Chapter eight: You're my immortal
I entered the hospital, asking the attendant which room Shuichi Shindou was in and then heading toward the elevator once she had told me. It was room 263 and as I pressed the button for floor two, a certain thought struck me. It was a memory that you wouldn't normally remember...
...Shuichi and I were coming back from the recording studio. He had just gotten done and I was picking him up because I had the time. As we were driving back to our apartment, Shuichi had already turned on the radio. I usually don't listen to much music, it sometimes puts me in a worse mood, and I couldn't help but roll my eyes. Shuichi laughed a little, gently squeezing my arm for a moment before speaking.
"Oh come on Yuki..." was all he muttered, giving me that warm smile I enjoyed. I shrugged, letting him go ahead and change it to his favorite station. I knew which one it would be...it was a certain station that played a bunch of American songs that I had never heard of unless Shuichi was blasting it while he was cooking or something along those lines.
Right when he turned it to that particular station, his favorite song came on. Shuichi always talked about this one song, that's how I knew it was his favorite. It was a tune by a band called "Evanescence" and the song was a slow one called "My Immortal". As my boyfriend began singing, little did I know how those certain lyrics would affect me...
I looked up to the roof of the elevator, only two other people in with me, trying to stop my tears as I remembered those words.
I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating life Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along ------------------
And in a way these lyrics mean everything that was going through my head right now. I wouldn't be able to live without Shuichi, and as I remembered certain events from out relationship I couldn't take it anymore. I no longer cared if there were more people with me now, the tears came, running down my face in at an uncontrollable speed. I was losing Shuichi, I could just feel it. I always "fought away his fears" and "wiped away all of his tears" when he needed me. Now I wished that he could do the same for me...I can't let him leave...
As the elevator doors slowly began to open, I shoved my hands between them, forcing it open and began running down the hall to room 263. There was a window before the door and the sight before me made me stop myself abruptly.
My boyfriend was connected to many wires, an air mask over his mouth and I saw his chest barely moving. He was covered in bandages but they were stained with a bright red color, his blood. I touched the glass, my hand touching where his face was and I then made a fist with that same hand, slamming it against the glass. I pushed the door open and stood there. I thought it was bad to see Shuichi from the outside but this...was just too much to see.
I had a difficult time taking in all of his features because my vision was so blurry. I walked slowly to the side of his hospital bed, letting out sobs as I did so. Sobbing...I hadn't made noise when I cried since...that night with Yuki...I shook my head. Yuki wasn't somebody I wanted to think about right now...Shuichi was the only one on my mind. I took his limp hand in my own, looking at his closed eyes and wishing I could see the violet orbs beneath them. I laced my fingers between his and laid my head on his chest, right where his heart was. I heard it slowly beating and I shut my eyes, allowing the sheet underneath my face to get wet slightly before I spoke.
"Shuichi...I can't lose you...you're still here but I feel like I'm alone. I hate this feeling...and I don't want it to become reality." I began, wiping my eyes with my free hand as I lifted my head from his chest. I looked at his face once more, brushing away a small lock of pink hair with a finger. "If I was there I would've been in this situation not you...I'd have done anything to save you Shuichi..." I bit my lower lip as I began the next part of my talk to him. I pulled out the ring box that was in my jacket pocket. "You can't leave me because...I bought this for you...Shuichi...I want to make our love permanent, legal. I love you." after I had finished I realized it was the first time I had said that simple statement to him...and he wasn't conscious to hear it. I wanted to repeat it...but I would wait until he was aware...
I placed the box back into my jacket pocket when I heard someone entering from the door behind me. I turned around and came practically face to face with a man about my size. He was bald, however, and wore thick rimmed glasses. He was wearing a long white gown type thing and carried a notepad and a folder with a bunch of papers in it. I figured he was the doctor and he looked surprised to see me in here. He nodded to me before beginning to check all of the machines.
"Can you tell me exactly what it is that's wrong with him?" I asked, him still not looking at me as he began speaking.
"Well, sir, I can only give that to family members and you--"
"I'm his boyfriend that's family enough am I correct?" I questioned as I cut him off, him giving me a strange look when I said boyfriend. He nodded once more, it seemed like he enjoyed doing that, before replying.
"He has a lot internal injuries, bleeding and such. When he fell he took a blow to the head and has some head trauma. He also has a broken leg and a fractured elbow. Whoever hit him obviously had no heart. Some friend of his brought him in here and we're going to take care of him don't you worry." he finished, smiling slightly before leaving. I was going to stay here until Shuichi awoke and then until he left. Nothing could make me leave now...
A/N: Yay! Finally I've gotten my next chapter up! Its because my dad got a new laptop and since its high speed I've been playing on that but have all my Gravi stuff saved on the slower one (aka this computer...--). So now I've got chapter eight up...I got a request (or maybe more than one -scans reviews-) to have longer chapters and I hope this one was long enough. I think it was super long because I had the lyrics for My Immortal too but oh well. Again, I hope you were listening to "My Immortal" because it REALLY gets you in the mood for the chapter. I still haven't decided if I'm going to kill Shuichi or not...-ducks from flying objects- ONLY KIDDING!! -sighs when they stop- Alright you know what to do.