsen as images from long forgotten memories cloud my mind.
He starts to stroke my hair once more.
"Shh, my dearest. Let them come. Let yourself understand."
I break free from his grasp as the feeling of being consumed by the images takes over. I hold my head to try to stop the pain and then it takes over me. I scream.
Then it's over.
I look up and he is smiling. After all this time I finally understand.
I smile.
"Thank you."
I walk back over to him and kiss him fully on his lips. His response is just as urgent as mine and then almost on cue we both pull back, smiling.
"It is time to go back. You've done your time."
A whisper. "Remember."
He starts to vanish right before my eyes, the smile never leaving his face. Then he is gone and I am left standing there, stunned. Suddenly all goes black and once again my head starts to throb. I scream once more and then there is nothing.
I wake with a start and am back in the hospital, with a worried looking Fuuma next to me. I blink trying to remember the strange dream that I just had. Then it hits me. I turn and look Fuuma directly in the eyes with a smile.
"I remember."
*****
*****
The sound of water crashing onto rocks wakes me from my slumber. I stretch and yawn. Stretch? I panic as I open my eyes quickly and find myself lying on my side in sand. I sit up as quickly as I can. I look around and in front of me is a beautifully crafted ocean. Something deep inside of me stirs at the sight of it. I try to ignore it as I stand and look away from the ocean. All there is are cliffs made up of lonely rocks and more sand. However, there is pavement is the distance and the shape of it resembles one of a parking lot.
I start walking, ravishing at the feeling of the warm sand embracing my feet. I look down and see how it dances in the sun's light. As I look back up and before me, the pavement that I'm trying to get to keeps moving back.
I pause.
Perhaps it's just my eyes playing a trick on me because of the glare from the glorious sun that is shinning down. Or it's my mind playing a trick on me. It would explain how on earth I ended up lying on a beach and not still being back in the bed at the hospital.
I take a step back and the pavement once again becomes clear. I take a step forward and it hides from my view. I do this a couple more times. My head starts to throb from my quick movements and I decide to give something a try.
I run.
I run as fast as my wobbly legs allow me. With each step I take the throbbing in my head worsens. I try to keep on running to get to the pavement so I can get away from this place. However, something inside me has a different idea, a different goal than what I'm trying to do and I collapse onto the sand. I welcome its unbound warmth as I lie there and try to calm myself. All becomes quiet and all I hear are the ocean waves.
My mind starts to clear and the throbbing that I had just felt turns into a gentle nudging, a nudging that is pulling me back to the ocean. I slowly stand, getting the feeling back into my legs and make my way back to the water. The water is calling me like a mother calling to its child.
I step at the edge where the water meets the sand and I allow the water to wash over my feet. The cool feeling makes me smile. I feel a tingling feeling along my back like something was touching me there. My smile fades.
Someone is behind me, I see their shadow cast over the sand. Then I see their reflection in blue water and I gasp. The person behind me is I. Beautiful black wings are spread out of his back and into the air around us.
An arm, his arm wraps around my waist pulling me against him as the other runs through my hair. A noise coming from his throat almost sounds purring like as he speaks.
"Hello, my precious Kamui."
I open my mouth to say something, or anything and nothing comes out but a tiny squeak.
The arm around my waist starts to rub my stomach and the other caresses my face. His mouth by my ear, breath tingling it.
"Do not be afraid, my dear. There is no reason to not trust yourself."
His tongue flicks my ear lightly, in an almost erotic way and a tiny moan escapes my lips.
"Trust me my dear."
I can almost hear him whispering, "my other half" in a soothing way. Something about this calms me even though half of me is screaming to run, that something is wrong and this shouldn't be. The other half of me yearns to stay in this warm embrace and listen wholly to him. The urge is overwhelming and I quickly make up my mind. I lean into the embrace, and he holds me from behind.
Finally, I find my voice.
"You. You've been calling me."
"Yes."
"But why? I-I don't understand…."
"You do not remember, my dear."
"Remember what?"
"A part of you has always remembered. It is time for that part to show it's self."
One of his hands turns my head back towards him and he presses his lips to mine in a rigid kiss. Something about it feels familiar. Feels warm. Feels right where it belongs. I shut my eyes from the shock for only what seems a few moments and as I reopen them they widen from what I see. We are no longer at the ocean's shoreline, but outside of my old school.
He whispers into my ear, "Does this seem familiar?"
"Yes," I breathe.
I look at him, in those achingly familiar eyes and wonder why we are here and how we got here. Nothing seems to be making sense anymore. All of this is just so impossible, however it still feels right. He takes my hand in his and we start walking from the front courtyard to the back.
It is painfully familiar. The place where I used to hide. My so-called sanctuary.
Then it hits me, a sudden case of déjà vu. The people, their actions, the weather. It's all happened before. It at least explains to why no one has noticed us. No one as gone and given us an odd look.
I look forward and I gasp. Standing off to the side is none other than Aiden.
/So he did go to school me with/ I think.
We move closer to where he is and I gasp again, at seeing what he is doing. Aiden is sitting there with other members of the school council, most likely talking about doing a found raiser for a school trip if I remember correctly. However, it isn't what he is focused on. He is staring to his right and is looking right at where the me from that time is sitting. A loving look plastered on his face as he watches me.
Aiden's voice suddenly fills my head.
"Oh, Shirou-kun, if you only realized that you deserve better than this. If you only realized about me. I could save you."
I turn to my other.
"I don't understand at all."
"Do you really not see?" He asks me.
I blink in confusion.
"See what?"
"My dear, he loves you. He watches you, he wants you."
He smiles. "You never did understand fully."
I start to shake and his arms wrap around me once more. My shaking starts to worsen as images from long forgotten memories cloud my mind.
He starts to stroke my hair once more.
"Shh, my dearest. Let them come. Let yourself understand."
I break free from his grasp as the feeling of being consumed by the images takes over. I hold my head to try to stop the pain and then it takes over me. I scream.
Then it's over.
I look up and he is smiling. After all this time I finally understand.
I smile.
"Thank you."
I walk back over to him and kiss him fully on his lips. His response is just as urgent as mine and then almost on cue we both pull back, smiling.
"It is time to go back. You've done your time."
A whisper. "Remember."
He starts to vanish right before my eyes, the smile never leaving his face. Then he is gone and I am left standing there, stunned. Suddenly all goes black and once again my head starts to throb. I scream once more and then there is nothing.
I wake with a start and am back in the hospital, with a worried looking Fuuma next to me. I blink trying to remember the strange dream that I just had. Then it hits me. I turn and look Fuuma directly in the eyes with a smile.
"I remember."
*****