Perfect illusion

-KizuPL

A/N: Okay... I'm very sorry it took so long but: At first I was under impression of Evangelion (it can sound weird, but I haven't seen it before), than have tests at school - have to learn. And now... I was very sick - hey, I was even in hospital. I got some problems with lungs... Can you understand?! Thanks to that thing I have to learn more 'cause I have backlogs! GRRRRR! And it makes my life a living hell. Then my keyboard broke and I had a hard time in finding new one (I have an ooold computer and old type keyboard), then I had problems in my personal life... Argh! That's why it took me so long to update. Oh, well. Never mind. Just read. Pretty please? Oh. And here will be some others POV's .

Warning: OOC, OC, little Sakura bashing, hints of shonen-ai but... Naruto is a girl here so it's at the same time not. But others don't know so it is. But at the same time not... Um... Am I making any sense?

Summary: What if Naruto we know is just a disguise? Who is Naruto in reality? Sasu/Naru Gaara/Naru Neji/Naru

Thanks to: all people who sacrificed their time to review.

Special thanks to: SSJ4 Sailor Menz, Half-Devil, Alicia McCllelan and other which names I don't remember now (sorry if it's spelled wrong). Next time I'll be sure! I'll save reviews on disk and I'll have them at home.

One more time sorry for such long break!

Erm... Anyway, enough of rambling. Enjoy!

Chapter 4: Leaf in complete - time to rock!

The gates looked like walls of the sand castle and guards didn't seem to like us. I wonder... Does it have something to do with the fact that I'm jumping all over the place screaming 'Ramen'?

Anyway, after showing our passports the guards let us in looking at me weirdly.

I was still bouncing like an idiot when I felt familiar presences. Let's look closer... Oh. Leaf comrades. And wait. Isn't it--?

"Stop bouncing like a dobe, dobe." Thanks goodness! It took all my will not to jump at him from happiness, but I made it look like it took all my will not to try to strangle him.

"I'm not bouncing like a dobe!" And according to me they know, after a while I scream "And I'm not a dobe, bastard!" He just smirk. But thank god he's here. Near him I can drop almost all of my act.

"What took you so long? Our group is here since--"

"Ask our new friend - Naru." Kankurou... is he provoking me? "She just had to complain and slow us down."

"Oh, well, excuse me, but if I remember correctly it was me who was cooking." I said in sweet voice "Besides, a woman have to take care of her 'businesses' even in journey. But why do I even bother?! A boy like you can't understand a pain of being a woman." I said in Sakura's voice.

"By businesses you mean: taking baths, doing make up, etc.?"

"Kankurou..." I said in voice of annoyed girl. "Be careful, or next time it's you who is responsible for meals..."

"But--!" His face is white

"No buts!"

"But I can't!"

"Than stop making fun of me or you'll starve!!!!" I close the distance between us and our faces are almost touching. He's turning red. Time to finish him "Do we understand each others Kankurou-kun?" I ask in most sweetest and angelic voice. Now he's terrified. Not that I'm surprised... I'm starting to act like Temari when she's angry... Damn, I am mean. And damn, I love it.

"Y-yes." Oh... He's shaking. Poor little scared pervert. I smile widely.

"Good" I turn back to Sasuke and flash him my famous fox grin. I can se his surprised face - he didn't thought that I can act like a girl, didn't he? "Hey, bastard. Where is Temari-chan?" Not that I need to ask. She's right behind me if I'm not wrong.

"Don't know, don't care. It's your case." He smirks "Dobe."

"Hey!!! How many times I tell you I'm not dobe, bastard!" I want to 'strangle' him when

"Naru-chan! Good to see. How was a trip?"

"Temari!" I throw myself at her. "I missed you so much! The journey was horrible!" I looked at her "It was a disaster! How you can stand near those brothers of yours?! First of that pervert Kankurou-"

"I'm not a pervert!!!!"

"Was way to annoying! Gaara killed poor bunnies and wanted me to eat raw meat! I had to cook!" I say in disguised voice "I hate cooking! And Neji was no help..." I ramble more about it and then Temari stops me.

"But you survived and that's all that count. Beside I have to deal with it all the time... But it's already over you." She smile at me and pats my back. I stay quiet whining a little more, but quietly. Then I whisper in quiet voice, so only she'll hear "And They were staring at whole time..." She looks at me weird, but seeing I'm not fooling her, her gaze turn troubled... I wanted to know what was with that look

"Yahoo! We're again complete!" But I was interrupted by Kiba...

