Perfect illusion
-KizuPL
A/N: Hello! I have updated! Okay, this chapter is lighter and poems... I don't like them much. If you don't like them too, say it and I'll remove them. And Naruto will be mature - inside and then outside. I wanted to say this story has been read by my beta, but... My beta didn't send me back my chapter. That's why this chapter can have mistakes (I apologize! Don't hurt me!) and it can change.
Warning: OOC, little Sakura bashing, hints of shonen-ai but not completely - don't like, don't read
Disclaimer: Like I said I won't write! Go to first chapter.
Summary: What if Naruto we know is just a disguise? Who is Naruto in reality? [Sasu/Naru] [Gaara/Naru] [Neji/Naru]
Important: Well... This is my second story and it's different from my previous one. In this story members of Team 7 are 15 years old. Again it's somehow Naruto POV, but later I can change it. I'm not very good in writing in English, but I hope you will understand my story. If I made any mistakes please don't blame me too much. Please review, I would be very happy even if it would be an abuse.
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Chapter 1: Who am I...?
I look into a mirror and I see what they see
I look at my reflection in water and I see what they see
I look into eyes of my reflection and I see nothing real
I'm such a good actress it scares me a little
So I - Uzumaki Naruto - am a girl.
I bet no one could think about it. And they all think they know everything about me. Heh. Morons. But I'm a good actress.
Anyway, the life of 15 years old girl pretending to be a boy isn't easy. Not at all. And it's not my fault that I'm pretending to be a boy. Most of it it's Kyuubi and villagers fault. First of all I have always knew that I'm a vessel of that damn fox. And I'm pretending, because Kyuubi is a horny demon that wants to have a mate. If he knew from beginning that I'm a girl he would made me his mate.
Demons are such a weird creatures. They have to mark their human mate before she, or he is seven years old. I don't know why. It's their law. I remember that when I have first time meet Kyuubi, he told me that. I was four years old and I've seen him in mirror. It freaked me out. Each time I think about it I want to laugh.
I was in my home away from villagers and I was mad they have thought I'm a boy. I came to mirror and started wondering why do I look so much like a boy. I had short hairs, but longer than now - I hoped than if I had long hairs villagers won't mistaken me for boy. And I really looked like a boy.
It was so annoying!
Then in one moment I was looking at my reflection and in another I was looking at someone completely different. It was a male. And when I think about it now - a handsome one. He had long red hairs, red eyes with vertical pupils, fangs and long nails like cat. He was taller than me (I bet he still is. Damn!) and had weird clothing. He looked at me and snarled
"You." I was... surprised to say at least.
"Me?"
"What do you want?" Now I was really dumb headed.
"..."
"God, you don't know, don't you?" That got me curious
"About what?"
"About me of course." Seeing my blank face he continued "I'll say it one time so hear carefully. I. Am. Kyuubi." I was shocked
"What?" I couldn't believe
"You don't know who am I?!" That got him angry so I quickly neglected it
"Of course I know who or what Kyuubi is! Kyuubi is the Nine-Tailed fox demon sealed in me." Now he looks surprised.
"You know that much? How?"
"Well, I'm very good at being quiet when I want. And I can sneak on people, to hear them talking about lot of things they shouldn't." I grin mischievously and to my surprise he seemed pleased. "But..."
"What now?" Now he sounded annoyed . I came to conclusion that he's moody.
"Aren't you supposed to be a fox?" I was sure he would be a terrifying, giant furball.
"Well, this what you see is my human form. We, demons, are changing into humans when we want to find a human mate." Okay... I did understand what mate meant. But I didn't understand why...
"Human mate?"
"We demons can have children's with other demon, or human. Usually it's human because we demons don't get along with each other's. In my case it has to be a human girl in age below seven years old."
"Why?"
"Because I have to mark her and I can't do this if she's older than seven."
"Why?"
"It's just how it has to be!" He sounded annoyed "It's real shame you're boy. You could be my mate. Don't call me anymore." He said and disappeared. For the first time in my live I was happy I looked like a boy. Especially because I was sure that a demon mate had to do everything that a demon wants. So I started thinking more like boy, I cut my - not so long - hairs and pretended to be a boy. I knew than if he would spot that I'm girl before I'll be seven he would make me his mate.
Everyone is sure that I'm a boy. Besides Third. He knew because he was taking care of me when I was a little baby. Even Kakashi and Tsunade don't know. And why everyone think I'm a girl? First: I think my parents thought I'll be a boy, so they give me a boyish name - Naruto and I looked like a boy. Second: After talk with Kyuubi I told Third that I want to look like boy. When he asked my why I said it's because girls don't have good training. All they were doing was learning about flowers and boys were learning how to fight. Actually it was my second reason. If I wanted people to recognize my existence I had to be taught how to fight. He bought it and gave me seal.
