When you left it was like something in me died. Like my heart had died, like I would never be happy again, like my soul had left me, like every day was rainy, like I would never be happy again, like my life was over. I tried to once but, Lulu and Wakka found me, they stopped me, I almost did though, I almost left the pain of it all behind me, but they stopped me. They forced me to write this to say why I tried, to say why I wanted to leave. What should I say I missed being near you? I miss you touching me. The way you look at me. I thought this would be the other way, I was never prepared to lose anybody. I never expected to lose anybody, or for that matter to love anyone, to love you. I miss you, I acted like I didn't care, but I did, I do, I will always care. I lied to everyone pretended not to care, not to love you, but in truth I always loved you. Even in death I love you. I thought I would be the one everyone missed, never expected this to ache for your touch, to wish you could be mine, to wish I could see you again. Every morning I wake up and start to cry because I know you will never be mine, that I will never be able to hold you. When ever I think of you, or speak to anyone from the pilgrimage I miss you, the empty spot in my chest starts to hurt, and I remember you, I remember that you tried to save me, but it was you that needed to be saved, you that would die. I want you know that I loved you, that I will always love you, Tidus.
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