A/N: ::cries:: I apologize for the lateness of this chapter! I've been busy
with work and such and I kind of lost my idea for it this chapter so I had
to make a new one. I'm going to try and get back onto my updating schedule,
if not I give you permission to harass me until I do. ::glomps Chibik0-
chan:: Thank you for the review! Kobayashi-san, thank you for pointing that
out. Chibik0-chan, Would you like me to send you and e-mail explaining the
last chapter? It would be no problem. Well, we get some more insight into
Kamui's past and a pissy Fuuma. Enjoy and sorry if the formatting is off
again.
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"So, Kamui, are you going to keep staring into space like that?"
I blush. I hadn't realized that I had spaced out.
"No..," I meekly reply.
"Well, then stop keeping me in suspense"
"Sorry."
Fuuma lifts my chin and kisses me lightly.
"If it's bothering you, then you don't have to force yourself to tell me. I understand."
I gape at him. I want to tell him so badly, I want him to understand me completely, but most of all I want him to forgive. To forgive Aiden, to forgive me. A few tears escape my eyes as I try to hold them back.
/I'm sorry/ I think
"Kamui? Kamui, what's wrong?" Fuuma asks me worriedly.
I try to smile.
"I-I want to tell you. But I need you to do something for me."
"Anything for you. Just tell me."
That makes me smile.
"I need you to stay quiet right until I'm done. No interruptions, okay?" I smile sweetly to add to the effect.
Fuuma smiles back, but sighs. "Alright."
We stare at each other in anticipated silence while I gather up my thoughts and how I'm going to try and word things out. Hopefully I won't mess things up to badly. /Here goes nothing/ I think.
"Fuuma, do you remember when we first met?"
A smile and a nod.
" I guess.. I think.. that I took such a kick liking to you because I understood you. I knew, well, I know what it's like to be in that situation. Because of back home."
Silence, then I continue,
"At my old school, at Aiden's and my old school I was like you. I was lonely.."
I look down and play with a part of the blanket with my fingers as I try to find the perfect words, the perfect syllables.
"But, there was someone. Like a ray of light.. he was so nice, I thought he really cared. But, it was one of those at the wrong time situations. He was with the most popular of my class and when he and his friends found out..it was.."
I pause. I'm not ready to face it.
"It was about the time when the class a year senior than mine started working with us. It's when Aiden started to get to know me. I know this sounds particularly odd but I think just him being there, his presence, calmed me."
"You knew him didn't you?" Fuuma asks a tad to calmly.
"What?"
"You. Knew. Him. And you didn't tell me."
I gulp. Fuuma's voice is far beyond dead serious; it has an air of eeriness to it. I'm trying my hardest not to shake from his tone.
"No, it's not like that."
"Then, Kamui, pray tell why you didn't tell me or anyone else for that matter that you knew him. That the man that caused this to you and has been stalking you was in your life before."
"Please, Fuuma, it was an accident. I wasn't looking where I was going"
A snort.
"Fuuma.."
"For crying out loud Kamui, there is such a thing called a brake that stops the car from moving. And you didn't need to run."
The last of my patience has now flown out the window as his words play in my mind. I snap.
" I was running because of you! Get out!"
My body shakes horribly as I stare wide eyed at Fuuma not knowing whether the words that came really meant something or not. However, for now I need to clear my head and his accusations are not helping me.
"Fine."
With that Fuuma stands and quickly walks out of the room. Although, not before I see the look of dread plastered on his face. My mind is once again racing with all that is going on, yet it is too much and before I can straighten anything out I pass out.
***
I open my eyes and am greeted by two things. By the warm rays of the sun and by the smiling face of the nurse.
"Good morning, sunshine," she says happily
"Morning," I reply
"I have some good news for you."
"Oh?"
"You've recovered quite nicely from those injuries of yours and you are now released from the hospital. You can change and leave."
"Thank you"
She smiles and says, "Just remember to take care of yourself and if you're not feeling well come back here."
With that, she finishes her chart checking and leaves to go see another patient. I slowly get up and bewilderedly get dressed. All of this is so sudden and because of last night I don't want to go back to where Fuuma and Kotori are. I take one last look at the room and swiftly walk out. As I get outside I let the sun shine down on me wholly, a feeling that I have missed. Making up my mind I decide to go home. I need to go back there anyways and face the music so now is as good as a time as ever.
I make my way home and notice that even with everything that has happened I've missed it there. I guess the warmth of my mother and aunt still dwell there and to me that's always a lovely thing to be wrapped up in. Without realizing it, I run home and thankfully before I know it I arrive. After getting the mail and checking the messages and such I finally arrive to my destination. The living room. I plop down onto the couch and smile happily at the room. A room that I've quite missed since being away from home.
