The insane musings of the authoress: Oh dear, I do seem to be going through a phase of short, character-centered oneshots, don't I? : -) Oh well, I suppose it doesn't matter so long as I remember to keep updating my other chaptered fics, huh?

Disclaimer: CCS is not mine.

Summary: 'Sometimes I think I love her because I don't know how not to.' Short Tomoyo oneshot as the faithful best friend muses on her love for Sakura-chan, and the reasons behind it.

For Sylphie, for working tirelessly at her translating, and, of course, for Lily. Can you believe we're free? We made it, babe! : -)

All I Know

Sakura-chan circles gracefully on her wand, seated calmly upon it. Those green eyes are narrowed in determination and her honey-coloured hair is pulled back from her face by the wind.

She looks radiant, and when she lands and I tell her that, she'll blush and laugh. She won't notice the deeper look in my eyes, the look of longing that goes far beyond the surface sheen of happiness, and I don't expect her to. He might, however. He is proving to be far more observant than I could ever have imagined.

But perhaps he notices the longing look in my eyes because his gaze lingers on her with that same hungry, desperate need.

And, in time, Sakura-chan will notice that he looks at her like that. I can feel it in my bones. I'm not a stupid girl.

Of course, she will never notice that look in my eyes.

Like I said, I'm not stupid.

And if the time comes when I have to stand aside and let her find her true number one, I will gladly stand aside. In fact, I greatly hope that she chooses Li-kun - there shouldn't be two of us wanting her hopelessly.

I can cope with wanting her hopelessly, as it's all I've ever known.

She lands, equally as graceful as she was when she was in the air, and runs over to me, waving her arms in delight.

"That was your best dismount yet!" I say to her, and she gives a great, beaming smile. It doesn't occur to me not to smile back. I smile automatically.

"You really are getting better with your flying practise," Li-kun says, and the beam grows.

There are times when I wonder whether I love Sakura-chan simply out of habit, but it is times like these which make me realise that I love her because she is Sakura-chan. I don't know how not to love her.

"You looked so elegant up there," I say softly, a hand clapped to my face, "I wish I could fly like that."

"I'll take you, someday, Tomoyo-chan," she promises brightly.

I look forward to it, but she obviously doesn't see that, just by smiling, or talking to me, or laughing, she makes me fly anyway.

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A.N. Argh! I just could not decide on the ending of this. Plus, after I wrote it, I had a long debate with myself over the title. Should I call it something to do with flying instead? Or longing?

But, hey, it turned out like this, with this title and this ending. I don't know whether I like it or not, actually, which feels quite weird! The length of it disgusts me, too, but I didn't want to make it long for the sake of making it long.

Shattered Midnight Dreams…zzz…

Because life's like that sometimes…