It's called Sandaime Henge no Fuuin (1). It's complicated seal and you can't see it but it's there. And it works pretty easy. If I want to be a boy I am a boy and if I want to be a girl I am a girl. But when I'm really low on chakra I'm returning to my real self - it happened couple of times but luckily no one noticed. It happened when in Wave country I was training too hard and... Well I fainted. That time I meet Haku, he hasn't noticed. I was really shocked when he told me he's a boy. The other time was when Orochimaru put seal on me - Sakura hasn't noticed and when Choji woke me up I was in my boyish form. The worst time was when I was fighting with Gaara after Gambuta disappeared. After we were on ground I changed in to a girl. I was sure Gaara or Sasuke would notice, but luckily for me I have just hit the puberty and my breasts weren't so noticeable in my jacket.
And I have a lot of luck, because even after Thirds death this seal is still working. From other side the look on everyone faces when they mould find the true would be hilarious.
When I was little, I wanted to be myself
I wanted people to know who I am
But now I came to conclusion that
They wouldn't want to know me - that brat
Puberty... Another reason why I dislike being a girl - aside being so... soft in touch, the fact that boys think we're weak (unfortunately most of us is) make my blood boil. And when I think about the fact that I could be like most of girls (screaming, flirting, noisy, stupid schoolgirls)... It gave me creeps! And PMS isn't nice.
That's why until last month I was always a boy. I really didn't mind. Being a boy it's cool experience. I've always known which girls are liked, why and if not, why not. I've also known that Uchiha Sasuke was - and still is - the most hated boy among boys. Girls 'loved' - and still 'love' - him. Although I don't know why. Sure, he's good looking, but that's all they know about him (to love guy for his look? Give me a break). I mean I have always thought he's a jerk. Now, when I know him better, I know why he's acting so cold. It's not because Itachi killed all members of his clan - I've always known about that - but simply because he's afraid of loving someone.
But now... God! Being a boy is horrible! My boyish me just hit puberty! Girl hormones boy hormones = BIG troubles. When I first time had an erection... God, I wanted to disappear! It was so embarrassing! I was looking at my best friend and then boom!
That's why until we're at mission I'm girl in Henge no Jutsu. It helps. I can't be a girl without henge. Sure, my hairs are short, but... I look almost like in Sexy no Jutsu. I have to replace long ponytails with my boyish hairs and that's how I look.
And I think my hormones will kill me one day. Mostly of my free time (no missions, no training - like when I want to sleep) I think about guys. How nice they look, or how nice they're, or how would it be to be their girlfriend. Creepy. And the most creepy part is the fact about which boys I'm thinking about: Neji (handsome), Gaara (creepy but...), Sasuke (good looking), Shikamaru (smart and quite good looking) and Kiba (I really don't know why). Well, if that was all I could handle it. But noooo. I have to think about enemies too! Like Orochimaru (He is handsome - even if he's evil), Kabuto (Just like Orochimaru and he was nice to me - not many people do that) and Itachi. Well, that somehow doesn't bother me that much. I think it's because he looks like Sasuke a little bit and he's really beautiful... Those long hairs, delicate features, nice body, strength... Damn! I have to think about something else! I know! Kyuubi! Luckily I don't think about him in 'those' terms.
I remember that after my seventh birthday I told Kyuubi truth. He was so furious and it looked so comic that I couldn't hold back and I laughed. Hard. After that incident he was so offended that he break our contact. Since that time I haven't heard him. I mean, sure we talked when I was falling down from that cliff Jiraiya had pushed me, or when I wanted his strength, but earlier we were talking almost every day! About how nice it would be to kill those villagers, how I'll beat the hell out of Sasuke, when I'll show him my real strength, or how Iruka-san was nice, even if I hate ramen .
And yes. I do not like ramen. I eat it because it's cheap and it suit my boyish me. I like vegetables, fruits and rice balls.
I remember when Mizuki have told me about the Kyuubi. He thought that I didn't know. I knew and I had to pretend that I didn't. It was quite funny to watch my play. Oh yeah, I'm a good actress.
Or like that time when that Konohamaru brat showed up. He's funny kid, but sometimes he annoys me to no end.
"Earth to Naruto!" Ups. I think I spaced a little bit. Show time!
"Sakura-chan! Ohayo!" To say the truth she annoys me. First I really liked her, but then... She's acting like bitch for almost all time!
"You're acting like a dobe, dobe." We both know it's just an act. But he doesn't know that Naruto he know is an act too
I have to pretend and I hate to do so
But if I won't, my cover will blow
And I can't let it happen simply because
They could not accept me and I can't take refuse
"I'm not a dobe, Sasuke-teme!" Now we quarrel until Kakashi shows up. Which should be any minute...
POOF
Exactly.
