As I Watch You From Above
Chapter II: My Love Is A Burden
By: Black Demon Myst
I'm sorry updating took forever! Been studying too hard again, I guess…
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"All of you laugh at me because I am so different, but I laugh at all of you because you are all the same."
- Unknown
Hey, if anyone knows the author to this quote, could you inform me?
As I watch you from above,
I wish only to come back down.
How I yearn to hold your hand
To tell you I am gone.
Live your life only for yourself,
And know I'll always be here
Watching over you as you tried to do the same for me.
As I watch you from above,
I see a bright, happy face
With the sadness of the world hanging on his shoulders.
You don't have to carry that much.
You don't deserve to.
Someone like you should be living a happy life.
I'm sure God would've wanted you to.
He would say that it was the reward for your kindness and patience,
But I know you are not the type to take them off.
You took the sadness of those who were suffering
And gave them your happiness.
Indeed, too nice.
As I watch you from above,
I envy those who can still touch your skin,
Smell your hair,
Hear your voice.
I can't sense those anymore, I can only watch.
But to have known you once
And to have been part of your life,
Is the greatest gift your hated god has given me. [1]
As I watch you from above,
I think of those days we were together,
When we shared a life,
When we weren't alone.
But now we have been separated once again,
To endure the sadness we endured long ago.
But now you smile a plaster smile
As I watch you from above.
As I watch you from above,
I see the new life you lead.
A friend,
A savior,
And a child. [2]
You care for all, as you cared for me,
And I'm glad you can love again,
Trust again,
And laugh again.
For it was me who stole all of those from you,
For when my life was taken, so was yours, as well as your joy.
But I died,
And you reincarnated.
As I watch you from above,
I know you are no longer the man I knew,
No longer the man I loved,
No longer the brother I lost
And found again.
You are no longer the murderer driven by love.
Even though you are the same person,
I still don't know you.
You are only a reincarnation,
Only a shadow,
Of the man I loved.
You have reincarnated
Into the man I know now
As Cho Hakkai.
Goodbye.
It's Kanan!
Too cheesy for ya? Thought so. I'm not exactly an expert at cheesiness, but I guess it's more readable than my humor, huh? ^____^
Translations:
[1] "Is the greatest gift your hated god has given me."– This was written in the 'I don't believe in God.' and the 'Even if there is a God, he would be incompetent.' point of view.
[2] "A friend, A savior, And a child."– The Sanzo party. Go figure who is who. Tell me which you thought was who in a review, okay?
NOTICE: I know, I know. I've never really been a major writer over here, and I've never had a time when I was really well known. This is because updating takes forever, and I know 'I had homework' is not exactly a good enough excuse. So, everyone, I apologize for this and for all the future times I will be logged off from ff.net, because I'll have little chunks of my stories floating around the area.
The person who has probably suffered the most from my 'usoi'ness is Ami sama, my former "boss" on the edit department. However slow I was she took pity upon me and even said sorry, because she thought she gave too much, when I was just being lazy. Deepest apologies, Miss Ami, I'm very sorry.
Special thanks to ShamanShadow, who called me when I had to do my homework. Thanks to you, I finally sat at my terminal again.
Bai bai! (Disappears into the Myst)
ShamanShadow- I had no idea BDM could be so cheesy!
BDM- Trust me, neither did I.
ShamanShadow- Good job.
BDM- Stop copying me.
Your Author,
Black Demon Myst
"A true gentleman first practices what he preaches, then preaches what he practices"
- Confucius