If I just Breathe

Authors Note: I don't own the Teen Titans ... shame. I own Immojen however. She belongs to me. Oh and Ruby ... she's also mine. (c) Oh and Immojen's powers are like Pyro's .. I'm fully aware of that so all cred to Pyro... what a guy!

Chapter 7 - It's Cloudy but My Light Still Shines On You

I love him. I love him with all my heart dear, but what is the use of love when there is nobody to love you in return? All I ask of him is a hug in the morning and a kiss a night. 'Love is the flower of life, and blossoms unexpectedly and without law, and must be plucked where it is found, and enjoyed for the brief hour of its duration'. That's what Raven once said to me. At first I did not understand it, and I could not ask Robin for his help. I had to figure this quote out for myself, and once I had done, I kept it close to my heart. Everytime I saw him, I wanted to show him what I had found out, present to him with the thing I kept next to my beating heart.
I love him with all my heart dear, but what is the the use of love when there is nobody to love you in return?

I love him...

"I warned you Robin - "

"Don't Star, please I-" He knew what she was about to say to him. She had every right to. But he just wasn't ready to hear it from her just yet. He sat down on the bed, not daring to look at her.

She pointed an agressive finger at him. "NO Robin! You listen to me! You have gotten yourself into this mess for the second time! I warned you about Immojen but you still decided to take her side and banish me from the Teen Titan team! Banish me from my friends!"

"I know, but-"

"How could you Robin! You are my best friend and you just tossed me aside like an unwanted piece of pizza!" Robin, smiled inside when she said that. She was always making him smile. "I was trying to defend myself on that rooftop Robin," Tears rolled down her cheeks. "I never attacked her, she attacked me,"

Robin stood and took Starfire by the hands. She looked longingly into his masked face. She hoped his eyes were scanning her face. They were, all over. "I know Starfire. I know the truth. I've been such a jerk, but I am truly sorry Starfire. I was confused, I didn't know what I wanted, who I wanted. Who I loved. I know now,"

Starfire sniffed. "Do you? Do you truly know with all your heart? Because friend Robin, I am not sure you know what you really want,"

He wiped a tear from her face "Star, listen to me. I have always loved you. I just thought I loved Immojen. She showed me so much passion, so made me feel wanted. I've never ever felt that before. I felt great. Those past few days, with Immojen, she made me feel on top, you know, I felt needed,"

"You are needed Robin. You are wanted,"

"No Starfire, I don't mean by the group I mean-"

"I was not talking about the others Robin," Robin looked at her and smiled warmly, still holding her hands, "You have just described to me what I have felt every single day I have known you," Robin leant in and hugged Starfire. She hugged him back, holding him tightly. "Do not ever leave me again Robin," She whispered, only just loud enough for Robin to hear her. Her clutched her tightly, not wanting to let go, pressing his body against hers.

"Starfire. Did Slade," Robin took a moment to swallow the saliva that had been clogging his throat. He could barely ask the question he so needed to know. "Did he, hurt you?"

Starfire released Robin and looked hard into his concerned face. "No. I do not know what he did. He did not do anything to my knowledge. But, from what I can tell, he has not harmed me," Robin would never admit to Slade, or himself, but he was immensely grateful to Slade. Unexpectedly he winced and fell to one knee, clutching his stomach. Starfire fell to his aid, placing a hand on his shoulder. "Robin! Are you alright?"

Robin clenched his teeth, trying to block out the pain, hugging his sore stomach. "Y-yeah Star, it just, hurts a little," She helped him to the bed and he started to regain his lost breath.

"Is that what Immojen did?"

He turned his head to her. She didn't look angry. She showed no emotion at all. If the situation had been reversed, and it had been Immojen sitting there, she'd have spat out the name Starfire like it was venom itself. That was the distinctive difference between the Tamaran princess and the flame. She didn't need to hear an answer. She knew Immojen had inflicted the pain upon Robin, and inside it was tearing her heart to pieces. However, she respected that Robin still may have feelings for Immojen, and if he did, she needed to stay calm and collected for Robin.

"Please Starfire. I don't want you to be really angry with Immojen. She's," He paused. "She's had a tough time,"

"Robin she almost killed you and myself. She is not a nice person. But if these are your wishes then I have no other choice than to accept them. Why has she had such a tough time?" Starfire questioned. She was so beautiful. Her long, red hair fell down just below her shoulders with grace and her emerald eyes gittered with innocence, passion and love.

"I ... Ruby is her sister Star. She did what she had to do to save her sister. At first when she told me, I didn't want to show any remorse toward her. She'd caused so much pain. But then, as she continued, she reminded me of myself,"

Starfire looked at the Boy Wonder with concern. "I am not sure I understand Robin,"

"Star, you know my parents are dead don't you?"

Starfire nodded.

"Well, if I could I would have done anything to have been able to prevent their deaths. She was doing anything she could to save her sister's life. I know exactly how she feels. Except," He broke of. Partly because his stomach burn was becoming unbearable, and because he was finding it difficult to express his deepest secret to Starfire.

"Robin?"