"Ohayo! Sorry I'm late but my watch didn't woke me up on time and then there was a little baby fox who--"
"Yeah right! Stop lying already!" We both scream like we had.
"Stop it. You're too loud dobe." Now that's new.
"At least I'm not a bastard!" We continue our quarrel just for fun.
"Now, now, gentlemen's. You shouldn't act like married couple."
"WHAT?!" This time all three of us scream and I can see that Sasuke is annoyed by this comment - just like Sakura and I- and he's trying to hide his blush - as well as I.
Wait.
Blush?
No. It looks like it was my imagination or hormones. Or both.
"Anyway, we don't have a mission. But... Naruto and Sasuke have to report to Hokage. See you!"
POOF
Now that was... unusual.
"Well, I think I'll be going home as well. Bye Sasuke-kun!" I dislike her.
"Sakura-chan! Wait! You could go with --"
"She's gone Naruto." I know.
"Oh. Well then we should head to Tsunade shouldn't we?" We both smirk and quickly go to Fifth place. We're at place really quickly and I can see Neji and... Gaara? I wonder what is he doing here? Maybe it has something to do with Chuunin Selection? From what I know this year it takes place in Suna-gakure (Hidden Sand Village)...
"Good you all are here." It's Tsunade. Now I can see Lee, Temari, Kankurou, Shino and Kiba. Well I have sensed, heard and smelled them earlier, but I couldn't see them. "You all are assigned too Chuunin exam which will begin in three months from now." It looks like I was right. "It'll take place at Suna-gakure and those three Genins will show you the way." So that's why Gaara and his siblings are here. "Your Genin instructor will be at place. You all go tomorrow with them." That can be interesting. I've never been in Suna-gakure. I've been in Kiri-gakure (Hidden Mist Village), Ame-gakure (Hidden Rain Village), Taki-gakure (Hidden Waterfall Village), Hidden Stone Village and Hidden Cloud Village but never in Suna-gakure. Heh. I can learn a lot of new techniques there.
Wait... It'll be a mission, so I'll have to be in my boyish form... Not good.
"Only us?"
"Yes Neji. Only six of you were accepted. And... One of you has to go as girl. I'll choose one of you. Understood?" They nod their heads. But...
"WHAT?! Why do we have to do something so stupid old hag?!" If it'll go with my plan, she'll choose me. I can see she's smirking. That's good sign.
"It'll be Naruto."
"WHAT?! You're kidding! There's no way I'm changing into a girl!" Perfect. My plan has worked. Now I don't have to worry about boyish hormones.
"Yes you're or say good bye to Chuunin level." She sure knows how to make her point. If I really would be that boy she thinks I am it would have worked. I'll agree. Not because I want to be a Chuunin (I won't die without this level), but because I don't have to use up my chakra. After Thirds death this seal suck to much chakra for long missions and I could change into my real self. And I don't want it. Yet.
All my feelings that I show in my eyes
Are noting more than a lies
My real feelings are much more darker
More greedy, evil, with lust for kill and power
"BUT--!" Heh, I have to pretend. Actually, it's funny.
"No buts! Temari will help you. Okay. Everybody beside Temari and Naruto are dismissed." She says to rest of guys. They bow lightly and disappear. Now she looks at me. "Naruto, change into girl." I'll just change in me.
POOF
Now in my place is real me. In clothes of course.
"Hmm... It looks realistic." Of course it is. "But... Make your hairs longer." You sure have many demands. Henge!
POOF
Hmm... My hairs are shoulder length.
"That's better. Come here." I don't like it, but I came closer. "SEAL!" OUCH!
"THAT HURT!" Not really. It just was unpleasant.
"Now you can't change back until you came back. And you don't have those whiskers. Oh. Your name will be... Naru Mizu (2) and don't worry. This seal doesn't use your chakra." That's even better. But wait... I can't change myself back?
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN I CAN'T CHANGE BACK?!" Of course 'Naruto' doesn't like to be in this body.
"Now Temari will teach you how to behave like a girl. You all are dismissed." Like a girl? She mean I'm supposed to act like Sakura or Ino? It's so troublesome. But hey, it can come handy in future. And it can be quiet funny.
"NOOOOO!!!!!!" Heh. I'm the best actress Konoha ever had and people doesn't know it.
This Chuunin Exam looks really promising.
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(2) Umm... It supposed to mean: Thirds transformation seal, but I'm not sure if it's correct. If someone knows for sure say it and I'll change if it's wrong.
(2) Okay, okay I know it's not original, but I can't think up a better name! (If you can and I'll like it I can change it)
Hmm. It was supposed to be a light chapter?... It looks like it's not. Oh, well. It's not so bad. And my poems... I change my mind. I like them! And this chapter is longer than I suspected.
Anyway, do you like it? Should I continue or not?
I would love reviews!