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"Susannah,"
I heard Jesse say, it sounded more like he was choking on the words to me though. I guess he actually was choking on them since blood refused to stop dribbling out of his mouth, on to his chin. He wiped it away with a large but shaky hand. It seemed to take him forever to do that- wipe his chin, I mean.
Since Paul had gone, leaving Jesse to die, well, not die, seeing as Jesse was in fact already dead but to vanish. Jesse had regained some of his strength, it was like when Paul was here, he'd zap most of Jesse's strength, but when he wasn't like now, he seemed stronger but not by much.
I hated seeing Jesse like this. Weak, I mean. It might be because Jesse- in all the time I'd known him- had never been weak before. He wasn't the type to cower away from a fight. Heck, he'd even started one. Well, physically, he started it as Jesse did lay into Paul that time when I'd come up here as a fellow mediator, who had been tricked into sending Jesse to the Great Beyond-, had exorcised him but it most probably was because I loved him. I mean I'd practically fallen apart the short time Jesse had gone. I was a complete wreck. I even flung myself at Father.D for goodness sake, that's how messed up I was. I don't even know how I managed to get it together in time to save Jesse.
I looked at Jesse. I have no idea how I'd be able to cope with that again. It'd be ten times worse because I'd know that Jesse wasn't coming back. He wouldn't be able to and I wouldn't be able to bring him back. No matter how hard I tried.
All of a sudden I felt like crying. I was going to lose the only person I loved and would love in my entire life. "My one true love," as Madame. Zara had said. And she should know seeing as she's a physic. I mean, she actually told me I could see dead people. If that isn't proof, then I don't know what is. The only ones who know I'm a mediator, are other mediators, for instance, Father. D and Jack and even Paul, though I suspect Paul isn't just a mediator. Mediators can't transport people to Shadowland and make ghosts disappear at the click of our fingers, at least, I don't think we can. Obviously, ghosts know as well but other then them, nobody else knows. Nobody has come even remotely close to finding out the truth- except for my best friend Gina. She came with me to see Madame. Zara, that's why.
"Susannah, what did Paul say?" Jesse rasped, his gaze intense. I looked into his eyes and felt myself falling. Like I'd fallen hundreds of times before. I swallowed a lump that had been forming in my throat.
"Nothing," I lied quickly. I know, I know, I should've said something, right? Told him what was going to happen, but I couldn't. How was I supposed to break it to him, huh? How could I have actually told him he was going to happen to him? That he would die. Poor choice of words, I mean, "disappear" off the face of the Earth. Anyway, what good would it have done to tell him what would happen to him? It wasn't like Jesse could do anything about it.
I tried to make my face a mask of disguise. Okay, not that, but blank at least so Jesse wouldn't be able to tell something was wrong. I mean, Jesse did know me pretty well, he was one of the few people who I let come close to me, but it seems that was a mistake since Jesse won't even be here anymore. He won't be with me, standing by my side and helping me fight all the bad ghosts and Jesse won't be there to make me laugh at the end of the day when I've come home from a hard days work of school. He won't be there in my room engrossed in a book and he won't be sitting on the windowsill, petting that stupid cat of his, Spike.
He wouldn't be there.
"What did he say Susannah?" Jesse whispered again in a voice that can only be described as silk or velvet. It was deep but not gruff or anything. Perfect, that's what his voice was. But, you see, the problem with that is, that voice was Jesse's most persuasive voice and I usually end up telling him whatever he wants me to say, and what I don't want to say, I seriously do not want to say.
I opened my mouth to tell him it wasn't anything to worry about. That, you know, it was just Paul being creepy as usual, and he wouldn't disappear or anything and we'd find a way back to Earth in no time. You know, all the reassuring things that are said. Well, I wouldn't say he wouldn't disappear because that'd just arouse his suspicions and make him think something was wrong. Then again, Jesse already thought something was wrong if the anxious look on his manly face was anything to go by.
I opened my mouth again since I'd closed it whilst I'd been contemplating and said,
"Jesse, there's nothing to worry about," I told him in, what was meant to be, a reassuring voice. I doubt this worked, seeing as Jesse simply raised one eyebrow at me, in an "I don't think so" expression.
"No, really, there isn't anything to worry about," I stressed, "it was just Paul being creepy."
I was tempted to add, "which is nothing new" but I was kind of scared that Paul was be listening, and he'd come to finish Jesse off. That would suck. I mean, I wouldn't even be able to say goodbye.
What the heck is wrong with me? How can I even say goodbye when Jesse doesn't even know he'll be gone? I sighed and watched Jesse, who had now given up trying to get me to tell him what Paul said to me, which wasn't like him. To give up so easily, I mean. I guess he was tired, you know. After all, he was in the process of a second "death".
I reached out and took Jesse's large, brown hand into my own, creamy one. Jesse's eyes fluttered open briefly and he smiled a small smile of gratitude, giving me a short glimpse of those pearly white teeth, which were in pretty good condition for a guy who died in the 1850's. I stifled a sob as I watched him. I didn't want him to go. What would I do without him? How would I be able to carry on without Jesse, huh?
A tear made it's way down my cheek. I let it fall. Jesse carried on resting, unaware of what was going to happen to him. Another tear now trickled down my face.
Someone, help me, please.
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