I relish in the feeling of being in here for a few more moments before I turn on the television and start to watch some odd game show. My eyes start to drupe as the contestants try to win a family vacation to some place or another. I move to lie down but I stop and jolt up. The doorbell has gone off. Wondering who would come to see me and who even knows I'm home I open to door and smile.
It's Subaru.
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"So, Kamui, are you going to keep staring into space like that?"
I blush. I hadn't realized that I had spaced out.
"No..," I meekly reply.
"Well, then stop keeping me in suspense"
"Sorry."
Fuuma lifts my chin and kisses me lightly.
"If it's bothering you, then you don't have to force yourself to tell me. I understand."
I gape at him. I want to tell him so badly, I want him to understand me completely, but most of all I want him to forgive. To forgive Aiden, to forgive me. A few tears escape my eyes as I try to hold them back.
/I'm sorry/ I think
"Kamui? Kamui, what's wrong?" Fuuma asks me worriedly.
I try to smile.
"I-I want to tell you. But I need you to do something for me."
"Anything for you. Just tell me."
That makes me smile.
"I need you to stay quiet right until I'm done. No interruptions, okay?" I smile sweetly to add to the effect.
Fuuma smiles back, but sighs. "Alright."
We stare at each other in anticipated silence while I gather up my thoughts and how I'm going to try and word things out. Hopefully I won't mess things up to badly. /Here goes nothing/ I think.
"Fuuma, do you remember when we first met?"
A smile and a nod.
" I guess.. I think.. that I took such a kick liking to you because I understood you. I knew, well, I know what it's like to be in that situation. Because of back home."
Silence, then I continue,
"At my old school, at Aiden's and my old school I was like you. I was lonely.."
I look down and play with a part of the blanket with my fingers as I try to find the perfect words, the perfect syllables.
"But, there was someone. Like a ray of light.. he was so nice, I thought he really cared. But, it was one of those at the wrong time situations. He was with the most popular of my class and when he and his friends found out..it was.."
I pause. I'm not ready to face it.
"It was about the time when the class a year senior than mine started working with us. It's when Aiden started to get to know me. I know this sounds particularly odd but I think just him being there, his presence, calmed me."
"You knew him didn't you?" Fuuma asks a tad to calmly.
"What?"
"You. Knew. Him. And you didn't tell me."
I gulp. Fuuma's voice is far beyond dead serious; it has an air of eeriness to it. I'm trying my hardest not to shake from his tone.
"No, it's not like that."
"Then, Kamui, pray tell why you didn't tell me or anyone else for that matter that you knew him. That the man that caused this to you and has been stalking you was in your life before."
"Please, Fuuma, it was an accident. I wasn't looking where I was going"
A snort.
"Fuuma.."
"For crying out loud Kamui, there is such a thing called a brake that stops the car from moving. And you didn't need to run."
The last of my patience has now flown out the window as his words play in my mind. I snap.
" I was running because of you! Get out!"
My body shakes horribly as I stare wide eyed at Fuuma not knowing whether the words that came really meant something or not. However, for now I need to clear my head and his accusations are not helping me.
"Fine."
With that Fuuma stands and quickly walks out of the room. Although, not before I see the look of dread plastered on his face. My mind is once again racing with all that is going on, yet it is too much and before I can straighten anything out I pass out.
***
I open my eyes and am greeted by two things. By the warm rays of the sun and by the smiling face of the nurse.
"Good morning, sunshine," she says happily
"Morning," I reply
"I have some good news for you."
"Oh?"
"You've recovered quite nicely from those injuries of yours and you are now released from the hospital. You can change and leave."
"Thank you"
She smiles and says, "Just remember to take care of yourself and if you're not feeling well come back here."
With that, she finishes her chart checking and leaves to go see another patient. I slowly get up and bewilderedly get dressed. All of this is so sudden and because of last night I don't want to go back to where Fuuma and Kotori are. I take one last look at the room and swiftly walk out. As I get outside I let the sun shine down on me wholly, a feeling that I have missed. Making up my mind I decide to go home. I need to go back there anyways and face the music so now is as good as a time as ever.
I make my way home and notice that even with everything that has happened I've missed it there. I guess the warmth of my mother and aunt still dwell there and to me that's always a lovely thing to be wrapped up in. Without realizing it, I run home and thankfully before I know it I arrive. After getting the mail and checking the messages and such I finally arrive to my destination. The living room. I plop down onto the couch and smile happily at the room. A room that I've quite missed since being away from home.
I relish in the feeling of being in here for a few more moments before I turn on the television and start to watch some odd game show. My eyes start to drupe as the contestants try to win a family vacation to some place or another. I move to lie down but I stop and jolt up. The doorbell has gone off. Wondering who would come to see me and who even knows I'm home I open to door and smile.
It's Subaru.
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