A/N: Thanks to everyone who enjoys reading this fanfic, it means a lot. So I'll keep trying. Eventually I'll have to get better, right?

I still don't own Yu Yu Hakusho.

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Chapter Ten: To be Held.

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I cling to him as tightly as I can, knowing that if I let go, he will leave me.

Hiei held back his cries with all he had, desperately grasping Kurama's shoulders to keep himself from breaking down. He didn't know what he was feeling. He was too happy to be with Kurama, to know that he cared. But no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't lose himself to the moment, and couldn't escape the aching pain in his heart.

"Calm down, Hiei," Kurama said in a quiet and understanding tone. Hiei forced a shaken sigh as the redhead placed his hand on his cheek, and smiled to him. Kurama could tell Hiei was upset, but kept going due to his determination to contain it all—Hiei wanted it too.

Hiei closed his eyes, began taking deep breathes, and Kurama waited patiently, watching for the right moment.

Hiei was so glad... that no one else was around to see him like this. He'd never live it down. But he just couldn't help it. He'd never been so close to a person. He didn't even care if he were to let it all out and cry in front of Kurama. Even though it would be giving in, Kurama would be strong enough to sooth his pain away...

Hiei composed himself, and Kurama leaned down to kiss him on the lips, briefly, but tenderly.

"Now" Hiei half whispered, as he fought vigorously to keep from shaking.

He couldn't understand how such a beautiful thing... could be so painful.

He couldn't help but dwell on the thought of that moment before Kurama walked away again, out of his life again, just like before. His body would betray him and stand still while Kurama's walked. And his eyes would feed his heart that bittersweet dessert of a final glance.

Hiei didn't want it... but he couldn't have the pleasure now without the pain. And even the memories would be both miserable and... delightful.

Nonetheless, it would be a pain he shared with Kurama...

Hiei would have smiled if he could have controlled his body.

Kurama's heart fluttered, realizing Hiei was at last more relaxed. He couldn't even attempt to describe to himself what he was feeling. To know that it was Hiei with him, without a doubt. To have someone he could trust his inner most secrets with, and still feel as though no one knew. He didn't have to put on an act and he didn't have to lie. He could feel and understand his needs without words, even if Kurama denied it, Hiei would know otherwise. And he would fulfill them too... to best he could.

Both hearts pounded with excitement, feeling the other so nearby. Although there was no regret between them, a silent understanding that there was pain to come was shared... and made it far less painful.

Kurama looked back to Hiei, giving the sweetest smile he'd ever seen, through crying eyes and layer of perspiration. Hiei returned it back all he could, and with that, Kurama's heart melted.

Strong arms wrapped around Kurama's waist, and just as he was about to cry out was met with a fierce kiss.

The two shared that kiss together for as long as their lungs allowed. But it wasn't too long before the both just couldn't take anymore, and parted.

Kurama moved over to Hiei's side, panting, and slowly grasped his lover's hand in his. Hiei held on tightly, then rolled on his side, wrapping Kurama's arm around his bare chest as he did.

Kurama inched closer, then rested his head on Hiei's shoulder, and placed his other arm gently around his waist.

"How much longer, Kurama...?"

"Tomorrow night. I have to work the following day, and we have to get to that chest in the morning"

"Then we still have tonight?"

"Yes"

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A/N: Now, I know that was the absolute shortest chapter I've ever written (and it really didn't make any sense whatsoever)... but I didn't have much time on this one, and I need to collect my thoughts for the actual REVEALING OF THE CHEST. Now, some have claimed it doesn't exist, but it DOES! BWA HA! I assure you! ...I just kind of drifted away from the actual plot of this story, which was supposed to be more action-packed... oh well.