"Except she pushed herself to save her sister. I just watched my family die,"

"Oh Robin you must not blame yourself! I understand that if you could have done anything to stop your family dieing, you would of. But you wouldn't have hurt people in the process of doing so,"

He turned and looked coldly at her. "Wouldn't I?" He watched as her mouth opened slightly in shock at what he had just said. She removed her hand from his shoulder and placed it on her knee. The door clicked open once more. Thinking their brief twenty minutes were up, Robin had forgotten to tell Starfire that Immojen would be back any moment to heal his wound. To late. Starfire watched her hated rival placed her head around the door.

Starfire's top lip, quivered. The blonde, stopped. She held in her hand some bandages and a small, white plastic bottle. She stared at Starfire. Starfire, stared back. Both young women stared at each other, but they stared with different expressions. Starfire's face portrayed aggression and fate and her face quickly grew dark with rage. Immojen's face briefly portrayed shock then, a small twitch of fear. Robin watched carefully, not really knowing the best way to break the tension. He held out his hand and placed the other on his hip, ready to justify to the both girls, when Starfire quickly stood up and pushed Immojen against the wall. Whatever wishes Robin asked of her, not to be angry toward Immojen were broken when her eyes met Starfire's. The bandages and plastic bottle, dropped to the cold floor, making an echo consume the room as they hit the ground. Immojen didn't defend herself as Starfire rammed her shoulder into the wall for a second time. Robin, quickly pulled Starfire away from Immojen.

"Starfire! Stop it!" He pulled her to the side of him and she wiped the corner of her mouth gently with her fingertips. She looked at Robin, apologetically and looked down. He straightened his back and raised an eyebrow toward Starfire.

"I am sorry, Robin. It is just she has hurt you and myself so badly. I just got angry,"

Immojen looked to the floor. He shot a masked glance toward the fire starter, who now hung her head and leant against the wall. She bent down to pick up the items she had dropped and passed them to Robin.

"I bought these Rob. It's all I could find," He took the bandages and white bottle and inspected them. "They're just bandages and antibiotics Rob," He eyed her.

"Thanks,"

"Need a hand with the bandages?"

Starfire quickly stood between the two and defended Robin against what she thought to be a challenge. "He does not need you to tend to him! I am quite capable of aiding Robin!" She felt a hand on her right shoulder. She looked quickly to see a black gloved hand that belonged to 'Apprentice Robin'. She turned and heard his strong voice.

"Star, do you even know how to bandage properly?" He smiled warmly at her. She looked glumly to the floor. She needed not to speak. He knew she had know idea how to tend to wounds using bandages. He'd have to teach her one day, she thought. "Immojen?" He handed her the bandage and she unfolded it.

She cleared her throat. "AHEM, Would you site down and lift you top up please?"

Starfire felt the hairs on her arms raise and she eyed the intruder, sitting behind her boy on the bed. Robin, carefully removed his black shirt. Starfire heard him wince and gasp for breath as he did so. She watched as Immojen took Robin's elbows and gently lifted them up into the air. She was so gentle. Starfire couldn't quite pull together this girl's true identity. Not twenty-four hours ago, she would have killed her and Robin for disobeying Slade, now she was tending to the wounds she'd inflicted upon Robin. Starfire didn't understand. When Immojen had finished wrapping the bandages around Robin's chest, she tipped out two antibiotics out from the bottle into her hand, and passed them to Robin who took them quickly and placed his shirt back on.

"Thanks," He said quietly, brushing down his shirt and straightening it.

"I only have ten minutes left Robin. Then I'm gone," Starfire stated, reminding Robin.

"That should be long enough,"

Both girls turned to him, confused. "Immojen," He continued "If we could get Ruby away from Slade and try to get you away too, would you be willing to help us?"

"Slade is very powerful Rob, no offence but I doubt even us three put together could take him," Immojen said sharply, however, her voice was tainted with disappointment.

"None taken. But I agree, he is too powerful for us three ... but Ruby. I think she could easily take Slade,"

Immojen eyed him. "What's in it for you? Freedom?"

"Justice."

The room filled with a cold, uncomfortable silence. Immojen broke it; "And how exactly? You disobey Slade and you get kicked a little and your buddies get their brains scrambled by Ruby ... I disobey and I simply get the same treatment Ruby had ... it wont work,"

"What did you have in mind Robin?" Starfire asked, lifting Robin's hopes.

"Starfire, when Slade comes to collect you; in about five minutes, you must go with him. Don't argue, don't struggle, just do what he asks, I don't trust his deal ... he could turn if you anger him. Also, make something up about last night and why me and Imm aren't there to the Titans ... I don't want them involved," Starfire nodded and Robin continued. "Immojen, you need to act like you still hate me right? Don't let Slade catch on about you and me resolving our differences. He must think you want me dead," Immojen nodded also agreeing to his instructions. "You must question Slade about Ruby as much as possible, simple questions to begin with; how is she? Can I see her, that sort of thing, then gently build it up to questions like; How exactly is she controlling people's minds?"

"What are you going to do Rob?" The flame asked.

He smirked "I've been aggravating Slade for years ... why stop now? By the time I've finished with him, he'll want release me. Then ... it really begins."

Dun dun dun! Another chapter! Sorry this one took soooo long but I started school last week and I've been up to my neck in homework so I didn't have time. Also, my laptop's busted and I can't get on the web so I had to put this on a floppy and put it on the PC downstairs (not as simple as it sounds, believe me!).

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