PART 34

Mulder told Skinner everything. He told him about the situation he and Scully were in and what had happened while they'd been separated. He told him about CSM and the people he had doing his dirty work for him. But he didn't tell him about Nacelles. Scully was not impressed, she wanted all the help she could get in finding her, Mulder keeping quiet was not helping. She would have told Skinner herself, but after her little performance about Mulder being able to tell Skinner everything alone she didn't want to make a fool of herself. She was fuming.

"I'm sorry Sir may I get some fresh air?"

"Agent Scully are you alright?"

"Yes Sir, I just feel a little dizzy."

"I'll meet you downstairs Scully." She didn't answer him she just looked at him as she walked out. She went straight down to their office and stood with her arms folded waiting for Mulder to come down after her. She couldn't believe he'd not told Skinner, she thought that she and Mulder had come to an understanding.

They had loved each other for seven years and were now taking a step to develop that love further, they were in love with each other. What was going wrong? It was their first day back at work and things were going pair shaped within the first two hours. After a few minutes Mulder sheepishly popped his head around the door.

"Is it safe to come in?"

"Mulder..."

"I know what you're going to say Scully."

"Really? Well then save me the breath of asking, you tell me why!"

"Calm down Scully!"

"I'll calm down when I have reason to be calm! What the hell are you playing at?!"

"Would you just listen for a minute!"

"What could you possibly say to make the hole you've dug for yourself any less deeper?!"

"You asked me a question, kind of, now let me answer!" She looked at him and took a deep breath; he too tried to calm himself down to lower his tone of voice. Shouting at each other was not what either of them wanted.

"Fine. Why didn't you tell Skinner about Nacelles?"

"Because you want to keep her if we find her don't you?"

"What?"

"You want to keep her as your own child, your own daughter to take care of, you think that finally the bds that made you in-capable of having your own baby have given you something worth while to look at. She loved you, you could tell by the way she acted around you, the way she responded to you, and everyone saw it. You want her for yourself, and I want her for you too. For us Scully."

"Mulder I just..."

"I know Scully. Come here." She walked over to him and he held her as she cried. Again the child that was but may not be any longer was causing her more heartache and pain. Nacelles had affected both Mulder and Scully's look at their lives. She'd be the icing on the cake for them. But things were never that simple. They didn't know where to look or what to do if they did find her. Scully looked up at Mulder and kissed him, they took every spare minute they could to get close to each other, they had seven years to make up for.

"But I don't understand how not telling Skinner changes things, and I don't know how you saw straight through me and came up with that assumption."

"The less Skinner knows the better, I couldn't picture him helping us find her if she was going to make our romantic involvement public knowledge. I mean we are his two best agents."

"Oh Mulder."

"And I know you Scully, I know what you want from your life, and children is one thing that you want but can't have because of being stuck with me on the X-Files. I owe you at least that after everything I've put you through."

"Mulder you haven't put me through anything."

"I have Scully. I could've made your life so much easier, but here we are."

"And I wouldn't have it any other way."

"Really?"

"Yes." They kissed again and got so involved in each other that they didn't notice they were being watched. Not until the door was slammed shut and they both jumped as they realised they weren't alone.