As I Watch You From Above
By: Black Demon Myst
Author's Notes: Well, I'm a believer of life after death, and I'm pretty much writing in dead people's POV. I'm glad to be back at FF! I won't tell you who it is, and don't kill yourself trying to guess. I'll but his or her names at the bottom when you finish, and if you still didn't get it, you can read it again and see how the pieces fit. Sorry, I'm pretty much doing this really quickly… sorry if it's just not good. Just a bit of light writing!
Disclaimers: I can read your mind. I don't eat hamsters. No, I don't eat raccoons. Oh, and just for the record, just so you know, I don't own Saiyuki. ^_^
As I watch you from above,
I see someone like me,
but totally different from me.
A shell made of my face,
A frozen heart I never knew,
And someone I learned to love more than I.
As I watch you from above,
I see someone, with whom I have so many regrets,[1]
Yet so many rewards.
I live the regrets until today,[2]
But I feel the rewards as if they were given to me yesterday.
As I watch you from above,
I feel as if I should reach out
And tell you to stop.
I am no longer there.
As I watch you from above,
I feel like a burden.
Did I stop you from going on?
You say you are who you are
And you plan to stay that way.
You will destroy those who block your path
Yet it is you who is keeping you from going on.
But you are not the one who blocks your path.
You may not realize it, but he still blocks your path until today.
Yet you cannot destroy him.
For I am already dead.
As I watch you from above,
I can be proud to say I knew.
To be proud to say I loved.
To be proud in all things possible.
As I watch you from above,
I can see what you do,
But not what goes on.
What dies and what dies along with you.
A heart made of steel,
Yet it is a heart that has crumbled.
A heart made of hate,
Yet a heart yearning for love.
A heart made of sadism,
Yet it is a heart of masochism.
A heart made of indifference,
Yet a heart made of concern.
As I watch you from above,
I wonder if it would be better if I returned.
I wonder if I could save you for the second time.
I want to hear you again.
And teach you more.
To rest and fulfill the promise we made together.
Yet I must say goodbye.
I didn't have the chance to last time.
It's Komyo Sanzo!
1- "I see someone, with whom I have so many regrets,"
Komyo kept a lot of things unfinished. Like the sake, saying 'goodbye' and I'm sure he had a lot more to preach.
2- "I live the regrets until today,"
Oh, c'mon. If he hadn't died in that manner, do you think Sanzo'd be this way?