A/N hey guys!! im baaackkk!! lol. sorry for the absense. my computer had a virus so we got a new one and now i'll be able to update everyday!!! well im so sorry about everything but i promise that i have some good stuff for the faithful Journey fans! im working on a new story that i will debut now to you (tell me what you think... i already have 5 chapters written!) and i will update my other story Our Miracle. but that may take a little longer considering that i am planning some shockers for you!!!

well here is the first chapter of my new story.

Oh yeah its in Jason's POV!

So the secrets out. Sonny told Carly that he is the father of Sam's baby and that I'm not. I know that Carly is going to be angry, but she loves Sonny and she'll go back to him. If not for herself than for Michael and Morgan.

I asked Sonny to let me tell Courtney. I didnt know what to expect when I went to the loft that day, but what I didnt expect to happen.... did.

I knocked on the door to the place that I once called home. She answered and I knew immediately that she was over dressed to just be sitting at home. Either she was going out or someone was with her. My question was answered a little later on.

"Jason," Courtney said as she opened the door. She didnt look thrilled to see me, but I wasnt surprised.

"Hey, uhh there's uhh there's something I need to tell you, and it's kinda important. Do you have a minute?" I asked, wanting for her desperatley to say that she had all the time in the world for me, as I did for her.

"Jason Jason Jason. I should've known it would be you who interrupted our romantic dinner. Come to win the lady back?" Jax said as he approached us and slung his arm around Courtney's waist and went to kiss her neck. I had to look away. I didnt think that I could hate Jax anymore than I already did, but when he touched her....

"Jax come on.... dont," Courtney said as she pulled away. Much to my liking.

"Courtney come on yourself. Dont let your ex-husband of all people interrupt our dinner! We were just about to get to the dessert...." Jax said in an intimate voice as he went to kiss her something in me snapped. She didnt want to be touched and i wasnt going to let him touch her,

"Did you not hear her? Back off," I warned as Courtney walked through the door frame to stand with me.

"Just give us a second Jax. I'll be right back," she said and before Jax could protest Courtney had shut the door, leaving us alone. I immediatley burst into speech.

"Come on Courtney! That guy? Anyone but him..." Courtney cut me off.

"Jason you lost the right to be angry at men who show an interest in me. You lost that privlige when you signed our divorce papers," Courtney yelled.

And as usual, she was right.

"I just want you to be happy," I said, looking into her eyes. Big mistake.

"Why are you here Jason?" Courtney asked as she ran her hands through her hair, a gesture i was used to.

"I wanted to tell you before anyone else does. I need you to hear this from me," I said to her. I knew right then what her reaction to this would be and I was braced for it... "Sonny is the father of Sam's baby. Not me."

"But I thought you - I thought you said..." She looked down at her feet. Her voice got quiet. "So you lied to me."

Uh oh....

"I only changed the results because I knew that it was the only way for Michael and Morgan to have the family they deserve," I told her, praying that she take the news better than the signs she was showing. Just then her head shot up and her tear filled eyes locked with mine. There was no way I could ave looked away even if I tried. I think my heart broke in two right there.

"But forget about my feelings right!? Who gives a damn about how Courtney feels as long as Sonny and Carly are happy? You let me think that you had an affair while we were married! You had me thinking that I-I that you were going to be a father! You made me feel like Sam! Sam of all people could give you what I wanted so desperatley to give you, but couldnt. For nothing!" Courtney screamed. I went to walk over to her but stopped dead when I heard a voice that made my blood run cold.

"Im sure it wasnt for nothing," Lorenzo Alcazar said as he approached Courtney and me. Courtney was closest and defiantly trying to wipe away her tears. I stepped in front of her.
"I have to talk to Courtney, so if you please, this has nothing to do with you," Lorenzo said.