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Summary

The charmed ones and Chris are trying to deal with the death of Chris

I know what a crap summay :P

"I was lying there, on mum's bed, it felt like,… like I could barely breathe, my Dad was there. I was so glad he was there. He was hugging me, wishing me to stay with him, but I was going, he couldn't have stopped it. It wasn't meant to be. I remember seeing Paige standing there, tears streaming down her face by the door. She couldn't even come into the room, she was so scared for me she couldn't face my death like I couldn't. He kept telling me to hold on… hold on… I couldn't I didn't have the strength… we told each other not to give up… but I did… I couldn't hold on any longer, I'm not as strong as they all thought.

"Just 'cos I have secrets, secrets I couldn't tell them, I was protecting them! Why didn't they understand?" Chris clenched his fist.

"What a beautiful story!"

"Clarence!"

"What? It's just the uh… 34th time I've heard it in the past three days. I must say you are a great story teller!"

"Clarence…"

"Hey! Now, when you move on, I go, but you're not moving on boy. Think of clouds and the sky! That worked for me!"

"You weren't murdered!"

"I never told you what happened to me boy did I?"

"No," Chris replied quietly.

"I was drowned by my own father." Clarence looked away slowly as he let Chris take it in.

"Oh," Chris turned towards him.

"Boy… I learned to get over that. Now you do!"

Chris walked through him into the hallway. His heart gave a lurch as a sister walked along the hallway pausing at Piper's room. Piper hadn't changed the sheets since he had died, she hadn't slept in their either. She was sleeping the living room currently, she couldn't bare to go upstairs. Paige called it afterbirth pains, Phoebe called it grief.

"Phoebe!" He cried "Phoebe…" She walked straight through him.

"Oooh!" She paused.

Paige walked from up the stairs and spotted her sister, "Hey sweetie what's wrong?" She asked concerned her sister swung round and stared at straight at Chris.

"He's here!" Phoebe seethed.

"Who?" Paige asked bemused.

"Chris! Chris is here!" She said irritated.

"Sweetie… Chris is in the nursery!"

"Not baby Chris bigger Chris!"

"No… he isn't…"

"I know he is!" Phoebe said softly.

"No…" Paige placed her arm comfortingly around her sister's shoulders, Phoebe squeezed her hand. Death never got any easier.

"I am, I am, I am! Phoebe you're staring at me!" Chris wove his arms in front of her face manically, "She can't see you, Chris." Clarence appeared behind him.

"Why not? She felt me!"

"That was her power, only she can feel you, even though it would only feel like a distant breeze to her."

"But she can feel me right?"

"Chris," Clarence sighed "You need to detach yourself from these mortals, there is nothing here for you any more!"

"It's just hard…" Chris walked away from Phoebe as she continued to argue futilely with Paige.

Piper sat downstairs with the Book of Shadows staring at the old yellowed pages, couldn't they bring him back from the past and stop him getting killed? He was used to time travel after all. No. That was stupid, then they would mess up the past, Piper wasn't sure she wanted that, it wouldn't have mattered apart from the personal gain factors. But what factors were she wanted her son back DAMNIT!

Both her sons were at magic school. They were safe there. Chris should have been there then he wouldn't have… the word choked Piper's heart. She hadn't admitted it for three days… she couldn't, he wasn't there was a way to bring him back!

"Just not in here!" She slammed the book shut. She put in on the coffee table in front of her.

Leo wasn't dealing well either, she hadn't seen him for two days, straight after the baby had been born and they had settled in back at home he had left to hunt down and kill Barbas. He hadn't helped her deal with it like had with Prue. He was too busy looking for revenge. Revenge was too easy. It would be far too easy to kill Barbas, but the pain, the loss the realisation they had to come to terms with would always be there. And it was those things that made Piper realise more and more, there wasn't a spell to bring him back, or they would have brought Prue back… Prue. She couldn't save her. Leo could have but then she would have…

Why was life so complicated?

Chris walked down the stairs steadily into the kitchen.

"Does my power still work?"

"Tell me, why did you ask that?"

"Because… I wanted to use it so they could know I was ok."

"Chris this is not detaching yourself…"

"Do they or don't they?" He asked angrily.

"No." Clarence replied plainly.

"Damnit!"

Paige looked at Phoebe who stood near Piper's bed touching the sheets desperately trying to get a premonition.

"Phoebe you don't get premonitions anymore!" Paige pointed out as her sister clutched the sheets.

"I know, but maybe if I really need one…"
"You mean want one!" Paige cut her sentence short.

"I am trying to bring him back Paige how you be so cold?"

"I'm not I'm just dealing with it!"

"How?" Phoebe asked her eyes brimming with tears.

"By letting go. He's gone somewhere safe and he has an angel of death with him!"

"How do you know that? How do we know anything? We know what other people don't know about demons and stuff, we know that no one is safe. How do we know that Chris has gone to a better place?" She asked hysterically.

Paige kneeled beside her holding her shoulders squeezing them gently.

"Grams doesn't seem too upset with it." She mused.

Phoebe shot to her feet.

"That's IT! Paige you are a genius!" Phoebe raced of the room running towards the attic to the Book of Shadows.

"Phoebe! Piper has the Book!" Paige yelled.

She grabbed her sister's arm as she reappeared down the stairs.

"You had better not be doing what I think you are doing!" She hissed.

"Oh, you bet I am!" And she jogged away along the hall down the stairs into the kitchen grabbing as many candles as she could along the way.

"Phoebe!" Her sister screamed after her as she ran out of sight.

Phoebe rushed into the Living Room where Piper sat with a blanket wrapped around her feet.

Phoebe kicked the coffee table out of the way and quickly placed the candles in a circle on the floor.

"What is this? What are you doing Phoebe?" Piper asked as her sister quickly lighted the candles.

"Summoning Chris."

"Phoebe… you're a…" Paige appeared in the doorway, "You're a genius!"

"Why thank you!" Phoebe grinned.

She walked over to Piper and took her hand.

"Ready?"

"Ok." Piper replied.

Together they chanted the well remembered spell.

"Here these words,

here my cry,

spirit from the other side,

come to me, I

summon thee,

cross now the great divide."

In the middle of the circle a shine of light glimmered and a body appeared.

"Chris?" Piper asked hopefully.

The light began to disperse…