"Oi, dog-boy, shut up." Temari... Anyway, more of Leaf's appear. I can see everyone here. Every Genin I mean... "Okay, since we're all here will get going."

"Huh? Where?!" My face is puzzled. But... I think we'll meet our Jounin's instructors...

"To see your instructors" She say rubbing her temple.

"But! But! I haven't eat any ramen! And I want ramen!!!" I whine. I can feel smirk from Kiba, amusement from all of them. I think... It's about the time when-

"Dobe." when Sasuke will act. I whirl around at look at him "I. Am. Not. A. Dobe!"

"Sure, dobe." He says and starts wondering away

"Bastard!!!" I scream, but I don't really meant it... I glare at him one more time and then look at Temari. She started walking away and I "Temari-chaaan! Wait!" screamed and run to her. She smirked and slowed down until I caught with her. Then I smiled and started to follow her. But why I feel such itching on my skin? I take a peek behind me. Oh great it's them again... Grrr.... It's getting really annoying...

We're walking.... And walking.... And walking... How long? Five minutes. Well, time to act....

"I want Ramen..." I whine and tug Temari's sleeve. None reaction "I wanna Ramen." I whine louder. "Temari-chan. Raameen." I said and stopped, stopping her as well. She rubbed her temple and glared at me. I looked at her with my puppy-dog eyes "Ramen?" I asked innocently. She sighed.

"Later..." She said. "After your meeting with teachers." Suit me.

"YAY!!!!" I jumped happily at her and hugged her "I love you Temari-chan!" I grinned happily at her flushed face

"Cut it, you idiot." Was said from her. I sensed the rest looking at me weirdly, but I smiled and let go of her. I started walking faster, then turned to them "Come on, you lazy bums. We got to hurry. The faster we'll meet them, the faster I'll get my ramen."

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At last at the right place.... You wouldn't believe that Temari got lost. Oh god, I'm going to tease her about this till no end...

This place looks pretty cool. Although it was little disturbing that all villagers were glaring at Gaara and at us - because we were with him. It was almost like in Konoha... Fucking assholes.

"Here are yours instructors." Temari points at the doors before us. "Our mission ends here. We'll see each others tomorrow, before the exam." She turns and starts to leave this place as well her brothers. Hmm... I suspected that...

"NOOO!!! What about my ramen?!" I asked in 'devastated' voice. Temari turned her head to me and smiled.

"Oh, don't worry Naru-chan. I forgot to mention that we will be sleeping in the same room, since we don't have enough rooms for girls." I sighed with false relief. It will be cool to sleep with her in one room. Knowing my luck I wouldn't be surprised if I would be sleeping in the same room as Gaara or Neji... Sharing room with her and having some times without feeling theirs stares was a nice change.

"Cool! Well then see you Temari-chan." I waved to her. And I felt a sudden gaze burning into me. I looked there almost knowing what I'll see. Like I thought Gaara... "See you tomorrow Gaara, Kankurou." I waved to them also.

When they were out of my sight I smiled with relief. No Gaara. At last...

"You're coming or not... Dead-last" Sasuke asked. I didn't even realized that most of them were already inside... I quickly came through the doors screaming at him 'I'm not a Dead-last, you asshole!'.

Inside were two persons: Gai and this female teacher of Hinata. Her name was... Kurenai, if I remember correctly. I wanted to ask where the hell is Kakashi sensei, but...

POOF!

Oh, here he was. Late as always.

"Kakashi-sensei! You're late!" Hmm... Without Sakura it sounds weird... No matter how annoying and weak she is, it's fun to 'scold' Kakashi with her...

"Oh... Naru-chan please forgive me..." WTF?!

"N-N-Naru-chan?! Are you feeling all right Kakashi-sensei?!" I hear some stifled snorts and even laughs.

"My eternal rival, Kakashi..." Was mumbled from Gai.

"Kakashi, enough." Oh thank you! Kurenai-san! "Listen guys as you have seen... You won't be starting in your normal groups." Oh no. Don't tell me you're going to... "That's why we decided to group you." Fuck. Knowing my luck... I'll get parried with Neji. "I'll announce those groups right now. And Kiba..." Everyone looked at him and he was napping. "Pay attention." She smacked him on his head. Ouch.

