Chapter five: A serious thought
A/N: Whew! Glad to see most of you enjoyed this chapter! I was afraid I had lost my touch! Hopefully you all will enjoy this next chapter too. I'm still not exactly sure which way I'm going with this whole adopting thing. The way I am I want to please everyone...but some people are saying "No don't give them a kid it'll mess everything up!" then the rest are saying "Aww! I'd love for them to adopt a child! It would be so cute!" -sighs- Who knows?
The next morning the bright sun shone through our living room window, and I opened my eyes slowly. I hadn't realized it until now, but Shuichi and I had fallen asleep halfway through the day and I was just now awakening. I rubbed my eyes with my left hand, I couldn't feel my right arm since Shuichi was asleep on it, and then sighed slightly as I looked to my lover. I couldn't help but smile a little when I saw him.
His mouth was open a bit and he was breathing heavily. It was almost too cute to bear and I leaned down, pressing my lips against his and sliding my tongue into his already open mouth. I wanted to wake him up and I smiled a little as I kissed him. I felt him pull away slightly from reaction before wrapping his arms around my neck. It was then that I pulled back, only to see him pouting.
"I just wanted to wake you up not have sex, you moron." I muttered before standing up and walking to the kitchen. I heard a faint whine from the living room as I grabbed the coffee from the counter and began making some. I then heard Shuichi enter the kitchen but I didn't bother to turn and look at him. What he did next surprised me...I wasn't surprised by his action...but how I felt.
His arms wrapped themselves around my torso and he leaned his head against my back. We remained that way for a few seconds and I suppose I had many mixtures of emotions running through my head. I wanted to hold him against me, kiss him and tell him everything would be fine. I couldn't promise him that though...if one guy was after Shuichi...who else would be? It was then that I turned to him, only to see that adorable face smiling up to me. I rested my hands on his shoulders, wondering if I should actually discuss this with him.
He was an immature brat after all, he might start crying or something...oh well...I'd talk to him about it some other time then.
He continued looking at me, blushing slightly and I found myself smirking. I then laughed a little before kissing him for a brief moment then walking into my office. I sat down in front of my laptop and opened it, bringing up the newest file but leaving my door open and Shuichi following soon after me.
"Hey Yuki! What was that for? It looked like you really needed to tell me something..." he said to me as I started typing but out of the corner of my eye I noticed him walking toward me. "Come on Yuki..." he continued, resting his head on my shoulder and I automatically quit typing. I turned my head and buried my face into his hair and slightly inhaled. I loved the way his hair smelled, the faint smell of conditioner...it was great. But I couldn't tell him yet...
What I had been wanting to tell him was...the fact that maybe we should break things off. I don't know if the reason why the bastard beat him was because of me...in fact I remember that's what he said...he said that his wife spent so much time reading my books, she wouldn't spend time with him...
...it was all because of me...
I shut my eyes then, feeling like I was about to cry...for the second time in twenty-four hours. Shuichi was beaten because of me...and maybe it was wrong to blame myself for this but I just couldn't help it.
...maybe we did need to break up...
I pulled myself away from him and looked deep into his violet eyes. I loved him with my heart...I loved him more than my own life...and because of that undying love I wanted what was best for him. I just wanted him to be safe.
"Shuichi..." I began, looking away from him. "I think we need to call things off for a bit...if you understand what I mean." I finished and I felt his head lift from my shoulder. I couldn't bring myself to look directly at him. For an entire year I had never once thought about breaking up, and I know he didn't either. And what was killing me the most was the simple fact that he wasn't saying anything to me...just standing there. I could feel his eyes looking at me...and it was making my heart slowly break. Nothing prepared me for what he did next...
He simply walked out of my office...that was it...just walked. After he did I got up and slammed the door, locking it. I wasn't sure if he thought I was serious...and hell I didn't even know if I, myself, was. But after I locked my office door I walked back to my desk, looked at the picture of Shuichi and I...then cried. Yes, I'll admit I cried...I cried for a long time...
