A/N Sorry its taken so long to update!! Ive been so busy with school and stuff, and this was a hard chapter to write, so I hope you like it!! Let me know!! Reviews... well you all know how i love them!! :) Here you go!

"Haven't you?" Alcazar choked out. I couldn't believe what I had heard, because for once in this man's miserable, pathetic life, he was right. I had been the cause of pain for Courtney too. So I let him down. "What's wrong Morgan? Realized something you should have a long time ago? Good. Do you get now that ever since you got together with Sonny's sister, she's had nothing but pain in misery in her life?"

"Shut up," that was the only response I could come up with. I knew right then that I couldn't kill this man, not until I got my chance to explain things to Courtney. Not until she understood that everything I do, is for her. So I walked away, from the man who kidnapped my best friend, from the man who kidnapped my wife, from the man that killed my child, and I was doing it for the love of my life.

At GH, Courts hospital room.

"Sonny, I'm so glad that we can actually speak now. Im sorry for everything, really I am," Courtney explained as I walked in on the brother-sister interaction.

"Oh good, Jason's here. Courtney I don't want you to worry about anything okay? And stop apologizing, it should be me begging for forgiveness after everything I said to you. I'm gonna let you and Jason talk, get better soon. My sons miss their favorite aunt," Sonny said as he kissed the top of his sister's head. That last statement brought tears to Courtney's eyes. Only I really knew how much she missed Michael and Morgan. "And Jason, you take care of my sister. Call me later," Sonny said to me, I nodded. Sonny made his way towards the door, and when he opened it, he was not pleased to see who was on the other side, and let me tell you, neither was I.

"Jax," Sonny said as he made to push him out into the hallway. But the candy boy would have none of that.

"I'm here to see Courtney," he said in that Aussie accent. I moved over and sat down on the side of Courtney's bed, making sure that Jax knew I wasn't standing for anything anymore. She was mine, even though I didn't deserve her.

"Courtney, would you like to see Jax?" Sonny turned his head to ask his sister the question I already knew the answer to. She would be too nice to send him away...

"Sure, but only for a little while. Im tired." I got up of the bed and went to leave, when she called me back, much to my surprise. "Jason? Could you stay please?" Was she scared of him or something. Had he hurt her when they were alone before? I had a million questions running through my head, if he had hurt her...

"Yeah, I wanted to talk to you about something anyways."

"Courtney, I would have liked to speak to you alone for a minute. There's something I want you to know," Jax rambled.

"My sister wants Jason here, Jax. He's staying," Sonny said as he let Jax pass by him and into the hospital room.

"Well your sister's ex-husband isnt gonna like what I have to say," Jax explained. Sonny just walked out after winking at Courtney.

"How are you Jax?" Courtney asked. This was really awkward for me. I kind of didn't know what to do with myself, so I stayed on the edge of my ex-wife's bed, and waited to hear what the man that I hated so much had to say.

"I should be asking you that? Am I correct in assuming that after your meltdown with Lorenzo Alcazar you and Jason shared some bonding experience over the loss of your child and are now back together?" Jax half-yelled. I wanted to get up and completely pummel him. Courtney must have sensed that because she grabbed my hand and squeezed it. I stayed where I was, glaring at Jax.

"Jax, Jason and I have something special. I thought we had lost it, but it's always going to be there. Even if neither of us want it to be. As for my break down, it was a terrible setback for me. Losing my child was the most horrific and painful experience of my life, and for you to word it like that... well, just leave Jax. You obviously don't know anything about me. Seeing and hearing Lorenzo talking about my child like that, it hurt me. And I reacted the only way I could think of at the moment. It was wrong, and I admit that. Now leave," Courtney said to him. I was silently rooting for her. And squeezing her hand back when I thought she would need it. She knew, somewhere deep inside her heart that I was there to support her, that she could lean on me.

"Courtney, I care more than I thought I ever could about you. You are that missing piece in my life. I need you. Remember when we talked about love, and second chances? Well you're my second chance. I know in my heart that I can make you happy. We could move away, out of Port Charles, to wherever you wanted. It wouldnt matter to me as long as we're together. I just, all of a sudden, I can't imagine my life without you in it. All of a sudden, you're the reason I want to get up every morning. I find myself just stopping and thinking about you during the day. And I know that you think about me. I know that you care, I can feel it everytime we kiss. I want to make love to you Courtney," I cut the candy boy's little speech off.

"Get out Jax, now."

"Jason, I told you that you wouldnt want to hear this. So you can either leave now, or wait it out and hear what I have to say." Jax told me, but his eyes were on Courtney. He made me sick.

"Jason, please," Courtney won out over Jax. She would win always win out over everyone. I moved back towards her and this time, stood next to her bed, with my arm around the bedstand. I wanted to be standing if Jax said anything derogatory or offending.

"Courtney, I wanted to tell you this alone..." Jax was, this time, cut off by Courtney.

"Jason is staying with me Jax. Im being nice and letting you say what you have to say. So, just do it and then leave," Courtney said as she winced in pain. Jax ran over to her side, but I was closer, and I was the one asking her the questions.

"What happened? What hurts Courtney?" I asked her, in a panic.

"Nothing, I just had a quick jab of pain in my stomach. The doctor said that would probably happen. Don't worry about it," she told the both of us. But I was worried.

"Are you sure? Just, let me get the doctor, I want him to check you out," I said to her as I stroked her hair.

"Jason, Im fine. Dont bother," she gave me a reassuring smile. And I knew I wasnt leaving her alone with Jax. So I relented.

"Courtney, are you sure you're alright?" Jax asked.

"Positive. Now say what you came to say."

"Courtney, I- I love you," Jax said. And he wasn't finished. "Look, you may not love me yet, but you will. You can learn to live without the mob, you can learn to live without Jason. You can learn to love me. I know you can. I know that I can give you a better life than Jason. There won't be danger, there won't be pain. Just you and me. Don't you want that? Don't you want me?"

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