Hidden Tears
I hide the tears behind my eyes.
Everyone thinks I am this care free little, hate to break it to them but I'm not. I too can have intense thoughts and feelings. I too dream. I too can have nightmares.
A few nights ago I had a terrible nightmare. I was standing, all alone, high atop a mountain watching stars fall. I grabbed one of the fallen stars and it wept for me as it died, slowly more stars fell and encircled me as they cried. And I drowned in all their tears. I hated that dream, and it made me think about what it may mean.
I hate all those people who take the ones who love them for granted, because if they didn't have them, they might have ended up like me. Alone, unloved, and depressed. I don't let people know I am depressed, then they would try to comfort me and I would hate that.
And Sasuke, some times he makes me want to kill him. He has so many people, who adore and worship him, yet he still thinks he is alone in the world and obsesses over killing his brother to avenge his clan. Why can't he see that doing so won't bring back his family? I know how it feels to be alone and if I had someone to blame I may be bent on revenge as well, but I don't. I am different from him. I wonder why so many people love him like they do, all he seems to be on the outside is a cold emotionless shell, and I'm sure he has the looks the lady's love; but really how could someone love that?
Like Sakura, she loves him. But she is blind. Can't she see that he has no feelings for her? She should direct her attention elsewhere, say me maybe. I do like Sakura and wish she would return my affection, but that will never happen. So I guess I'll just have to keep praying that a miracle will happen.
And sweet little Hinata, so cute. I wonder why she is so shy. She is such a great person, one of the few good things in my life. Maybe I should direct my attention to her instead of Sakura? I think I will do that, and I can help her overcome her shyness, and I can forget about my stupid, pathetic life.
Now I sit here, looking up at the sky my eye color mimics, and I think. There are good things in my life, but mostly bad. But since I can not erase the bad things I will embrace them both.
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A/N: YAY! Another naruto angsty one shot. I really like this one, I wrote it on the last day of winter break. I know naruto seems very depressed in this but it works for the fic. I think a disclaimer is irrelevant for this fic since it's a fic, on a site called so obviously I am a fan and do not own it. But the title and most of the fic were deeply inspired by a web site called so I give the title name full credit to that site.