"Kurenai-sensei..." He whined, but glare from her silenced him. Looks like she's not so bad.

"Anyway... First group. Team 3: Mizu Naru.." Oh shit. Everyone beside Neji, everyone beside Neji... Not that he's a bad team-mate. He's very skilled, good ninja and all, but I would have snapped under his gaze... Beside he could discover who am I really and I can't allow that... "Rock Lee..." Good. "...and Uchiha Sasuke" Hell yeah! God -if you exist- thank you! "Your sensei will be Kakashi and Gai. I don't think I need to tell you who's in the next tem, but just to tell you: you'll be Team 5 and your sensei will be me and Gai." Whoa, whoa... You mean Gai will be sensei of both teams?

Real shame I can't ask this question.

"Wait... You mean Gai will be sensei of both teams?" Sasuke winks at me. Yup. Still the same. We still think similarly... I answer with slight grin. Then I feel an intense gaze. I don't have to turn to know that it's Neji. But hey, I'm an idiot so I can't possibly feel his gaze...

"Lee, Naru and Sasuke! With my brilliant advices.." I turn his voice off. I know those speech's... Even if I respect him for his strength I still can't get used to his... behaviour. To say the truth all I want is to get out of here and sleep. God a normal sleep without Gaara's or Neji's gaze.... Then maybe train or talk with Temari or Sasuke...

"Naru..." That's Kakashi voice. Oops. Looks like I spaced a little... "You can go now." Go? Oh shit... Where to? This time look of utter idiocy on my face is real.

"Let's go Dobe." Thanks Sasuke.. You helped me. I scream my so well known 'I'm not a dobe!' And followed him.

Away from gazes of other I sighed with relief and relaxed. I smiled at him and he also smiled a little

"You weren't listening to Gai, am I right?" He asked with smirk. I nodded

"His way of talking pisses me off." I said. "Beside... I'm very tired after this journey." I say to him in tired voice. He looks at me with surprise and before he asks me I continue "Maybe you didn't noticed but the way Gaara and Neji were staring at me is really disturbing..." The dark look in his eyes says he noticed it "Beside I slipped near Neji..." I sighed again "The worst thing is that they were doing it secretly, so 'me' they know couldn't sense it. But I did and ARGH!" I said annoyed.

Sasuke patted me on shoulder and said "Well, you know..." He looked at me very attentively "You have a nice body" He said with a smirk. I glared at him and punched him half-heartily

"Asshole." Murmured. Then I remember something "Suke?" My nickname for him, when no one is in near

"Hmm?"

"You know... Since I didn't listened to Gai.... What are ours plans, meetings, etc.?" He chuckled "Don't chuckle, just say it asshole."

"Fine, fine Naru-chan..." He smirked, knowing it annoys me. I glared at him. "Temari will shoew you the way... And I'll tell you details when we'll meet again." He says and starts walking away

"hey! I don't know where my room is!"

"Behind you dobe..." He says and disappears.

"Oh..." I turn around and indeed, I see doors with Temari's name written at it. I knock softly.

"Is it you Naru?" Came sharp reply

"And who else sis?" I responded and I heard her chuckle. The doors open and I see her.

"Thought you got lost little one." She smirked. I came in and huffed

"I'm not a 'little one' you know? Save it for your lovers..." I smirked as she snorted. I looked around. The walls were white covered in some writings -something about jutsus, there was one big bed, a table with two chairs, opened doors and a kitchen, closed doors, bookshelves, and some wardrobe and set of shelves for scrolls. And of course the weapon corner. "Looks cool." I said and sat at the nearest chair. She seated herself on bed. Now I saw that her fan was not on her backs, but was in weapon corner... Very rare sight.

"And what you expected?" She said and I remembered rooms of Ino, Sakura or Hinata. No. Scratch Hinata. Her room wasn't bad. Was pretty nice. Seeing look on my face she said with disgust "I'm not like that Sakura girl." And I laughed

"Oh really? Then what about blushing at the sight of Uchiha?" She blushed, but then said.