A/N: Whoot! Chapter five up! Sorry it took me so long! My dad made this new stupid rule that we only get an hour EVERY DAY to so EVERYTHING we need to do...it sucks...badly...so anyway that's why it will take me even longer to update. -bows- So sorry! ;
A/N: Whew! Glad to see most of you enjoyed this chapter! I was afraid I had lost my touch! Hopefully you all will enjoy this next chapter too. I'm still not exactly sure which way I'm going with this whole adopting thing. The way I am I want to please everyone...but some people are saying "No don't give them a kid it'll mess everything up!" then the rest are saying "Aww! I'd love for them to adopt a child! It would be so cute!" -sighs- Who knows?
The next morning the bright sun shone through our living room window, and I opened my eyes slowly. I hadn't realized it until now, but Shuichi and I had fallen asleep halfway through the day and I was just now awakening. I rubbed my eyes with my left hand, I couldn't feel my right arm since Shuichi was asleep on it, and then sighed slightly as I looked to my lover. I couldn't help but smile a little when I saw him.
His mouth was open a bit and he was breathing heavily. It was almost too cute to bear and I leaned down, pressing my lips against his and sliding my tongue into his already open mouth. I wanted to wake him up and I smiled a little as I kissed him. I felt him pull away slightly from reaction before wrapping his arms around my neck. It was then that I pulled back, only to see him pouting.
"I just wanted to wake you up not have sex, you moron." I muttered before standing up and walking to the kitchen. I heard a faint whine from the living room as I grabbed the coffee from the counter and began making some. I then heard Shuichi enter the kitchen but I didn't bother to turn and look at him. What he did next surprised me...I wasn't surprised by his action...but how I felt.
His arms wrapped themselves around my torso and he leaned his head against my back. We remained that way for a few seconds and I suppose I had many mixtures of emotions running through my head. I wanted to hold him against me, kiss him and tell him everything would be fine. I couldn't promise him that though...if one guy was after Shuichi...who else would be? It was then that I turned to him, only to see that adorable face smiling up to me. I rested my hands on his shoulders, wondering if I should actually discuss this with him.
He was an immature brat after all, he might start crying or something...oh well...I'd talk to him about it some other time then.
He continued looking at me, blushing slightly and I found myself smirking. I then laughed a little before kissing him for a brief moment then walking into my office. I sat down in front of my laptop and opened it, bringing up the newest file but leaving my door open and Shuichi following soon after me.
"Hey Yuki! What was that for? It looked like you really needed to tell me something..." he said to me as I started typing but out of the corner of my eye I noticed him walking toward me. "Come on Yuki..." he continued, resting his head on my shoulder and I automatically quit typing. I turned my head and buried my face into his hair and slightly inhaled. I loved the way his hair smelled, the faint smell of conditioner...it was great. But I couldn't tell him yet...
What I had been wanting to tell him was...the fact that maybe we should break things off. I don't know if the reason why the bastard beat him was because of me...in fact I remember that's what he said...he said that his wife spent so much time reading my books, she wouldn't spend time with him...
...it was all because of me...
I shut my eyes then, feeling like I was about to cry...for the second time in twenty-four hours. Shuichi was beaten because of me...and maybe it was wrong to blame myself for this but I just couldn't help it.
...maybe we did need to break up...
I pulled myself away from him and looked deep into his violet eyes. I loved him with my heart...I loved him more than my own life...and because of that undying love I wanted what was best for him. I just wanted him to be safe.
"Shuichi..." I began, looking away from him. "I think we need to call things off for a bit...if you understand what I mean." I finished and I felt his head lift from my shoulder. I couldn't bring myself to look directly at him. For an entire year I had never once thought about breaking up, and I know he didn't either. And what was killing me the most was the simple fact that he wasn't saying anything to me...just standing there. I could feel his eyes looking at me...and it was making my heart slowly break. Nothing prepared me for what he did next...
He simply walked out of my office...that was it...just walked. After he did I got up and slammed the door, locking it. I wasn't sure if he thought I was serious...and hell I didn't even know if I, myself, was. But after I locked my office door I walked back to my desk, looked at the picture of Shuichi and I...then cried. Yes, I'll admit I cried...I cried for a long time...
A/N: Whoot! Chapter five up! Sorry it took me so long! My dad made this new stupid rule that we only get an hour EVERY DAY to so EVERYTHING we need to do...it sucks...badly...so anyway that's why it will take me even longer to update. -bows- So sorry! ;