"Hey, he has a nice body... I wouldn't mind sleeping with him." At this it was my turn to blush. "Oh... Poor Naru-chan... You're not used to it?" She said mockingly. And I bit back a curse. "Oh, I forgot. You're a virgin..." I blushed bright red

"Stop it already." I pouted. She laughed nicely

"As you wish honey... Now take a bath, because you stink." I glared at her, tossed most of my weapons and hitai-ate at the bed, walked to the closed doors and opened them. Yup. Bathroom. I washed myself -luckily her soaps and shampoos weren't smelling ones... I tugged myself in towel, my wet hair brushed with her hairbrush. I took my cloths in hand and came out. I dropped them.

"TEMARI!!!" I screamed. There was a boy. Nice looking one -I have to admit. Black, straight and long hair in ponytail, handsome face, slim body and ice-like eyes. Not blue and not white... Indeed, very nice looking. Wonder how- No! Bad hormones! Very bad hormones!

"What?" She asked from kitchen.

"H-H-Here's a-a-a... a boy!" She came to the room and looked surprised, then relaxed.

"It's just Yomi-kun. My.... kind of lover." She said. Well, that explained a lot. Wait...

"That Yomi?" I asked. She said that from time to time they were sleeping together... She said that he was a very good and experienced lover. I shuddered.

"Yup." She nodded. "Yomi-kun, I'm very sorry, but as you see I've a visitor. We'll sleep another time." I blushed at the way she said it. The boy - Yomi - made a face.

"But I missed you." He said leaning to her... When he moved? I looked at him one more time. Fuck. He got a hitai-ate on his leg... Sand shinobi. Great, just great... And his voice was deep and held a cold edge. And he was ignoring me. Oh wait... I have to act...

"Who cares!" I said angrily "Temari-chan is busy so fuck off, asshole!" I said and glared at him. He looked over me, his gaze felt... just like Kankurou's. Fucking great. I tightened my grip on towel. Temari sensed my discomfort and decided to step in

"As Naru-chan said, I'm busy. Beside tomorrow is the exam, so we'll see each other." Oh fuck... "So please, leave..." She said. He looked at her, then at me once again and sighed.

"As you wish..." He turned to leave and I sighed. Before the doors he stopped and turned to look at me. I felt a sudden rush of air. Wind Teleportation! (1) Quickly I took one of my remaining kunai's. In next second he was near me and I pressed the kunai to his neck.

"Move and die." I said glaring at him. Then I stepped away "And stay away from me, asshole." I said standing near Temari. He just smiled.

"I see... You're also a shinobi... I'll be looking forward our next meeting Naru." He said and walked away. At last.

"Sorry..." Was all Temari said. I didn't blame her much... "Let's sleep and try to relax..." I nodded, changed to some loose T-shirt she gave me and slipped under covers. "Night Naru-chan." She said yawning.

"Night Tem-chan..."

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It was a late night and I still couldn't sleep... I lay in bed thinking about everything and nothing... About my acting and stuff... About the Konoha and people attitude toward me... About my nightmares... And worst of all - about boys...Bad hormones...

I rose slowly and carefully not to wake her up and walked to the window. I opened it and sat on the windowsill. The night was cool and the air smelled different, but nice. I looked up to the stars and

When I sit alone in the darkness...
When my soul cry painfully...
Bloody tears flow from mine heart silently...
But my eyes remain dry and emotionless.

I smiled sadly.

------------Sasuke POV------------

He looked at the stars. His mind occupied with thoughts of his best friend- Naruto. How he wanted that everyone could see the real Naruto and not the 'dobe'... He knew how stupid it was... Impossible. He hates that Naruto has to act. It kills Naruto, he doesn't know it but it does. Naruto is starting to lose his emotions.

Sitting still in the dark room
With your flawless body, porcelain face
With glasslike eyes and pretty dress
You look like a perfect China-doll
And you look so lifeless that I want to mourn

But when painful memories flash before your eyes...
And you remember pain and hurt that you went through...
Those emotions reflect in your dead eyes and for a while...
They become... alive.

I know then, that you want to tear it off
This stupid disguise, this pretty mask
That you want to be yourself
But you know as well as I, that...
You can't

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I haven't even realized when I fallen asleep... I awoke when the sun rose. I stretched myself and yawned. I felt tired, but It'll pass after I'll take a shower. I looked at the sun and smiled.

Exam time...

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(1) Fuuton: Wind Teleportation. -->Genin level skill. Allows the user to quickly teleport to 20 meters. The opponent feels a sudden rush of air and thanks to that can know that it'll be used. Naruto can use it too.

Weird... Really weird... Anyway. Happy New Year, etc.

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